ti-ratana visit today...^_^

9.30a.m. has reached salak south wiv kian hou n seok hui to meet up wiv yun han n his coursemate....BUT, they still in college, will take at least 50 minutes to reach there, so we juz lepak here n der n hav breakfast first....

Finally they hav arrived but i dunno we shud actually meet up at ktm, so we take another walk to go to the ktm station. well met them halfway, so we start our journey after all the ppl hav gathered...so excited actually, kakka....^_^

First, the director, Raj briefed us everything about the orphange first....actually when i saw the first small lil girl who hug me, i've got the strong feeling dat actually we, those who own a perfect n complete family, is a happiness....a happiness dat cant buy wiv anything n cant be replaced...they reli very unlucky n i seriously very sympathy for them....y?coz their parents dunwan them n send them here...n as an innocent kid, they hav to accept the fact dat they cant grow in a complete family, they hav to face everything all alone, n the ppl dat can help them is the ppl wiv no relationship wiv them...how sad was dat...:(

Another sad thing...we hav visited to the baby room as well....the youngest baby oni few months old...coz the baby's mother is an underage teenager, so she sent the baby here....another baby was sent here is becoz her mother got the blue symptoms after giving birth to her...i oso got no idea y they sent their baby here instead of the depression mother...weird!!!one word, they r soo 'ke lian'....Sigh, plz la all the teenagers, use CONDOM or take POSTINOR while having intercourse or after intercourse ok? if dunwan this scene happen, plz spend some money on dat...dun giv birth to a new life then abandon them, they r innocent ok? they need luv juz like everyone do....

After dat we visit to the old folk's home as well....we cleaned the room for them....they r oso another bunch of pity ppl in dis world coz their kids cant spend time wiv them in their late life.... i hope i wont do dat to my parents....Y THEY CAN BREED N TAKING K OF FEW KIDS UNTIL THEIR KIDS GROW UP BUT WE CANT TAKING K OF OUR PARENTS WHEN THEY GREW OLDER?

~while raj briefing us.....

~going up to the baby room.....

~shao xian....all the boys sooo exhausted playing wiv all the kids...they r all juz like monkey climb on my frens' body.....soooo energetic....

~kian hou n the boy....man, dis boy juz like the dai lou...the walking style, the way he talk....n the way he fight...my gdness, if i was his sis, sure beat him 99...ya, i'm fierce, so dun piss me off...

~yun han n one of the them.....lolz, it's tiring rite?i bet playing basket ball oso not dat exhausting....kakakak....^_^....

~me n another 2 kids....they left hand side one actually quite obedient de....oso dunno y i'll meet him here, so kesian....:(

~me n the indian....all the indian kids can speak mandarin fluently....dis kid so damn perasan, keeps on asking me to take his perasan punya photo, kakaka....

~lolz, his perasan photo....he was trying to pose actually...not dat i curi-curi take his photo...lolz...

~fiu, finally, one day had passed. we end up our journey in kl central, mcd...have our lunch+dinner...me n hui....my primary schoolmate till now....13 years or friendship...^_^

~yun han n sharid....took it randomly....

~random pic.....we're all so exhausted n hungry....

Today seriosuly is a very meaningful day for me....even though we do the housechore for them without getting paid, but still we feel contented...dat's wad we call volunteer wad...kakak....i enjoy sitting der n c how they laugh happily when playing wiv each others, becoz this is the chilhood they shud go thru...i enjoy playing badminton wiv the boy, n let him know he got the chance to becum national player one day; i enjoy singing together wiv the girl coz her dream is becuming a singer , n i giv her sum support n encouragement...actually, some of them reli got the potential to becum a very bright person in their future....juz depends how well the manager carry the system n depends on themselves....if they r ratinal enuf n understanding, i believe they will be very bright...coz for me, i'll think dat orphange will be more mature than the normal kids as they r forced to learn to becum more independant compared wiv others, learnt how to take k of ppl dat dun hav any relationship wiv them....sigh, nowadays de kids ar, those very hang fuk dat kind, all r soooo protected, dunno how to do housechore, dunno how to cook, reli wad we called 'flower in the greenhouse', tooooo fully protected, like dat oso not gd de, the level of immune system will drop....

