Once in a blue moon

Suddenly have the urge to blog while am just wanna start to edit my thesis~~ Why i just cant finish the serious matter first~@.@ Well, nvm, i should have write something to 'sustain' my blog development ~~Haha, i feel guilty when i talk about 'development' because i dont take my blog as a diary but rather it is a place for me to keep some really special events, things and people that happened to pass by my life. So basically there is no development, or not much development.

First of all, something I'm obsessed with lately is the French manicure. Ya, i know French manicure is not a new thing for us. Somehow i only started to love it recently. Reason being during the last few weeks interview i have attended, in order to give the interviewer a good impression, i went for manicure in a nail salon in TS. I chose French because first my aunt suggest it and second it is indeed will create a elegant, classy and clean look. I used to be a fan of painting my nail black, dark blue, dark purple, dark red etc like so gothic, but as i aged (like i'm so old), i feel that is not really suitable for me anymore, and now i started to go for fancy color or baby soft color.

Below is the picture of my latest nail color which i have just painted last night. Mad love <3 <3 <3 However, it looks a lil messy and thick in real because i wanna get the pink even, so i have painted few layers. Besides, the white part painting is sooo hard because the brush head of my white lacquer is the bold (normal) type, so actually end up my fingers got the paint before i remove them with remover.

And final look is like this~~ =)))

 Secondly, is about cooking~~ I knew how to cook for years but i never really love to cook as i cook just because i want to eat, that's all. But recently, i have started to love it. Started to cook something different besides from chinese dish. Want to learn more western and middle east cuisine~=)) And i found out that to keep the broccoli still nice in its green or even wanna make it have a nicer green, is cook them in boiled SUGAR water, after take them out only add some table salt to enhance the taste. Besides, i also love to make salad nowadays. Have tried Garden salad and Caesar salad but sorry no pic available~~

And the picture below is the chicken omelet with carbonara spaghetti and mash potato onion salad~~=)

Next, i have permed my hair curl. I'm a lazy girl who put the least attention on my hair, and it appears as a hard routine for me to take care of the curl. T.T So everytime after i woke up from my cosy bed, my hair will in a mess and i seriously dun bother to set it, blow it or whatsoever~~@.@ So end up i always bun up my hair, to avoid myself look like a siao za bo~~ And now i know how important to have a nice hair, because frizzy and messy hair just not really make my day~~

Lastly, I'm going to grad!!!! Finally after 4 years of hardship~~gosh, it was already 4 years when i was enrolled to UKM but it's just like yesterday~~ Instead of saying time flies, i would like to say time teleports~@.@ Late night badminton at college just like yesterday and today i still can feel the arm pain, dance practice until late night just like yesterday that i can feel my bodyache today, chit-chating at cafe, at no.8 house, all the birthday-biess celebration etc just like they happened yesterday~ I hope our Nine Bonds relationship will always last~~ 4 years of friendship, so much memories~~ =')))

Ok, done blogging, now should have back to my thesis editing if i really want to grad, LOLX!! Have a nice day everyone!! xoxo

Things that made my daysss~

Apart from finished off my 4th year 1st sem final exam, of course i'm happy, but the happiness did not get intensified like 'Yippie, finally i finished all of them!!YESH! YESH YESH!!!'~~=.=...Mostly due to the immune system that i have developed towards exam after all these years of training~~Anyhow, somehow i'm still happy but felt relief is more appropriate to describe my feelings after all those last minute classes and tips~~Seriously I don't like last minute job~So freaking dreadful!!!

Ok, shall start with 'things' that have made my day:-

 1. The bling bling gold bow hair rubberband.

I'm not really good in remembering where i put my things, slowly developing dementia i guess...Apparently, when i made a statement before this sentence, it indicates that i have forgotten where i put this cutie actually. Forgot which day, i found it n i'm so happy that, ouch, and you're here!!=D This is a rubberband i 'demand' someone to buy for me, coz their 'bling-ness' attracts me a lot and i wanna get this one home, out of all sorts of design...and someone bought for me finally..I'm not really always use it because it is so pretty and i thought if i use it everyday or always, it will get damaged and dirty so fast. So i chose to keep it as a collection~~hehe~~=)

Lost and found indeed has made my day~~=))

