photos~~~

FIU~~~finally, able to get connected wiv internet in my hostel using wireless....the signal is sooo low over here, unable to sign in msn, juz can do normal surfing, luckily still able to blog...if not, orz~~~

Hehe, dat's some pic i hav taken the day b4 i went to bangi for orientation n during the orientation...stay tune~~^^


~me at steven corner, setapak....dat time around 2am le, i was yam-cha-ing wiv frens instead of sleeping since the next day i gonna go bangi edi....

~so lame.....hehe, actually dat time juz finish playing pool wiv frens~~kekekke.....:p

The next day, was the day i depart to bangi n stay there for one week...kinda sad coz the one who sending me der isnt my family but my frens instead...

I carry all my luggage to my hostel all alone...n my arm has pain for two days....

Orientation isnt fun at first......SUFFER!!!juz like wad i hav mentioned in my previous post..

i need sufficient sleep~~~

here's the activities go besides kuliah n taklimat all the time in our DECTAR.

~sports day...hui yong, me, lay ying n jing yi~

~me, during the power walk, i din join either...haha, coz quite a number of us engaged wiv something dat moment, so we were skipped for dat....cam-whore when there is some time...hahaha^^

~dis is the angkawasan Malaysia, Dr. Muszaphar, dunno whether i spell it correctly or not...he was ukm graduated as well, so proud to becum his junior...

~he is handsome, he looks strong wiv his muscular body, he is tall........conclusion, HE IS HANDSOME, ABSOLUTELY MY CUP OF TEA....u guys know wad my fren told me:"CHEAU YING GO!!MALAYS CAN POLYGAMY, ADD OIL YA~~~", orz~~~~but seriously i quite fall for him....lolz....

~Hui Li, Lay ying n i.....they r from Teluk Intan, perak....3 of us are perakians~~~hehehe.....^^


~mee yen n i, my room mate...she is sleeping now, shhhh~~~:p......glad to know her~~~



~my last day at bangi, lying on the bed....i dunno if i will miss dis place or not...



~back to KL campus finally....all the year 1 student were having dinner wiv the principal n all the felo-felo n jaksa...me,lay ying, yik mooi n mee yen~^^our second last day of orientation..




~hui li, hui yong, me n lay ying....hui li is taking bio-medic, the other 3 wiv me inclusive r all taking forensic science...yaya, we r coursemate...^^


~All the PC(pengatur cara) were having fun on the stage.kinda miss them though...thanks for their torturing as well as leading all these while~^^



~me n lay ying....last day of orientation.....after the amazing race~~~^^

~ee lene n i, she was my LDK PC...i was in LDK 40......she's pretty rite...^^

~members of LDK 40 wiv ee lene sis........^^

Dat's all.......thanks for ur patient view till the end...^^

Well, another sad thing is, i got my time table today, u guys know wad?I hav to travel bangi-kl EVERYDAY juz for my chemistry...MON--FRI~~~wow, it's tiring...wad about my second year, will there be any bus to send me there n fetch me back to kl??sob sob, scary once i think about it...how to travel everyday ooo???!!

kkk, GTG le...tml gonna wake up 6am, then 7am gotta wait for bus, 8am will start my lesson--CHEMICAL COMPOSITION OF THE BODY...then>>THE STUDY OF BODY FUNCTION>>BASIC ORGANIC CHEM>>CELL STRUCTURE N GENETIC CONTROL n lastly back to bangi for ORGANIC CHEM....well well well, i know tml would be another hectic day for me......

Gd nite readers~~~~sleep tight....^^

let go~

'MET' u in someone's blog....
dis time reli reli reli can let go....
i'm serious.....
i'm glad that i can let go....

Uni~

heloooooooooo everybody, finally i'm back n got the time to on9....