N from their eyes, i got the same signal from each of them, they r soo eager for luv, they need attention, but they couldnt get it....the one we shud blame is the parents...if u nvr thought to breed a child, dun giv birth, pls do the prevention well, n after giving birth, dun abandon them eventhough they r borned imperfect, like retardness, physically disable n so on...coz after u giv birth, it's ur responsibility to bring them up, but not giv to somewhere else the things dat u dunwan, n they all life, not 'things'....how can it be?!

I reli hope that ppl out der, if u reli free n wanted to do some charity, ti-ratana would be a gd place for u to pay a visit, of coz any other similar places will do....if guys out der interested n wish to visit der next time, contact me k?i'll get the details for u guys...^_^

msn/friendster: footprint_cy@hotmail.com

so so~

Today, went for the audition in cheras. (the audition was sux man!i din fully prepare n got no mood to sing, so mostly i'll fail.n the luck wasnt by my side, coz they has cancelled the training class jor, i cant join the class, plus i got no own transport, lagi susah!!!)

After that while waiting for train, feeling like dunwan to go home....called up some of my frens, but so sad they r not free..so thinking, wer shud i go?reli not in mood today, dun feeling like wanna go home...so conclusion, i hav decided to visit my ex-collegues in the mall.

When the train has reached pwtc, as usual, i walked there....wondering wad will it becum as one of my collegue told me lazo has changed a lot. B4 i reli step into the shop lot, the marcus shouted:'MELODY~~~~', OMG, he scared ppl in the mall dunno me izzit?so damn loud wei!!!

N ya, reli change a lot. my ex-manager, kenny has resigned, the new branch manager currently is Calphen, a very handsome flirty boy. Then cashier has changed to Yvonne instead of the ex-cashier, Lynn, a new sales executive, Anthony....three new faces. Luckily they r all very friendly, especially the manager, keeps on joking around...gd, at least it wont bored others.....y la he nvr come earlier??!!lolz.....

Then jokes around wiv them, lepak here n der, talked to some frens der.....n hav dinner wiv few of them..lepak till about seven something only i willing to go home...wad a moody day....

dream or reality?where is the balance point?

Thought can get rid of everything n ready for my audition on dis saturday. Somehow today when singing k wiv ching ju, i hav received jess's sms, telling dat she got an job offer from dis fri to sun, budget rm150 per day, muz work for 3 days, cant skip.

So i start thinking, drop the job, or drop the audition?

I know u guys will doubt, y still i'll think which one to drop?i shud go for singing rite?since singer is my dream, n i've waited for so long, n now there is a chance for me, y am i still dilemma-ing?

Dis is the reason after i hav analysed....
1) i'm jobless now, money apparently for me is quite important.
2) the audition i not sure whether can pass or not.
3) If i'm lucky enuf, pass the audition, i still gotta go for training, dunno for how long b4 i start performing, maximum is 6 months. If no improvement has shown during training, then they will drop u.
4) Even i go for training, n got the permission to perform, i'll sing without getting any paid first by the time i gonna spend for transpot.(lrt n cab for double journey).The reason why is they train me for free, when i sing there i eat n drink for free, so obviously i hav to sing for free. After they think dat i'm qualified oni they will send me here n der, dat time oni get paid, but isnt high though. n transport still self-prepared, furthest gonna sing at klang.(that's wad the singer told me)
5) Public uni will reopen on 30th of june.Obviously my singing career wont last long eventhough i got it...coz for sure i'll further my study.....

Ok, finish!So, dis is life rite?at first it juz seems like so perfectly fit for u, u juz can go for ur dream as ur wish, somehow there is always something will block u in the middle n making u dilemma, dat is reality, stupid idiot reality!!!!

Dream or reality?where is the balance point?

Money reli is the root of all evils.......but the most evil is ppl. coz ppl giv the value to money....chi chung senior, u r right! we r all evil.....:(....wad a sad fact~

happy...^_^

juz now received a phone call from an agent....ya, i sent my profile to him laz few months i think. the position is as a singer...i'm sooooo happy....i've waited for so long n finally he call back le...kakaka, gonna take gd k of my throat, practise my vocal, sing some songs then ON....

sat dat day plz dun get nervous, juz an audution....sing from ur heart, touch the judges....u muz do it k???ganbatte yo melody!!!!^_^

~crazy poppy'zzzz~

Kakaka, yesterday went clubbing wiv my anata chiling at poppy...we sneaked inside actually coz we only 20, still underage, legal age to enter is 21 for poppy....pity my two girls fren, so long oni can go in coz they r still smaller than us, harder to go in, so how?fake ic lo...hahaha, shhh!!!!