2. RM200 of book voucher (courtesy of government)


Yup, due to the courtesy of government, each uni student get total of RM200 book voucher. I knew this kind of voucher will come out with lots of rules and regulations sooner or later, so before they start forming those rules and regulations which restrict me from buying novel which does not serve any educational purposes, so i spent it almost IMMEDIATELY right after i claimed them from my uni. Mostly i spent it on novels more than stationery and some unrelated things like umbrella and pouch~~

The novels and books i have got are :-
a) Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert (also author for very famous novel :Eat Pray Love)
b) Snow Flower and The Secret Fan by Lisa See (from the synopsis is about a story of a chinese woman who is going to encounter the tradition of Chinese==> Feet bound...in order to get a gd marriage)
c) The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
d) Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro
e) 灵魂转生的奥秘
f) a cookbook for mom
g) a beauty magazine

Except the magazine, none of them I have start reading as i'm still attach with the 'Eat Pray Love'..
Well, that day was indeed a sunshine happy day because I have got myself so many books without spending the actual price on it. *peace*

3. Urban Decay Naked 2 eye palette


Make up always my passion. Besides covering the flaws and highlight the good part, it serves a tool to increase a lady's confidence. I have noted that lots of boys don't like girls putting on make up, especially their own gf ( at least their mouth speak that way), but I'm sure no one will say i.e SNSD is so freaking cute and pretty before their plastic surgeries done and their make up. So just admit that make up does make wonder. =p

Well, I knew of this palette when i came across this blog (and also a full review of this palette). And for my knowledge, when i knew this palette, it was still so new and not even launch in US, but only sell in Urban Decay official page. So i have actually waited for sooooooooo longgggggggg and everyday click on the sephora malaysia fb page just to wait for them to announce the launching of this precious baby. And honestly this is the thing that kept on distract me from my final exam revision.

The price of this palette is RM 179 and currently is sold out in Malaysia. During the pre-launch only 200 pieces are available. And the next come back would be around march, according to the official speaking.

Aren't they pretty? The shades all is so natural and very suitable for those who favour natural naked eye make up or for those asian who has a pair of monolid eyes. Monolid eyes are hard to make up and mostly cant run away from doing smokey if you wish your eyes become bigger. And single shade colorful eyeshadow like green, blue, purple, pink etc definitely cant make the eyes outstanding unless u make them become smokey. Light color will make monolid eyes even puffy~~Review of this palette can be found in the link i have linked, just right up there. A very gd one!

And also not to forget to mention their lip junkie (the lipgloss came together with the palette) in naked shade. They are so wearable and comes with mint taste/fragrance. Ur bf might like it??Haha~~And the specialty of this lipgloss is it has a plumping effect which makes ur lips appeared fuller. And perhaps sexier??

Anyway, i'm really satisfied with this palette no matter for day make-up, dinner make-up, clubbing make-up or a dating make-up. A must-have item for make up enthusiast~=))

4. And lastly===>>> IPhone 4S (confetti) and the Urban Decay cannonball ultra waterproof mascara.


Let's talk about mascara first. Haha, gd thing also keep to the last what. =p

I came across the mascara review here. And i found it might be suitable for my eyes when i don't feel like putting on falsies. I have the same problem as the beauty blogger where my eyelashes do not seems to curl naturally at all and the root is hiding beneath my lid. So i always have problem in curling my eyelashes no matter how many times I curl them with my curler. And currently (before i purchased the cannonball mascara) I'm using two different brand and function of mascara which are the Majolica Lash Expander Frame Plus (first layer) + Kiss Me volume and curl (second layer) to make my eyelashes visible... Ya, before this they were invisible...=.=

So after reading the review, and after getting my angpau money, haha, then i went to sephora yesterday with only eyeliner make up to try on the mascara first. After applied it, i felt the mascara was awesome as it lengthening and volumize add on curling all at once. It equals to my majolica and kiss me mascara aready>.<  Well, i applied few layers to make my lashes look more visible. And they did!=D Surprisingly, the few more layers i added does not seem to contribute extra weight for my eyelashes to carry, they still remain curl compare with my another side of lash which curled with curler before and applied a different mascara X.