Well, so sad dat coz i forgot to bring my cable back, so unable to upload all the photos that i hav taken during my orientation week....it's ok, i'll become the narrator...^^

First week was the orientation....IT'S SOOO SUFFER I TELL U GUYS!!For a PIG like me, can u imagine dat i oni sleep 2-max.3 hours per day, the least was 1.5 hours...for one week, man, i'm sooooo exhausted, it's a form of torturing ok?!i seriously cant stand wiv it if it still go on like dis. luckily juz one week, n dat's y once i enter the hall for taklimat, i always sleep..:p..then everytime hav to rush for bus as the school coumpound is so big, student is a lot, so hav to rebut bus....eat, aha, dis is gd, the fd quite nice actually...

The room, not bad....n i knew a room mate, she's from kepong, doing speech therapy..luckily our 'norma kehidupan' quite alike, so we able mix well n liv well together soon....

The course..haha, dis one definitely i would like to say, IS VERY INTERESTING....lots of chemistry coz after graduate, student of forensics will diiktiraf of IKM (Institut Kimia Negara), first year more on lecture n assesement, second year more on practical edi, 3rd year can go to bomba, PDRM, Kastam, cyber security, ikm n etc for kursus...sounds cool rite??wow...hahha..nvr regret^^

Spent a lot lately, buy toiletries, stationary, then the labcoat, text bk.reli pk....well, haven buy text bk yet, after bought, i think i'm officially declared 'bankrapsi'.....

In a nutshell, i enjoy my uni life, i knews quite a number of nice frens like mee yen, lay ying, hui yung, hui li n etc....n i luv my course A LOT!!!!^^

N i wanna thanks to all the PC for the guiding n take a very gd care of each of us...even though sometimes they all scolded us like very teruk, but i know coz they r stress too, they might sleep lesser than us...so reli sorry n thanks...^^

bangi orientation week~

Well, will off to bangi for one week for the orientation week.....wont be on9 for about one week or even more than one week...

A lil bit upset when the person who sending u der isnt ur family....:(

blue blue~

Juz received kah mun's msg: THINKING BACK ON OUR MEMORIES. EVERYTHING THAT WE'VE DONE TOGETHER. ALL THE LAUGHTERS AND CRIES. ALL THE JOYS AND PAINS. IT'S LIKE JUZ YESTERDAY. THE DAY WENT BY TOO FAST. I REALLY MISS THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER. ALL THESE ARE OUR SWEET MEMORIES! MY DEAR FREN, MUST TAKE CARE OH! FRIENDSHIP 4EVER...

I dunno how to describe the feel now.....juz now Geo called, i told him my current mood neither happy nor sad...juz very blue...start from tml, my life would change....am i thinking too much? Y am i so emotion today....

My life has entered to another new phase.....learning how to accept every new things that will soon appear in my life....

Life circle juz like the metamorphosis, before entering the next phase to a better person, we muz go thru all the hardship, experience the pain.....

I'll be missing every single moment wiv my girls, my SJI gang, my yam cha gang n frens.....

压力~

汽油涨价了，什么东西都跟着涨。

爸爸刚刚在放话，说他手头很紧，要我开学后继续做工，自己赚pocket money，不会再support我一分一毫了。刚刚拿到的1.5k明天要按出来还给他，因为yuran pendaftaran的rm1410是他帮我缴的。现在连我的手头都紧了。弟弟的pocket money也被cut了，看来遭殃的不止我一个。

还以为开学后要努力读个first class honour出来，搏个奖学金出国读，怎么说forensic science在外国还是比较吃香的。现在想起自己未来的生活都有点恐怖了。连主任都叫我辞工，要我专心读书，现在怎么办？

其实满伤感的。爸爸会要我们省，为什么之前他自己都不会省？尤其是他那两车!!!!!!他那辆hyundai coupe一个月的供期就是我读大学一年的学费，是一年的学费。我不是夸张哦！我看过他开给银行的支票。每次想到学费，我就想到他的车。

都不懂这篇post要怎么写下去了。。。自己也是很压力的。。。

要学会苦中作乐~

ji mui~

~hong ting, me n kah mun...three of us will pursue our studies in public uni...ting will go utm for something hartanah, i'll go ukm for forensic science, kah mun will go um for economy...^^break both legs girls!!^^

~dis is my gang, my 'ji mui bong' during titiwangsa girl school. Joo Eey was correct, we r getting closer n closer each gathering.....^^

I LUV U GIRLS~~~~~^^

happy outing~^^

Today considered out for whole day edi....