Long time nvr perasan edi...took ermmm, relatively quite many pic i supposed, while waiting for chiling's fren....inside car, cam-whoring like siao.....first time put on fake eyelashes. Man, i luv the effect damn lot....my eyes becum bigger n more obvious in a sudden..of coz wiv my smokey eyes oso, making it more obvious....i'm so in luv wiv my make up dat nite....^_^

~yer, green face ghost...hahahha.....

~I LUV DIS THE MOST!!!AWWW....dunno la, i luv it coz the 'feel'....so nice....k, i know i'm super perasan edi..hahha...sorry k....

~chi ling n i, randomly....

~again we two....:P

~i'm kissing my darling...first knew in f2, darling since f3....heart u a lot....^_^

~ngek ngek, guys out der, dun mess wiv me~

~first time i c my EYES.....I HAV NOTICED UR ATTENDANCE FINALLY, MY DARLING EYES....KAKAKKA.....thanks to fake eyelashes....

~chiling n i, inside poppy's ladies....

~cy n cl....open eyes big big, kakakka....:P....ah dear, happy to club wiv u, so much fun!!!^_^


Club till around 3am,, then going home le...slept for 4 hours then wake up again go working, SUBANG!!!!!so damn far, i hav spend about 45 minutes juz for travelling....then my legs, foot so damn pain, wearing high heels n stand for whole day....sobbing....:'(

Tml gonna stand again....sigh......

-no title-

#dang ta xu yao ni shi, shen me li you dou bu shi li you....#

I'm going insane....

I think i'm having PMS rite now...was so sensitive n not reli in mood today.....feeling tired since yesterday......physically n mentally fatigue.......

Wad happen to us?
Am i right by doing dis?
Am i know wad am i, me myself doing rite now?
How is he thinks about me?
How r they think about me?
N how am i think about myself?
Y am i becum like dis?i know i'm not but y?

I'm going insane......
I know i'm torturing myself....
I know the one who let me drown is not him but myself.....

Spare my sat nite for one crazy nite...
I'm getting destroyed by my devil side...
Angel, where r u?u r getting far from me do u know?

~the old days~

view了整个下午的friendster，从朋友那里找到几张‘想当年’的照片。。。
好怀念那些穿校服的日子。。。后悔当初为什么不拍多一点。。。



~翠颖生日。。。那天我们抛开了spm预考的包袱，痛快地玩了一整天。记得那天看‘童梦奇缘’时，我哭得很惨~

~学校大扫除，大家都忙得不亦乐乎。。。他们都是我七，八年的朋友了，有几个已经有十年了。有些失去了联络，有些少联络，有些每一年还会聚一，两次。。。

~并肩作战了两年的同窗。从winnie那里找到的，很想念很想念她er。。。还有想念很多人啦！有些没什么改变，有些变了一些，而我觉得我和chiling变最多吧！不懂，有些太久没见了，变了我也不懂。

~这个不用画都懂我是哪一个吧！stpm考试的最后一天。这天之后，我真的真的把我的中学生涯走完了，一点也没漏。没后悔进f6，虽然过程真的是百般煎熬。。。

其实view着mei sing的friendster profile时，心中满是感慨，尤其看到她在校园里拍的照片。自己不是照中人，但都很有回忆。真的很想找一天回SJI拍那种很有feel的照片，但我需要到专业人士与器材。sms问了chai，他好像没有那个意思。没关系吧，也不想一直麻烦他。看哪一天又认识到摄影师，再问他有没有兴趣，哈哈！

lazynessss~~~~

My biological clock has mess up!!!!
sleep at 1a.m in the morning, very early leh.....then wake up 12 noon....
hav my breakfast, help mommy for a while, take bath, then juz lay on my bed read novel till i feel like wanna on9 or wad....
novel can kill me, seriously....juz so addicted once u start reading it....
borrowed 6 mandarin novel from money, n i hav finish 2 within 2 days, now the 3rd one is in progressing.think can finish tonight.....
i very lazy to go out le.......so sien.....travelling alone is very sien.....only my mp3 is accompany me when i'm taking lrt, bus or walk to destination...so lonely.....
tml still wanna go to tropicana there for product training.....man, y soooo far away!!!!
i'm sooooooooo lazy ar!!!!!!!!