Well, i din purchased that soon. I plan to let it stay all day to see if it is really so waterproof and smudge-proff as they claimed, or if the fibers will flake-off once leave it for a long time. So, I happily went for lunch, movie, window shoppings etc~~And i found out they are really smudge-proof as my eyes bag did not get dark circle at all. Water-proof, erm, somehow i dun have the chance to do experiment on it, i assume they are. And thank God the fibers never flake-off like few other bloggers said. So, I happily purchased it with RM85~~Is abit pricey i know~~=((...so i'm now broke~my angpau money not so much only~~T.T

Finally, the best thing has come. IPhone 4S. There lies a story why my dad bought me the iphone. It started few years back when i purchased this laptop with RM2.4K combined with an epic failed of my brother few weeks ago when he vomit on his lappie and totally destroyed it. Second day after the epic incident i have ever seen happened, my dad brought my bro visit to lawyat and bought a new lappie for him.

On an odd day during chinese new year, i received my dad call where he said he wanna buy me a DSLR camera coz i used to ask if i can have one, but he said NO~The reason he wanna buy me DSLR is because eventually he realized that he bought laptops for my two younger bros when they enroll to uni and i used my own saving to buy, so he feels that he should buy something for me. So i said i think first if i really want a DSLR now.

After seeking advices from few friends, almost all of them ask me to get a smartphone as i'm not using it 'currently'. So i said oklo, i want an IPhone 4S!!! Haha, and tadaaaaaaaa, here is my new phone~~~~SOOOOOOOOO HAAAAPPPPYYYYY!!!!!!!!!=DDDDDDDDDDD

~changkat moment with my ah moi~

She is my best companion, for girl talk, for shopping, for club, for bar, and a lottt~~~Till now, i found that she is still the best one who can fit me a lot, that's y we go along with each other so well and all..and ya, she is pretty!=)

My ah moi who understand me so much~~love her to bitsss=)))

The cocktail we ordered. Left: cosmopolitan ; Right: Strawberry magarita...We shared them basically, but personally favoured the strawberry magarita more. The alcohol taste isnt so strong compared to the cosmopolitan. And the cosmopolitan tasted so much like cough syrup~~=.=

~Me~

Outfit of the day, bottom is navy blue skinny jeans...neway, wadever skinny jeans when they are on me, they arent skinny anymore...i shud reli put more effort in losing my weight n the fat around my hips and thigh...T.T

Last one, too bad cant see my eyes make up~~love the make up a lot today~~But seriously like nothing when it was being captured~~~=.=

Called it a day~~And it was really enjoy just sitting down there with your gf talking, drinking and looking at the crowd~~=))

P/S: i miss my kharrr~~~ XOXO ~~~

~hobby that i like recently~

Grooming myself nicely (during hang out~~XD) is my all time job and also favourite~~Which girl doesnt feel happy when they see a more presentable self. Of coz, outlook is not all, inner beauty does speak for you too~~



Here I share my recent hobby where i found is fun, economic, reli time-consuming (is so gd for those who dunno what to do besides facing the laptop, FB with no interesting updates), and lastly will make u feel brand new again~~=)) That is changing my nail color!!!XD

Reason being, when u wanna change new color, u need to spend time for cleaning the old color, it takes about 10 minutes, if those adhere so hard one, probably need ~13 minutes? So it equal to scrolling ur side bar for maybe 10 times in FB, or refresh for 8 times in FB when u hav ntg to do. Haha~~XD

After removing, now is turn to remove the dead skin around my nails as well since i bought the things for rm1 during promotion, n i bought 2, so wanna finish it faster. Ok, apply and rub it, takes u another 10 minutes, after that wash it n dry it.

Then start the main job, which is applying them on ur nail. First layer, second layer...2 layers are enough, as if too thick it will dry so slow and those hidden wet part might get spoilt when u carry out daily activities.And also the top coat for a glossy finish. This will take you like 30 minutes or more.

And lastly, u might spend another 8 minutes to use cotton bud to remove the stain which out from the edge of the nail~~

So totally it will takes you like almost 1 hour or more!!not bad, spending 1 hour for the things u like right? In the end, u feel happy!!=))n brand new again!ya, i easily feel contented!=)


So am now showing my collection~~neither a lot nor few...coz u know right, color things, in between this red and that red, there must be another intermediate no matter how close the shades are...so girls will never done with shopping~~hahah~~

These are the light and pastel shade~~price was gd, none of them more than rm10, at most also rm5.90, the cheapest is rm1, bought during promotion.

These are the dark shade. Half of it was given from my friend coz after she bought it only she realized she doesnt reli like it. Price range almost the same. rm5-rm8.9 (if not mistaken)

And this is my current nail....love it sooo much!!!!!!!!=)))And the quality is gd, so smooth and relatively quick drying. And it has a lil strawberry scent, so sweet!!