Afternoon out wiv jia wen senior...play two games of pool, wiv my sux skill....well, he still taught me something at least.....n i do learnt it, better abit la...haha..then we went for movie, watched 'long khong2'....er....actually the movie reli so so lo...story some kind like seek revenge, n the moral value is, karmic cycle is stop by our own.so we muz generous...dat's the conclusion i got la....

After dat, i'm waiting for 8pm, coz second round wiv my fren, kakaka....long time din meet up wiv him edi....dis one lagi gila, we two hav played 9 GAMES of pool...n he reli taught me a lot, the angle, how to hold correctly, n a lot, n i reli improved a lot...last time used about 30 minutes to finish a game. Now, hehe, 20 minutes can le....kakka....so happy....so addicted to pool now...next time wanna challenge snooker, coz my fren said snooker harder as the table bigger by the time the ball smaller....

Finished 9 GAMES of pool finally....then we went to 'wings' restaurant yam cha....n listen to the singer....Today's singers not bad, the girl is very gd, the male guitarist is very gd in guitar....reli can make the atmosphere high lo..gd part i would like to say....

Well, today cant cook movie le as it's quite late now....tml will update more about my gathering wiv my secondary ji mui....^^

Gd nitez readers~

出走

心情很是沉重，
虽然没有要去很远很远的地方，
但是，
想起自己又必须开始接受新的生活方式，
或许，会不习惯，
或许，会不喜欢，
但，我还是要接受，还得去适应它。

你们知道吗？
生活，难在‘重新适应’，
当‘现在’已成了习惯，生活开始慢慢定型时，
最压力不过的，就是reformat everything。。。

希望我不会后悔，我也不能后悔，
决定了进修‘法证’这科，
就要做到底。。。
证明给当初不明白为什么我会选这科的人看，
冷门的科系还是能出人头地的。。。

其实，我知道爸爸妈妈很担心以后我会找不到吃，
他们弄到我也觉得我好像会穷苦潦倒的感觉，
不懂，其实自己也很乱。。。
我不喜欢热门的科系，因为感觉要斗得很够力才会被spot light照到，
我比较喜欢静静的地方，我才能专心的发挥。。。

yay!!settle some finally~

wow, yesterday 'cook phone porridge' till 3.00am!!!!!OMG, LCY, NVR EVER DO IT AGAIN OK???BAD FOR HEALTH!!!!

Then today woke up at about 12pm!gosh!!!!!actually dis morning wanna go gh to do my medical check up, but dunno wad time i received lai mei's call. she said, for gh, earliest oso 8 of july oni can get the report.....so after i knew dat, i sleep back again, i know it's not a point for me to go gh anymore, coz i dun like to settle thing in dis way, where finish some, left some, so x organized.

Finally, i'm willing to wake up from my cosy bed, felt some kind of heaty...maybe sleep late yesterday night...then i called lai mei ask about the medical things again. she intro me to go to DAMAI SERVICE HOSPITAL, where u can get ur report instantly in roughly 2 hours time, n it only cost u about rm68++, quite cheap actually......so i decided to go der for my medical check up...

After finish my the medical check up, i went to chow kit....for wad?peep ah gua??@#$%^*&#....lolz, is for my baju kurung.......i hav survey two lorong...oh man!!!i dun like the corak lar~seriosuly, all wiv COLOURFUL flower printing, it juz makes me look 10 years older after i wear it.....if kebaya i might can accept lar, but baju kurung wei~no offence kay?juz dat i reli cant accept the COLOURFUL PRINTING lo~~~

Actually my mom who is the one choosing all the way coz I RELI GOT NO IDEA WIV BAJU KURUNG, TO BE SPECIFIC, IS BLUE COLOUR BAJU KURUNG.....i found wad i like, but it's not blue....sigh~~~she said:"c.ying, dis one not bad hor~", "ermm...yaya, aiks, i dunno la, WO BU ZHI DAO WO BU ZHI DAO~"

Finally we bought two sets...n it edi cost me about rm90++......urgh!!!!can u c my purse is bleeding????