~men's talk, all to listen but half to believe~

it's already N times i delete n resave ur number......
eventhough i hav deleted 'u' from my phonebook, but still i cant delete 'u' from my memory n my life....
i nvr knew dat i still can remember ur phone number till now....
i would nvr remember else one's number unless it's very easy to remember...
but y?i hav found one formula to remember ur number, till now, i still remember the formula...
today, ur sms make me smile again........
but i'll always remember that:"men's talk, all to listen but half to believe...."
so, i hav decided,
dis time,
i would nvr resave ur number into my phonebook again,
i wanna forget u,
i know i can do it when u no longer contact me,
i know i can do it when we no longer meet up.....
Thank God u r further from me now....

so sad...

最近爱上类似fashion show那种调调的音乐，感觉很飘，很迷幻。。。给我，再准确点形容这类型的音乐，我觉得‘它很诱惑’会比较贴切。。。

认识Gregorian这首So Sad是两年前的事了。当时学校举行Orientation ball nite，我当了他们的cat-walk老师，哈哈！也找了So Sad这首歌当开场音乐，没记错的话。。。

越简单的音乐，越听得出它的不平凡。。。只有rhythmic bass（主要原素），还有一点点像是clarinet，又好像是萧，（哈哈，hearing并不怎么好）然后加上那诱惑人的vocal，Gregorian的气音很有杀伤力。。。只能说，这首歌，很‘性感’，感觉就像很性感的model在跳着诱人的秀舞在勾引着我。。。

~我现在就是很不爽！！！！~

刚刚跟妈妈吵架。告诉她我会学两个瑜伽班。妈的！她反对到一个不行。说什么：“学两个月来zomok?你又不是要做瑜伽老师。。。”他的语气又不是客气那种，是用来骂的。妈的鸡蛋糕，我要做瑜伽老师就不止学两个月，是砸下六千块拿课程了。说什么：“人家都是自己看书学的，需要买师的meh?”，我真的忍无可忍顶回她一句：“没有专业老师教会不懂自己做得对不对，会扭伤的，那时就不止两个月的瑜伽费，又是你们讲这种不用学长久，学几个月有底就行了！！”

这种就是典型的‘人又是他，鬼又是他’，什么都她讲完咯！！！真的气到我哭了，我是真的哭了。跑回房间继续睡觉，然后眼泪是不知觉的一直流。

哭的最主要原因不是因为她不给我学瑜伽，而是不明白为什么我长这样大了，就连我要学什么，做什么他都要干涉。他给意见还不用紧，可是每一次他都是反对我的选择的，每一次都要替我做主，读那里，读什么，硬硬要我读我不喜欢的那个。上次就是那样，忘了为了什么而吵，一气之下回房间，经过爸爸身边时，我丢了一句话：“我想过了，我不要读牙医。”，“zomok?”，“没兴趣，不喜欢不就不要读啦！”。（家人上上下下都要我做有执照的牙医，因为家族生意是历代传下来的手工牙医）。过后就会房间了。。。

有时真的很想会赚多多钱后搬出去一个人住，耳根至少会清静一点。我很讨厌别人nag我，真的很讨厌。如果我是为了一分工，我可以因为你nag我，我放弃那分工，跟钱过不去，我就是敢敢做给你看。。。

我的老妈，我只能讲她是不懂得享受生活。。。他只是明白钱很难赚（我赞成），但是他不明白作为一个女人，要会懂得疼自己。而且万一有什么冬瓜豆腐(touch wood)，省下来的钱都用不着咯，好不好！而且我又不是没有存钱，我是有计划的花钱，而且是花在刀口上，又不是买那些‘唔等洗咯也’.生活不是只有做工赚钱的。而且我深信如果那笔钱财神爷注定给你，就算你失业，走路都会给你拾到钱咯！

美好的一天都给他spoilt了，瑜伽照学！我不管！！！！

~lovely morning~

Today, i has started my lovely morning wiv a very healthy lifestyle...

Woke up seven in the morning, then kah yan reached my place at about 7.40am..yaya, we went for jogging dis morning at titiwangsa lake garden....