Ya, now i'm happy!!=p

belated birthday post~

There is a while after i wrote the second last post, i have closed my blog for a period due to some personal reason..neway, i doubt if anyone still reading my blog b'coz i was like just update twice a year lately, not as frequent as last time already~~neway, during those bored bored days where lecture keeps on cancelling, no momentum for study n bla~~have the urge to back to my bloggie, literally means will update more frequent...maybe wanna try out something new~~haha...well, there is the 'URGE' and 'MAYBE'...so, dun take it serious~~aww, i'm such an irresponsible blogger~~

Ok, back to the topic, my belated birthday post~~

Back to the old days when i was young, i always wish for a blast birthday celebration, u know, like throw out a party at somewhere else, invite sooo many guestssss, received sooo many pressiesss and take so many pretty photos~~However, that was once upon a time...

When i grow older, ya i'm 23, so wad~~i feel like whether there is a celebration or not, it doesnt important anymore...it's just another day for me, well, perhaps i can make it a lil bit more special?=))

This year, 2011, i had a very blissful birthday~~

I remember, during lecture, my coursemate sang birthday song to me, which is nice~~haha, thanks a lot for the lovely song~~After that, i went to KLCC, make over inside a public toilet, where dunno how many rounds of queue already witnessed the transformation process. After done my make up, is time to groom myself up, well, just putting on some accessories, did a simply hair-do and change to a heel. And also waiting for someone to come~

After a while finally he reached the destination and received his phone call telling me to wait him in front of the main door. As he wants me to accompany him to the car park nearby, beside the zouk which only cost us rm5, rather than KLCC, could have cost us a bomb!! So, ok, so we met, finally!=)

After finish parking the car, the mister asked me to close my eyes, i said y? somehow i just did it. And from back seat he takes out 2 roses. I assume he didnt know the meaning behind coz when ppl gave roses to the special one, either 1, 3, maybe a bouquet or 99, 999 or something else which share the common meaning. 2, the figure is rather odd, but my heart was soften into tears becoz i nvr expected these from him~=))But he said, is my birthday, since i dont want cake, at least there must be something to make it different. And girls, can u imagine when there is a cute guy wearing something that he doesnt usually wear, find a florist, bought 2 roses without nicely packed, holding it at shopping mall n walk back to the car park?it wass so lovely~~it doesnt matter less flower or more flower, nicely packed or not, it was all enough~really!=)i was so happy already..haha!!

After that, as i made my promise, i treat him chilis...we just sat inside the restaurant for few hours. Luckily we found a nice view seat, so we just spending the wonderful time looking at the crowd outside the window, enjoying the nice meal, keeps on refilling our beverage n chat~~Blissful!=)

Fed the stomach, killed the time, we went for shopping. There is an 'Charles and Keith' newly opened in KLCC, so i went there to choose my gift from my housemate/coursemate. I bought a pair of olive green sandal with some artificial gemstone, a lil bohemia style, which is always my preference. And also went to SEPHORA, too bad ntg go home with me, tho the 'NAKED' palatte already restocked, but still after think twice i didnt buy it since i still left so many cosmetic with me, so better dun simply spend the money. After that went to my all-time favourite, WATSONS, haha...got myself a ZA liquid eyeliner since my eyeliner finish so fast as my tiny eyes required few mL each time when i do my eye make up!LOL!!!XD, few mL...okla, i bragged, haha but seriously at least 0.5 mL...is consider a lot just to make up the eyes...

Time passes really fast, after that we sat at the starbucks, sharing one glass of forgot what beverage, something with caramel, and chat, and taking photoss~~And we called it a day!=)))

Simple yet blissful right???=))   

It's me~~obviously..=.=

It's the sandal from my coursemate...Tho i'm petite, i still love to wear flat all the time~~i just knew myself is a petite after i google it. They define ppl who 160cm and below are petite~~~

Lastly, this is the gift from my lovely mei mei, soyoung, also from charles and keith...Lately so obssess with Chanel the classic bag, so choose the similar one~~love it heapsssss!!!!!!