~my medical report....my x-ray film n report on my urine test......hehe, in a nut shell, i'm a healthy girl....*wink*

~the baju kurung dat i hav bought...dis one cost me rm50 after bargain wiv the seller....hehhe...

b4 discount is rm80 leh....

~dis one after bargain=rm36, before is rm50 leh....MOMMY, U RELI GENG AR~~~

One more thing, my face start itchy le....coz the air in chow kit is so polluted, all the buses.....MY GOD!!!can u imagine dat i'll study der for 4 years??!!!but luckily my hostel so near with titiwangsa lake...i can go jogging early in the morning to gasp more fresh air...hehe...then muz convince my dad to let me stay in hostel for the first year....^^

OK, today quite happy coz finally i hav settle 2 things....so tml will back to school to certified my documents, then go to bank to open account n make the payment....then complete the form n pack....hahha.......i'm done wiv everyhting then...so happy~^^

outing wiv cat~meow!

Ok, got my offer letter finally....n that's the time i start hunting for the things i wan n settle all the stuff asap...

First of all, i hav taken ic size n passport size's photos near my house....man, i'm sooo unsatisfied wiv the outcome...so i took again the next day at nic's shop....his mommy very nice n very pro..^^dis time seriosuly very satisfied wiv it....credit to u, chai^^~thanks oooo~


So after i took the photos near my house, (so bloody annoyed dat time due to the photo, I WASNT READY LO, I HAV BLINKED MY EYES LO!!dunno y the uncle think dat photo is ok but by the time i seriously look VERY VERY VERY BLURRRRRR~)i rush to klcc to find nancy n buy something from her....hehe, n i 'A' quite lots of gift, kakkaka....thanks nancy jie, luv u, muacksss~^^

After finish my things at klcc, i rush to times square to meet up wiv Cat, she janji me accompany me shopping before i enter uni. So, dat day, i actually hunt for sneakers.....n window shopping for some cloths n accesories......haha, i can go ts anytime, so need not so hurry to buy it....:p


~treat Cat some ice cream, thanks to her coz stpm dis year, still willing to spend her time teman me shopping, so appreciate~~~^^

~cat n i.....cam-whore session start, hahahha~

~again we two....study hard ooo!always blessing u^^

~kuso look....

~she's sooo cute, hahaha......

~dis is the sneakers i bought dat day....cost me rm39.90, from B.U.M equipment...reasonable price.....the colour is sooo sharp....hahah....actually leh, once lady start wearing high heels, they dun think sneakers is nice anymore....if not due to my uni life, i dun think i will buy it lo....n seriously i reli look for so long, n finally i spot dis, hehehe.....

~bought the big one, get all the small one.....actually still got more de....*evil grin*

dat's all for today, a big thanks to cat~*huggies*^^

:(

Met winnie today, she was visiting me after she knew i was working, so happy....nice to meet u girl, i know u r reading, muacksss~

But another thing dat make me so sad is, till today she still care about it?both of us weren't wrong dat time, everything juz misunderstanding, y she still keep in her mind? dun even contact me after graduated, not even pay a visit when she came to klcc, we knew each other for 7 years, n get closer for 2 years lo, our friendship so not worth it due to her personal junior?y she juz keeps on showing me her childish attitude?she makes me so sad...:(

Laz year asked u wad had happen, u refused to tell me...i try my best to talk to u, but everytime u juz answer me my 'particular' question then keep silent. i edi tried my best to rescue our frenship, but u nvr giv it a chance, not even one. last time we used to break together, line up together, walk together, but after the incident, no more, u left me all ALONE!!!!:(

our friendship so not worth it for a small matter~:(

I'M COMING!!!