Long time nvr jog le, feel dat i've grew older, my cardioavascular system oso not as gd as b4 when i was still 'young', kononnya, ahhaha....jog a while, tired, gasped for air, fast walk a while, jog a while, gasped for air.....shud practice more....expand my lung volume, hahahah...

Then we reached at a bridge there, practised some asanas(postures) of hatha yoga....u know, the feeling is soooo damn nice....when u look up upon the sky, the sky is ssoooooo blue, the morning is just so lovely, wow, dat time only u can reli 'touch' the life...the feeling is so strong wer u'll feel dat 'dis is a day, a wonderful day wiv wonderful things around u', dat's the life i wan, a contented life wiv healthy lifestyle....so i told kah yan, next time we shud bring our yoga mat there n practise yoga there, nice environment, fresh air...call me a natural lover, hahahha....^_^

After dat, we went back to our ex-school (puteri titiwangsa) for a while to get our spm n 1119 cert. Met wiv some teachers n chat wiv them for a while. Hey, nick, miss yap n pn.lim you sie very miss u leh, hahahha...u shud go visit them one day...lolz.....

Then, rush home as kah yan still engaged wiv her class later at 11am....n i'm sitting here updating my blog...well, take bath later, think will sleep for a while, watch tv, then yoga again later...hehhe....

Oh ya, specially thanks to my titiwangsa senior, Priscilla, thanks for her introduction....will start my lesson today together wiv kelly at 'Vivace Danz World'...looking forward to that....hope can learn new things....seriously, yoga is very gd for health....u'll look slim without looking so skinny n boney, gd for internal health oso, balance up ur hormonal level, detoxification n etc....anyway, the most important is muz maintain the practice...my new venue of practicing yoga, titiwangsa lake garden...erm, actually any lake garden will do, coz titiwangsa near to my place, hahaha...

Gd day!!!so happy coz i found back my contented life.....^_^

=.=muka ten cents

too many choices isn't a gd thing though...
dunno which one to choose...
when we're being tied by promises,
decision is hardly to make...

i know tml i'll be very very sleepy n my condition wont be gd coz now already 1.05am but i'm still sitting in front of desktop instead of lying on my cosy bed, hav my dream n waiting for the day to creep on me. Life seems like too easy for me wer i no need to worry anything, juz sit der n do business, open bill, accumulate my commission n ot n wait for next month salary...but who know actually there is stress too?stress wer u always wondering y am i sitting here n do things that i nvr ever think i'll step on?i dun like business, my fren would know, perhaps...i dun like sitting at the same place for the whole day, i luv to run here n der, i luv to mix round wiv ppl...the joy n glory of victory after all of the hardwork is wad i looking for, but y am i not doing dat?my life isn't 'hard' enuf...maybe the 'contrast' is small, so i cant get the satisfaction dat i wan.

i'm not feeling contented wiv my every day job...
i'm sick of the things, rumours n problems that has emerged around me...
i'm tired of thinking every single nonsense thing...
i'm soooo sick to think about my future...
can i juz shut everything down??!!
living for me is a stress too...

damn it!stress is attacking me again.....i think i'm still a lil girl that dunno how to 'walk' properly.
or wad i demand is too high, above my ability n over my limit?
or this is wad we call life?wer everything is undefined, juz c how we define n decide it?
perhaps, i'm too sensitive wiv 'life'....a life that i'm not longing for...

whenever i need somebody, y there is nobody for me?who is somebody?anything, i juz need somebody....

but the fact is, i'm all alone all these while....can i juz dun becum soooo independent?i'm a lady plz...i've got the right n authority to depend on something n somebody....wer is the mr.right?

outing again!!ngek ngek ngek....