~xoxo~

='(

i shouldn't have meet u in the first place, perhaps i wouldn't know how awful a heart-breaking feeling can be~~ Suddenly everything seems so wrong~~='(

Eat Pray Love

When i watch the movie , i was actually wondering who the hell in this earth will actually face the same prob as Liz, where she wanna step out from the marriage so desperately, wanna get rid wad she has used to in her life...For me, it was just a movie, a drama of life~~

And now, hell no i'm the one who standing on the horn of dilemma, a situation where i thought it was extremely ridiculous for me, like what's the point of being like Liz, just go on with the marriage, giv birth to a bunch of babies, stick to her career n just live! A happy family+secured career= happy ending! That's it!!N i forgot the fact that we would never feel 'full' and 'contented' about ourself, our life and bla bla bla yet we are scared of stepping out from our comfort zone~ At the end of the day , we suffered~sometimes when u hav been comfortable for so long, u'll get numb, and u no longer understand what happiness is~

And lately, finally i sort of understand the feeling of being stuck in the middle of nowhere in my life~ where 'lifeless' this vocab slowly creep into my life without seeking my permission...n now i realize, when it comes, it just comes without giving u an early notice~by the time u realized it, it is actually happening already...And u start thinking, wad i want in my life... when love, relationship, friends and family can no longer tame the desire within u~~u want something bigger than these, and u start looking, what is something bigger than all these~~freedom?

Yesterday after a long talk with someone, suddenly i hav the urge to get out from here, want to experience something i have never experienced before...like back-packing to some other countries alone for few months, see new things, learn some new languages, taste the cuisine that i've nvr tried, devote myself to God in order to find the balance in life, or run into someone during my 'refinding myself' period n alot more~~very Eat Pray Love right? N i sort of called it as a turning point, a complicated phase when u are going to entering a new phase which makes u either a better person or sadly to say, a worse one~~=(...just like metamorphosis, just dat u might become a moth instead of a butterfly~~

Life is hard, it only comes easy when u think it is~~

Living life needs lots of courage, but changing ur direction of life needs a lot more courage, more than wad u hav expected...

God bless!

Recently...

Recently, i look like this~~ (lol, juz an excuse to post my recent photo..XD)
Recently, i'm busy with thesis proposal~~
Recently, i've so many thoughts in my mind...getting myself grad, get my dream job, hopefully, n moving out from this house~~
Recently, i realize i shdnt limit myself in so many things...becoz life is short n hav fun enjoying it~~
Guess time will really change someone, n perhaps i'm not 'so' young anymore~~gosh, i miss my 18!!!>.< young is always the best asset for girl...
Recently, i love to watch love movie, i wonder why~~maybe can find so many meaningful quotes in it...quotes about love, life and everything...Sometimes life need some meaningful quotes despite a short one, to wake u up n make you realize something u hav nvr realized...
Recently...

stronger

Sometimes, i hope things will get better, go all my way~~somehow, it nvr would...this imperfection perhaps have made me appreciate more what i hav now~~n thus make me realize how could the imperfection could be that beautiful~~

Out of a sudden, i realized, if things only can go this way, if~~then wad i need is more courage, to overcome all those waves which ready to wash me away~

Thank God i meet you, you are the most beautiful thing i've had in my life~~irreplaceable~~

Again, fact proved that nothing is perfect, but let our mind 'distorted' a lil to view it as perfect...

God, plz let me be stronger~~=)

#I miss you...#

simply happiness

Girl thought that sex is important for a boy, hence she gav him her virginity~~

Boy thought that brand is important for a girl, hence he gav her chanel~~

But who knows everything was just self-assumption...just because we thought it is~~

Girl would happy if u just cuddle her head, buy her chips n go silly together with her~~

And boy would happy if u make him a home-style dinner, n then lean on cosy sofa and watch movie until fall asleep~~

N not forgetting saying 'i love u' everyday~

Simply happiness~~

Good and loyalty

Sweetest thing of the day:

Promise me u'll always be gd n loyal like this, this could be an element for me to marry u in the future~~if we were fated, no matter how far i go, i will come back to you~~

*i was pretty shocked when i hear this...well, am happy no doubt~~=)

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I remember my fren once asked me before, what's the point of being so gd n loyal to ur bf and in the end he broke all the promises, break ur heart n the worst is, he fooled u again n again eventhough u two hav broken up.....