I'll soon start my uni life le, dunno shud happy or sad...well, actually i more to happy de....starting a new life is always encouraging, fresh n challenging. Haha, i luv challenging, dat's y i chose forensic science...^^
However, i know i'll be enjoy my uni life, but not campus life....my campus is soo small, oni got 3 faculties in....:(

well, let me think wad shud i do before i start my uni life:
~get a pair of sneakers....
~'top up' my skin k....
~maybe will get a bag, maybe....
~renew my popular card n buy some stationary...
~wait for the letter, settle everything asap...

hehe, then start my uni life wiv a brand new resolution:
~enjoy while study...
~continue learning yoga, maybe same place, maybe change to genting klang, c first...
~continue clubbing...dis coming july(june n early of july definitely got no time for me to do so), haha, wiv my anata...ooo anata, miss u so much here.....thank GOD that i still here, din go far...

hmm....i think dat's all......^^

UKM, I"M COMING!!!!!!^^

果然是晴天霹雳~

成绩放榜了，有人欢喜有人愁！
我本来真的很欢喜的咯，因为拿到自己想要得。
过后有少少愁了。
今天上网check了campus所在，原来我的科系是under kesihatan bersekutu。而那campus所在竟然在哪里你们懂吗？在chow kit!!!!!
真的是晴天霹雳！！！以为会去到bangi，远一点，然后开始新的生活，听说总校还有游泳池呢，又够偏僻，完全远离城市的烦嚣。
哪里知道！哪里知道！是在分校，真的和我在SJI读没有分别咯。现在只能在titiwangsa湖游泳咯，instead of游泳池。。。=.=
是啦，虽然我是说不要去到太远如sabah sarawak，可是chow kit，未免也太近了吧！
哎，算了吧！不要complaint太多，因为上帝真的很眷顾我，我应该懂得感恩才对。
往另一方面想，周末我还可以回klcc做回我的beauty advisor，回家是超级方便的，晚上还可以看ah gua，得空还可以跟朋友去clubbing。。。
知足者常乐！^^self-comforting.....今天就是super zadao就对了~

yippie!!!i got wad i wan!!!^^

佩珊突然在msn copy了一个url给我，是查去年的stpm考生得到的大学及科系。
那时候的心脏真的快要跳出来了，手不停发抖，真的很紧张的。。。
输入了自己的身份证号码，category还有angka giliran，按了masuk〉〉〉〉

TAHNIAH ! Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program seperti di bawah :

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS FORENSIK

IPTA : UNIVERSITI KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA (UKM)

我喊了一声，跑下楼告诉爸爸妈咪这个消息。没拿到medical是有点失望啦，毕竟家人都希望我能读医生之类的，那种比较有前途+钱途的科系，但我知道我不会开心吧，而且又会很压力的。
forensic science一直是我要读的，而且还在ukm, super开心的，因为ukm比较著重在practical，比起usm(全马只有这两间uni offer这个course)。
公公婆婆听到后反倒没有怎样开心，因为他们都要我读牙医:(
生日愿望有实现哦！^^

#My wishes:
*i wish all the ppl around me(those who luv me n those i luv) will happy n stay healthy always...
*i wish i can get gd result in my stpm n enter u+getting the course i wan....(lolz, still hav 4 more papers to go, i hav to study harder if wan to achieve gd result...)# (copy from my previous post)

今晚能安安稳稳地睡上一觉了。^^

nervous~

现在的心情，是紧张的。。。还有两个小时，我就会知道我的下一个去向了。
我问妈妈:"咪，你紧张吗?"，"当然紧张啦!"
是的，我也很紧张。。。

gd luck everyone~

Everybody is telling me the result will be out on dis coming wednesday...
i'm so nervous about it. Eventhough i know i cant change the fact as it's not my turn to decide where i'll go, which uni i'm going to enter n which course i'm going to study, eversince i hav chose to enter public uni, but i still very concern about everything....
I'm eager to know about everything, eager to know where will be my next destination.
Uni life would be another brand new life for me..no doubt...
But dis time will be much more different, as start from july, every morning when i wake up, i wouldn't c my messy room, my lovely parents n my naughty brothers. kinda cant used to it whenever i think of it...
so regret y i chose sabah sarawak dat time, i'm sooooo regret for dat......tooooo far!!!
two more days to go, counting on.....
Gd luck everyone~

pain~

Woke up early in this lovely morning...went money's house for yoga.i hav 'abandoned' my yoga for two weeks edi......n wad has happen, i hurt my back when warming up....now still pain....:'(
sigh, reli old edi.....:(