First time shopping (not outing k)wiv kelly oo....met her at klcc at about 3pm then start our shopping...u know, i've been missing dis dis kind of feeling eversince i enter upper six...i used to groom myself up before going out, n i enjoy doing dis when i c my b4 n after look...however, after i start my f6, time for outing has been cutting down, n i got no mood to groom up also, seldom la....not as much as b4...after i finish my stpm, ya, i went shopping, but seldom take photo, coz i very k the impurities on my face, dat's the evidence of my hardwork for my entire f6 life, sleep 5 hours per day, stress n bla bla bla, thus causing hormonal imbalance....sigh!!!but it's worth afterall....*wink*

Well well, actually we not reli come for shopping, juz window shopping, do some survey first b4 we reli start 'shopping' hahahah!!!n we bought few things actually, kelly bought a bead necklace, i bought a 'normal' necklace n a ring, the design for the ring very special, dat's y i bought it...opps, forgot to take pic pulak, pai seh ya!!!:p




~reached klcc....i met my primary schoolmate oo, lee boon kim...but i dun think he remember me...coz i passed his working place few times, thought wanna smile at him de, but scare he misunderstood dat i'm trying to 'shot' him, wakkak....so juz let it be ba....

~ya, again, we went to kim gary....i remember last time that we went was after we hav our chemistry paper 2....one gang of us was wearing school uniform n lepak in klcc...dat mood was sooo diff...reli enjoy every outing wiv them de...^_^

~above is kelly's meal....steak wiv baked cheese rice...no idea if it's delicious....

~mine....fish chip wrapped egg rice wiv mushroom...i luv fish!!!wakakka....

~after finish our meal, we went window shopping for a while, went toilet to touch-up...then sit there n wait for nic n jeff....well well, both of us luv taking picture...hehe, dat's the result....^_^

~again kelly n i.....:p

~again, wkakaka!!!!!

~still waiting......boring neh.....

~finally, nic has reached first....he said i look diff today n i becum thinner...thinner?izzit true?hahhaha...well, cutting down fats at the right place is always a pleasant thing, juz hope that i still maintain the 'cup' shud be...well, i'm not losing weight intentionally, i weigh heavy though, 49 kg man!!!!i juz weigh dis morning while having yoga in money's place. n one more great new for me, my head stand shows sum improvement ooo!!^_^

i think the style of my outlook has changed...i remember laz time ppl used to describe me as a 'cute' girl, coz for sure i'm not pretty, plus my face very big, eyes small small, very chubby like dat, so they say i cute ba...but hor, nowadays, ppl no longer call me cute girl le...my collegue said i'm more to wild type...kelly oso said so...erm, it's a gd thing i think, coz dat's wad i wan...i prefer a wild look rather than a girl-next-door look....hehe, gd gd, next target, sexy look!well well, gonna thoroughly cure my skin first...curing k?reli takes time to get rid the blemish, ishhh!!!!

i'm very naughty er...how??!!i'm very slow leh, when all my frens going to stop playing, i'm the only one who is only going to start playing...enjoy my life till the max!!!yeah~^_^

爱你的两个我

OH~城市的火
对比我内心的落漠
我恨我自己的软弱
离不开你的温柔
另一个我 提醒着我
不能永远对你宽容
连自己要什么 都没把握
以后如何面对生活
OH 我就是太念旧
习惯的都是舍不得丢
受委屈 不如说爱你爱的太久
b'coz i want u
跟自己在拔河
能怎样呢? 爱你的两个我
迷途在进退这之中
b'coz i luv u
跟自己在拔河
你有多爱我 爱过我什么
我会倾听着
别让我等的太久
OH~我天一亮 就要离开
还给你全部的自由
你会感到愧疚还是解脱
我很在乎你的感受
oh~我数到99
电话仍坚持它的沉默
这一刻
我知道
我已输掉了所有

难

到后来才发现，做决定最难。。。
决定读什么科系，难！
决定进哪一所大学，难！
决定人生，难！
决定自己的未来，难！
就连决定我和你的关系，要结束还是继续，也很难。。。
知道自己都不喜欢你，也不会想要你当我的男友，
但偏偏就是很‘难’放得下你，
所以才继续让自己在背后煎熬，
做决定，很难。。。

impurities

Finally, we hav made our relationship very very clear. We clearly know dat we juz can walk till here, n we hav confessed to each other wad we actually wan. We only can be fren forever, but wiv some impurities inside....