Well, now i know the answer: be gd n loyal is not for ur bf, but for urself....make urself worthy to be loved by someone who is a good guy in return~~

My bf might dump me one day tho he will sweet talk sometimes, make promises n so on like other bf will do....n if happen one day yr bf really dump u, nvr asked urself y that time being so gd n loyal...becoz, it proves that the man doesnt worth ur love at all...n gd girl always deserve a better man~~=))

hurt~~

i'm sorry if i hurt u...
but do u know that u hurt me the same way too 3 years back?
n i din say a word on it...
but after years n years, repeating occurance,
i think i hav made clear something...
that no matter what had happened,
the only person who can help,
is myself...
what has been done cant be undone,
what is fact indeed a fact...
a broken heart even it heal,
still there is a scar...
i'm sorry if i hurt u...

Marry or Not?

As a woman, for sure we hav come through meeting some other womans who is still single even at their age of 50. It could be 2 reasons, either u seriously enjoy single life, everynight go club go bar (50 still can go young ppl places ok...=.=), or u couldnt find the right guy to marry~

As for me, after i've seen them, the bunch of unattached, no matter how happy they look, somehow i still feel like it's kinda lonesome when the moment u back to ur apartment, there is no hubby n no kids warm welcoming u back...Thus, i told myself, i wanna get myself married before 30. Well, is juz part of my plan, whether i'll get marry or remained single, is still an unknown n somehow a lil depends on fate u know~

Ok, let assume u get to marry. But, woman has to really choose the right one before u step into marriage life, make a vow n commit to someone who u will spend the rest of ur life with~

Or else, the rest of ur life will become like this........



Being a mad frustrating woman complain on wadever things on ur marriage, u even will think that regreting marry this guy...I bet every woman dun wish this to happen, who wanna make their life a misery right? Believe it or not, my mom told me after married, husband n wife will only argue on these thingss....MONEY, KIDS, ATTITUDE N WOMAN~~that's all....n if u get the wrong guy, muahahhaha, welcome to the miserable marriage life....

If u ask me, what criteria(s) should a man possesses to make yourself safe to marry him?

I would answer u this...


1. The man must love his family

It is obvious if a man cannot love his family when he is young, he wouldnt love his future family when he become a husband and a daddy, and ur family...well, of course he should also know how to balance the love in between..So, for me this is the most important element when u want to marry a guy, see how he interacts with his family...

2. The man must be a cute man

Dun fall for a handsome man, fall for a cute man instead.. Handsome man wont made ur day but a cute man will. Imagine that u gonna spend ur life with him for the rest of ur life, 'handsome-ness' will fade, but cute-ness is something inner and can be last. If ur man is not cute enough, then i guess ur life would be kinda bored... u know, like sometimes u two will fight like kids, crack some lame jokes which can make u laugh for the whole day, and sometimes giv u lil surprises, maybe a sudden kiss or a sudden hug...For me, when i'm cooking, n my cute bf hugging me from behind and say :'thanks honey', it is sweet enough indeed...=)

3. The man must can do housechore, maybe not all but at least some to help out

Man who doesnt help out a woman do housechore when they r still couple, do u think they will bother to help u to change a fius or a bulb after u marry him?


4. The man can cook...(actually this is bonus la~~~haha...)

Whether he can cook u very simple meal like fried egg, sausage n toast with butter like this....

or make u some sweet-into-heart dessert like this or some nice nice cuisine which can compared with restaurant outside....

muaahahahha, u r the lucky one girl~~=))Dont u girl think a guy who can cook is soooooooo attractive??Imagine ur bf in an apron washing vege, cutting meat n bla bla bla~~=))

5. The man will buy u gift sometimes

I heard woman says that i would be happier if a received a bouquet during normal day than valentines or anniversary...maybe no need a bouquet, but a flower with some sweet notes can enlighten ur gf or honey's day...Guys out there, trust me, the real girl of u wont demand u to buy so expensive stuff, they will help u to save also...but they also want some lil gift surprise when u two are together...Like when she is having exam, buy her boxes of candy and snacks; when she is sick, buy her watermelon, or something when u shop n u feel is suitable for her...

For me, if the man is still has no career n cannot give u luxury life, but if he loves u enough, he will try his best to giv u things that he could 'afford' (not necessary expensive stuff, it could be a 'romance'..=))), at least for now when u two still together...

'I'm tired', 'I'm out of money', 'I have no time' cannot always be the excuses~~

If ur man can do this, grab him tightly, and a happy marriage could be urs...=))

if NOT, think twice before u enter the stage of marriage....

Welll, super important here, to get a great guys like this, of course u as a girl, should be nice and worth enough to let him do so~~=))

Relationship~

The story begins like this....