当爱情死了。。。

太多太多不完美，不正常，不被接受的关系出现身旁，
我问为什么自己生活的圈子这么不单纯？
他说，是我自己把它变得不单纯。。。

为什么让自己不再相信爱情的人，是当时自己最深爱的人？

亲吻那一刻，泪落下那一刻，
多爱都不是爱了，多疼都不觉疼了。。。
因为，
当爱情死了，
什么不是了。。。

medicine

Juz came back from clinic....I hav consulted doctor bout my situation...n these r wad he gav me.. n i hav 'google' all the medicince he gav me....i miss bio n chem...:(



a)centrimide 2% lotion:

Cetrimide is a quaternary ammonium compound.
Spectrum of action: bactericidal activity against gram-positive bacteria, fungi and protozoa. It is not effective against gram negative bacteria, spores, viruses and mycobacteria.
It is a cationic surface-active agent. It is a mild keratolytic agent as well as being an antiseptic. antiseptic action is due to denaturation of proteins as well as causing cell membrane damage.

dis lotion i use to wash face to reduce the pimples. mention the last sentence? it's use to dry out the membrane of the acne thus causing it to peel off. the pus of our acne is a type of protein indeed. well, from the point of view in beauty, dis product will cause my skin to dry out...



b)calamine lotion (commonly use in skin disorder)


Calamine is a mixture of zinc oxide (ZnO) with about 0.5% iron(III) oxide (Fe2O3). It is the main ingredient in calamine lotion and is used as an antipruritic (anti-itching agent) to treat mild pruritic conditions such as sunburn, eczema, rashes, poison ivy, chickenpox, insect bites and stings.It is also used as a mild antiseptic to prevent infections that can be caused by scratching the affected area, and an astringent to dry weeping or oozing blisters and acne abscesses.

c)chlorpheniramine maleate

Chlorpheniramine is an antihistamine used to relieve symptoms of allergy, hay fever, and the common cold. These symptoms include rash, watery eyes, itchy eyes/nose/throat/skin, cough, runny nose, and sneezing.
This medication works by blocking a certain natural substance (histamine) that your body makes during an allergic reaction. By blocking another natural substance made by your body (acetylcholine), it helps dry up some body fluids to relieve symptoms such as watery eyes and runny nose.

d)prolase

unable to find any about this. wad i know about prolase is that it's a type of enzyme, dat's all. but i dunno y it uses to reduce the swellness occured...question mark?!!

*look!i miss chemistry n biology...i wanna study back....cant wait for the uni to reopen!!!hopefully i can get the course i wan...finger-crossing.

*feeling sleepy now after i consumed the chlorpheniramine maleate....so fast it reacts wiv my body...well well, hav a nap first...^^

suffer!!!!!

today woke up at 3am.....y??!!my face n my hand itchy till i wake up.....reli cant stop garu u know!!!i know it's not gd to garu, but i juz cant stop myself from doing dat coz very very very itchy!!!

Then i got my avene thermal water spray n spray it on my face to sooth it.....i sprayed for twice but the itchyness seems like nvr get reduces......so i woke my mommy up n ask her where is the medicine.i took one n sooner the effect start attacking me wer i feel very sleepy n sleep till very deep.....then wake up at 10am, i think i'm late for work coz i hav to enter my shift b4 12pm....so i sms chloe n nancy tell them dat i'll take off today as i hav took medicine, very very tired...then i sleep till twelve something only wake up...

Well, later will go for doctor to get some more medicine....urgh!!!!!!i hate it, itchy at face, so damn suffer!!!!

another horrible thing...my face has swollen for two days edi....swell till like pig head, especially in the morning..yesterday langsung tak berani make up any on my pity face, even eyes n lip.n i hav put on my spec to cover my swollen eyes.. sob sob.....