~dream~

do u know, become a singer is always my dream...now there is a chance for me to start the first step, i hope i can get it...^_^

Thanks to them (kelly, jeff, chai n sean)...especially chai, u has opened the door for me, i can c light is coming in, lolz, thanks my fren....^_^

回来了

终于，我回来了。总算能抽一点时间给我的部落格。之前都忙工作，晚上就忙着与朋友outing，都没舍时间上网。
最近，发生的事情不算多。。。拿了stpm成绩，很满意，因为没预料到自己会拿到全A的（一个A, 三个A-，cgpa是3.75）。所以，这几天已回到家就是上网找大学与科系的资料，然后又忙着打电话给老师及seniors们问问‘行情’。
回想，高三那一年半的付出是值得的。每天只睡五个小时，每天k书。脸上的痘痘也值得的，虽然还没完全痊愈。
以前，对我来说，读大学，是件遥不可及的事，现在却如此真实的摆在我眼前，真的很快。
现在唯有希望自己会拿到自己想要的科系，进到心目中的大学。。。

i miss~

i miss our yam-cha hour,
i miss our genting trip,
i miss our clubbing nite,
i miss our school's bell,
i miss our canteen food,
i miss our noise when there is no teacher,
i miss our every single gathering,
i miss our chit-chating,
i miss everything out there,
again....
i miss u, my frens....:(

crapping~

Fiu, it's been ages i din blog huh....
I got the reason y i seldom blog nowadays...firstly, after start working, not reli got time to blog,secondly, ntg to blog, thirdly, my two brother always bugging the desktop for dota, so i got no chance to touch even the keyboard...haha, now they r having exam so hehe, i got the time to 'pak to' wiv the desktop le....wakkaka....

Well, working so so....consider used to it edi but still will get kelam-kabut sumtimes especially when i'm holding too much of jewellery selected, or when wanna deal wiv certain things at the same time, then my mind n my action will go chaos.

Erm, my life?so so oso.......ntg special...my colour of life seems like fade away.i still prefer my schooling life...working life ain't that special though...every day repeat the same thing, but wad to do?when i start working, initially i was think about the exp that i'll gain, but currently i oni think of money.My fren said i'm very money minded, but dis is reality. when ur parents wan u to carry urself eversince u start working, when there is no longer pocket money for u, when u still hav to giv sum extra money to ur parents n ur siblings, then ur mind oni will think of money.As for me, as a sales executive, i oni wanna open bill, the bigger the better. Environment will change a person...But dun think i'm crazy for money la, i still very rational de, i'm not greedy ok.lolz... my dad is correct by doing dis way, coz i think it's a way to train me to becum more independant, more mature n at the same time unveil the true look of the society to me....

想念是会呼吸的痛

静茹说，
"想念是会呼吸的痛，
它活在我身上所有角落，
哼你爱的歌会痛，
看你的信会痛，
连沉默也痛。
遗憾是会呼吸的痛，
它留在血液中来回滚动,
后悔不贴心会痛，
恨不懂你会痛，
想见不能见最痛... "

我说，
"想念是会呼吸的痛。。。
为什么‘痛’会呼吸？
是不是它就是那么不经意的，
一呼一息的，有意无意地触碰某人留下来的伤口。。。"

给自己的情歌

你是谁
怎么一夜不睡
重复一样的音乐
不肯承认正为爱受累
早就过了
青涩岁月
却仍然心里有个空缺
便急着想要有人陪
无怨无悔
又忘了最后要受的罪
你的美 有些憔悴
抿着嘴说不出抱怨
躲着偷偷流眼泪
最初那一句台词
填补了寂寞位子
他不管年少无知
谁都高估爱的价值
平凡的女子
清醒一次一次
糊涂一次一次
不过是
再见那一个手势
连明白到此为止
说穿了有些讽刺
从没把握一生一世
痛难免真实
多出来的钥匙
留给爱的坚持 下一次
听你的故事
笑得有些矜持
怎么会和我那么相似
开始结束
仿佛公式
是谁说爱情就该如此
失控哭一哭就会没事
一个坚持
究竟容得多少次的迷失
让过程
都像歌词
不过短短几行文字
当作纪念的心事

~变了~

感觉，风向变了。。。
到头来，希望还是落空。。。
人家说，女人的直觉都很准，
但我却希望这次不准。。。
为什么每一次都是这样。。。:(
很累，很失望的叻！！

Dis CNY kinda bored~

年三十，工作半天后，就乘搭ktm到subang meet我的姑姑。
ktm慢到爆，人多到爆。还好我在第二站就上车了，所以我不用被压得像沙丁鱼一样，而且怕被别人扯到肚脐环。
驶了很久，终于到站了。
天气不大美哦！本来很炎热的下午被乌云取代了，豆大的雨点打在我脸上，打在车镜上。
姑姑驾车还蛮快的，meter表显示140km/h。
进入吡叻州的边境，天空正在放晴。
拿着手机拍了很多照片，send了一张给他。^_^
我喜欢回家乡，沿途风景的美丽都会让我窒息。
蓝天，白云，草原，山脉，一切一切最原始的都呈现在我面前，仿佛又回到那个最没有调味料的自己。是的，我还是钟情于淡淡的白开水。。。