A very random night, a boy n a girl met, and believe it or not, pheromone has makes them attracts to each other so much and finally, ya, they fell in love, deeply... And shall i end this story with, 'they live together happily ever after' just like what disney fairy-tale ever told us n somehow poisoned our mind that white prince will eventually appear in our life?

Well, ya, it could be possible the story can be ended with 'living together happily ever after'..But who knows behind this sentence, it actually takes the couple how long and how hard to reach this stage~

In a relationship, firstly of course honey-moon period becomes the dominant. After a while, perhaps a 3 months to half year, stability or comfort period will take place where couples are so much used to each other n being so true-self to each other until ur so tak boleh tengok punya pattern (eg., farting, muahahhaha~~XD..ok, tell me who dun fart..=.=..it just depends if u can make it into silent mode or vibration or wadever) also come out. Well, this is gd if ur other half can accept the whole you (actually it depends on the degree of tolerance ur partner has, if the degree is wide then congrats, otherwise pile of complaints and nagging will be heard from ur loved ones). Sooner or later, arguements take place due to the increasing of involvement in each other life. This is kinda true when something or wiv someone u get so close with, the occurance of friction increase, and gradually unstatisfaction appears n BOOM, the ever first arguement occur~~

Somehow couple could survive the very first one, but not guarantee with the subsequents one~And there is the critical period to determine if the relationship can be kept going~~YA!!accept the truth that things only has YES, or NO~either u make it or u couldnt. Of coz in this case is for couple who make it, if cant make it then BYE BYE end of the story.

If couple could survive after so much arguements, eventually a compromise will be produced after the pattern. For example, BIG arguement, then one side will keep quiet (NOT a cold war), if ur other half is rational enough, he/she will calm down, if he/she is not then sorry for ur ears to endure those bullshitss~and when both side are totally calm down, then only talk about it and solve it...it is even better if a solution could be sort-out and compromises reached. And believe it or not, this will appear to be a cycle...just like domestic violence...Who is strong enough to make through this cycle, then marriage could be ur choice...*A happy marriage is always a 2-way efforts.

There is one period in between where after going through the whole cycle, u will realize he is actually that man/girl who is the one u can be together with, living together, treasure life together, u know...and holding hands together till both of u go to consult dentist and get falsies together, and u always n perhaps love him more n more, n then--------U STARTED TO SCARE THAT YOU WILL LOSE HIM~~~This doesnt sounds good coz as a human beings we should accept the fact that no matter what happend, in the end, we will lose the someone. We couldnt find the ETERNITY physically but yet ETERNITY EMOTIONALLY is somehow hard to be seen. Human is greedy, we want something lasting physically where u can touch it, see it, hear it, taste it, smell it..Senses, are sin~~(at least for a pure buddha, it is!)That's the reasons making human beings demand for more and forget that actually without any of them, we still can survive, with all the fundamental things that already given by The Almighty. Due to the greed, u want something forever which u can actually see it with ur eyes but not heart. That's y u afraid of losing him~

Once in a blue moon, this question pop out in my mind. Can i afford to lose him?at least for now~~ (plz dun compare ur bf with ur family, coz ur family is always the first and no one can afford the pain of losing any of ur family member...If a bf is gd enough, then he will become ur family~=))
Ok, back to the questions~ANS: i realize i scared that i will lose him~ It's been really a while i never look into his eyes, and few days back, out of very random i look into his eyes again n i c something, undescribable, which makes me think that : 'what if i lose this man i love one day?'..and i lost...to no where...

Perhaps instead of afraid of something which is an unknown, i should spend more time n more effort to love him...Coz it's never been easy to find someone like the one who is right beside u holding ur hands now~ If one day happen that i lose him, i should tell myself, no sad, no regreting n all, coz at least we have the ETERNITY before when we look into each other eyes, thoroughlly... that is where u feel love, the way into his heart...

n yes i love my bf~

Isnt it lovely?

We kiss we love n occasionally we fight crazily like kids when we r young where both of us still energetic and capable of doing so much crazy things...and when both of us grow older, maybe couldnt be as crazy as before, but i believe a state of equilibrium has reached where we learn how to love in a way with a better give and take~~

And this is all about love and also life, give and take...Never afraid of losing someone u love when u two have been in love before, at least there is something happened in your life which carved a nice memory in ur heart which is unremovable~~=))

perfect woman~~

Ppl said, behind a successful man, there would be a woman he loves~~
I would like to say, sometimes, behind a perfect woman, there would be a man she loves too~~

I aint perfect for everyone, but HE makes me perfect, at least for myself....=)

the recent me~~

The recent me??