我不想

望着墙上的钟
时间不停转动
已经过多久
说再联络都没联络
我很好奇你是否偶尔会想我
如果能习惯面对寂寞
我就不会那么的执着
还不停等候

我不想
再想你的笑容
我会痛
懂不懂
我的心
在跳动
喊着说它要自由
我不想
再想你的温柔
多温柔
也不属于我
时间会帮助我
换一个梦

望着墙上的钟
忘记一段伤痛
究竟要多久
我想我们最大的错
就是相遇那一刻
不擦肩而过
如果早知道眺望天空
我就不会那么的软弱
躲藏在角落

不想再想太多
不回头
不想再去追究
错过就错过ha~
我不想
不想再等候
我的心渴望自由
我不想
不想你会懂
天空辽阔
我还有我

*有谁知道，这一切都不是我想的。。。
歌词内容，与现在的心情100%吻合。。。
我不想再想你，我会痛，懂不懂。。。*

=.=

opsss!!!wad happen to my face, itchy for few days edi.....so suffer!!!!!=.=

满足感

今天很有满足感哦！
帮两位customer上底妆，看到他们频频点头，微笑的样子，其实心里头真的很高兴。
这种满足感真的很难找。
工作这么久以来，觉得最充实就是今天。
虽然工钱不算多，但由于化妆室我的兴趣，我留下来了。
能在自己兴趣的范围工作就不管那么多了。
如果有一天能像那些著名化妆师一样，我觉得我的career真的是perfect了。
但是我知道，‘perfect’存在的几率就相等于找到四叶草的几率一样低，所以我已经有心理准备接受这一行会面对的挑战，以及接受它的不完美。。。（如果毕业后有机会晋身这行的话）
其实其实，真的很希望能在cosmetic line发光发热，但我知道是时间问题，还有家庭问题，妈妈总是要我把书读好，美容这行放在last choice。
一直以来有一个念头，除了卖cosmetics，最重要是要让customer记住帮他们化过妆的Melody。
这一生中，真的，化妆以及唱歌是我不会放弃的事情。。。
得到肯定比开大单还要爽！！！
做自己喜欢的东西=满足感的来源。。。^^

she is lost inside...

she is lost inside.......
again,
she's lost.....

why??

为什么每一次都是这样子？
为什么每一次都这么空虚？
然后都是自己一个人面对？
为什么每次都要自欺欺人?

为什么我永远就只能扮演着配角？

说难听一点，

我只是个替代品...

很累很累

不知道，今天就是很累很累。。。
七早八早就被cosmetic和fragrance department的exe骂，还在customer面前给我难看。。。:(。
美好的早晨就这样被她spoil了。。。
下午还好，和sunnie还有david break。。。
放工后和sunnie还有shiuan逛逛。。。开了大单，请他们吃一顿secret recipe。。。^^
头疼疼的。。。
不知道，今天就是很累很累。。。

~WINNER OF THE NIGHT~

okok, chai, dis is the article i owe u....now i pay back....hahaha.....



Forgot which day we hang out as usual like we're still in our form 6 school life...planned to play pool at the late night after our yam cha session....somehow we end up playing lame games instead of go pool-ing....=.=....yer~I WANNA PLAY POOL~~~~~~

we went station one near times square while waiting for sean to come...played CHOR DAI DEE... our muz play game to spend our time...lolz...

After that our lame story begin......sien of playing CHOR DAI DEE, so we play an easier game, no need use our brain to think, juz use hand to choose card randomly to compare the points....so it depends on our luck....so, who is our luckiest winner for that nite??TADAAAA>>>>>>>>MR.CHAI...hahhaha.........proud la u!!!:p

~compare who get the smallest point, here goes the winner!!!!^^

~compare the biggest point, again mr.chai becum our winner....

So lucky huh dude!!lolz....:p

kaka, finished my expired post!!~winner of the nite~

=.=

~hehe, my masterpiece for nancy, nice?...well, she is now having vacation at thailand...enjoy ur trip girl...^^

~my masterpiece for sheila....juz know dis girl yesterday...haha, trimmed her eyebrow as well...^^

~after finish working, chiling came to fetch me for yam cha, at mcd...lolz, funny!well, both of us hav learnt a new thing today, kaka...but dunwan tell here, secret~:p

~again n again........ishhh!anyone know how make my face slim down besides slapping my ownself??