初一，四个家庭去了位于Batu Gajah的Kellie's Castle。拍了很多照片。但只是筛选了一些po上网。都是黑白的，希望抓到那种艺术的味道。那天，很不舒服，发烧了，走路都觉得随时会晕倒。。。

初二，四个家庭去了Teluk Batik。到达目的地时，已经六点多七点了。还好我的迟到还赶得及一个夕阳。夕阳消失得很快。。。突然很想到国外的沙滩，想知道那里的夕阳是怎样的？又让我想到‘南极光’，听说，是绿色的。。。

美丽的东西，好像都消失得好快。。。

timing永远都抓不准的我，往往都错过了很多很多本来是对的人，对的东西。。。

这次也累得不想想到底自己错过了谁，只是希望对的人，对的东西没有把我给错过。。。

~the end~

hohoho~the no. sixth hole on my body....

Haha, wad a sudden decision, i hav pierced on my belly...
Lolz, actually not reli sudden la, coz laz few years oredi think about it, juz nvr do....however, today when outing wiv money n watson, suddenly think of it again, so after sum survey from my fren, i hav decided to pierce....heheh....

So i go to sg.wang, found a shop that doing dis service....oso dunno y, i got the courage to pierce, i scare it would be pain, but still, i'm oredi there choosing the ring.....

Not reli know the details about the process as i din look as it coz i scare of the pain...money was beside me, tried to talk to me so dat the pain would be lesser as i'm not concentrating on that anymore....but sumthing happen, OMG!After the needle has got through my belly, oni the girl realize the ring dat the salesgirl get for me was the wrong one, if wear that one, will bleed, so they ask me choose again...the point is, i still can stand wiv it coz the needle still on my belly, hasn't take out yet.....

Well, sure my frens curious, PAIN OR NOT?hmmm, actually, not very pain, the moment i feel pain is when the needle is poking thru my skin, the feeling juz like sumbody cubit u oni....then got no feeling edi....After a while oso okok, ntg special....But i not sure whether tml will pain or not la.....Hopefully not....hahha.....

Well well, dis is the result....hehehhe.....^_^

randomly~

~let the photoes tell the stories.....

今天很不开心，很不开心。。。

今天，不是我的天就对了(not my day)，做什么都不对。。。销售业绩一直都不好，几时才能开大一点点的单？我要开单叻！！

then今天放工后搭着地铁时，竟然遇到暴露狂。那个死变态就坐在我前面，我们坐靠边的，双人位子，隔远远才有另一个搭客。那个变态佬特地在他的裤子正中央，就是男人小弟弟的位子剪了一个刚刚好它的size的洞，把他的宝放出来。他迟我一站上的，就在他坐下，假假用报纸cover时(旁边的人看不到，只有我看到)，我注意到有一样东西从洞口跑出来，粉红色的，开始在猜测，那是什么咚咚？后来想想，那个位子，那个颜色，该不会真的是宝吧！人就是这样，在好奇心的驱使下会更想知道。再看仔细一点。。。我想那变态佬知道我看到了，又移下身体，露宝更多。HUIYO!!!!这次我真的可以肯定一定是老宝来的。

当然，我没有继续看，我赶快sms了superman告诉他我遇到flasher。他问我有大叫吗？shud shout VERY SMALL, 哈哈！我说没有，这样他会更兴奋的，而且，说真的，他的宝还真不小，有料的叻，难怪爱露。

哎，真的是‘大吉利是’，还没过年就看到宝。。。如果明天我长针眼，那一定是他伟大的弟弟害的。

心情话：最近发生的事不算多，但造成的烦恼却很多，听着郭静的‘不想忘记你’，竟然有股想哭的冲动。。。

~还好那个变态佬让我回过神来，忘了自己等下也许会哭。这方面，得谢谢他。。。