~still love to cium-cium her ah moi~~

~still love to do those silly pose~~

~face still that round and big....=.=.....

~loves her braces a lot....haha...^o^

~loves to smile wide without k bout the braces...

~trying to be more feminine.....*blush*...haha....

~still the old me where i think i've gained something outer n inner that i not really realized. But i know i've changed...thanks to all the disaster which came to me within this holidays~~they make me grow stronger and tougher....

it hurts a lot~~~

Dunno wad's the reason i came back to blog...emo i guess....
Juz back from work, juz settle down myself, n my legs seems like do not get rest still n roaring in pain....
How many hours i work for?
Gosh it's only 4 hours but it seems like so damn long when i'm at counter....
I din stand all the time, thank God there is still a chair for me to sit...
But the heels hurt a lot whenever i wear it......
The heels doesnt fit me at all. I hav size 4 feet but i was forced to bought a size 5 low heels as i really need a pair of working heels at that time..limited choice n there is no size 4 n i'm quite ok with the design everything so i just grab it, thought by adding whatever pad then my foot will fit in nicely eventually....added all types of inner-sole to make it fit to my foot....
In the end, i can walk in a nicer way but it hurts a lot....
What's the point of wearing a pair of shoes that u think it's nice, elegant, make ur legs look longer n slimmer n bla bla bla but it hurts and not comfort at all indeed?

Aiks, dunno wad i emo for.......

Lesson of the day: Things that do not suit u will only hurt u a lot though u like it very much...

the moment~

感觉，还真的是一瞬间的事情~~
很开心，不需要用那些勉强人的借口，最终还是放手，这个才叫真正的放下~~

生活加油！！

前天去了云顶，做了些疯狂的事，开心延续到今天~~
偶尔抛开一切疯一天，原来也是mentally的一种休息~

生活再加油！^^

陷在回忆里面~

不要知道答案，是不是更好~
老早作了选择，但为什么知道后却那么伤心~
回忆涌现，开始到结束原来不曾模糊过~
结局只是让我觉得那么的可惜~
‘它’不曾在我身边逗留过~
我的另一扇窗呢？
我想是上面的太忙碌了吧~
我的小case被他们丢进waiting list了～
＝（

movies~

最近一直都在ppstream翻回旧片来看~
以前都喜欢看周星驰的搞笑片，现在这类型的片却打动不了我，反而以前怎么看也看不明的文艺片让我深陷了。

记得最先接触的是《星语心愿》和《心动》，也是n年前的事了。。。
过后有一排都没看这种两小时的电影，反而追看连续剧~
后来有了ppstream，无聊时就会翻旧片看~
还真的发现了不少宝~
刚看完《如果。爱》，看完后，没话说~
我想，‘没话说’的定义是一种境界，没有得评论，是太好了吗？
演得太细腻了。一个拥抱，一个眼神，一滴眼泪，一句简短对白，都说进心坎里~



~永远爱你的，是你自己~

~现实的诱惑vs爱情的？？（我也想不到要放什么）。。。现实说：‘爱能喂饱你吗？’；爱情说：‘我以为有爱就够了？’。

好一个‘以为’，是‘疑问’？还是‘反问’？

~爱情里面，会找到‘复仇’，但往往伤害了曾经让你心碎的人后，才发现自己还是以前的自己，那个不忍心把对方伤害的自己~多傻啊！

另一部让我‘哇’的，就是‘色戒’。。。无可否认，床戏是个卖点。

令我印象深刻的，是汤唯说了一句：‘三年前你可以的，为什么不？’~

~《黑皮书》，让你知道，不能全相信你所看到与听到的，外面的世界是险恶的可以~这部戏不能说十分精彩，但它就是会让你静静地看完~

~《傲慢与偏见》，我也不晓得为什么会放这上来，因为看完了也没有很明。还有，它是第一部看着字幕也不是很懂的戏，用词很深。我觉得需要再找一天好好看过一遍，再慢慢消化，应该会很累人的~

~无可否认，setting很美，就像《断背山》的setting一样~

其实还后很多不错的片子，个人推荐《画皮》，《花木兰》。故事围绕的莫过于爱情，但我觉得它好看是因为。。。它们就好像实实在在，发生在我们四周一样~