~aiyak, anata, y u suddenly pull back?

~dis is mine. ya, i hav removed all my nail colour including my foot one...coz wanna let them rest for few days, then apply again...hehe...:)

~ya, i hav cut my hair too............no idea wad the hair style call....will take pic maybe after one week.coz after one week i supposed the hair style will look nicer?hahaha, self-comfort...

argh!!!!

so many things to blog rite now but not reli now...bullshit i'm talking....i saw my lovely junior, cat n i'm soo touched as she know i'll get hungry faster so she bought me some biscuit for me during my working hours, how sweet was dat, luv u cat!!muackss~n so sorry for not acc u as i was busy serving customers, thanks for waiting me patiently.^^

N n hor~i saw 'fei lun hai'=farenheit, a very famous group from taiwan...i think me n my colleagues quite lucky le as four of them pass by in front of us(we juz finish having lunch so lepak-lepak for a while, hehe) when they got down from the lift, IN FRONT!!!then witness them go down to concourse using escalator....no doubt, very handsome....thinking wanna take out my phone to take photo de but once i analyse, take out my phone from the cover need 1 minute, unlock n go to camera need another minute, then standby, capture n save need another minute, total up= roughly 2-3 minutes, they oso go down edi, so i oso save my energy, not taking any action...lolz....

well, when i got back to counter oni i know kak ros was shaking hand wiv one of them!!!!KAK ROS, U PALING LUCKY DALAM SELURUH KLCC HARI INI!!!BANYAK ORANG TAK DAPAT SENTUH BULU MEREKA PUN....yala, the guard so strict......=.=conclusion, goosebump raise when seeing them.....the feeling was soooo HIGH u know....now oni i know meeting wiv someone that every ppl(especially girls) crazy about is dis kind of feeling..no jokes, my bulu reli singing 'NEGARAKU' at that moment.

Haha, well, gtg le, full shift for continuosly two days edi(12 hours per day), super tired!!!!nitezzz~

CY

Received Joo Eey's phone call around 10pm. Thought she wanna invite me for clubbing as laz week i did ask her when wanna club again, i miss them a lot, kakaka....then she told me dat chui ying aka my pet sis is going to leave malaysia to foreign country, dunno wer, to becum an AIR STEWARDESS....wow, once was my dream job...well, Chui Ying is tall, 175++, very chinese look... no wonder can becum air stewardess so easily, well, her height edi enough to make her pass the interview...

However, so sad dat i couldn't make it as i'll work continuosly till next fri...well, i sms her n told her dat...hehe, another gd news has cum. that is she will meet me personally during my working hours...monday she'll come over to klcc to look for me....sis, so sayang u de....:)

Hehe, looking forward for monday to come....^^

Will miss her damn lot after dat...n i bet she'll enjoy her life, coz can fly here n der, meeting diff ppl...well, i oso know dat air stewardess is a very tiring job, wearing high heels n heavy make up all the time. haha, i'm so lazy now coz nowadays i so daring, not putting any foundation...juz eye n lip make up, hahha...ya, i juz let my impurities expose like dat, cover sini cover sana, begitu susah buat apa?haha....well, one word, I'M LAZY~~~~n actualy oso for my own skin gd...my colleague, Chloe sure will scold me 99 if she c me putting foundation n let my frindge cover my forehead...now she became my personal beauty consultant edi....well, i appreciate her a lot...^^luv u girl, muackss~

Dat's all for today...later gonna take bath then *pigzzzzzzz*, juz reach home not long ago actually...miss my blog, hahahah...:p

final yoga lesson...sob sob...:(

Sigh, today is the final lesson for me as june i'll stop learning due to some financial problem, (oni got rm150 as my pocket money for my entire may, n i hav used up almost all for eating n travelling during working plus some outing wiv frens) n kinda tired of two hours travelling from my house juz to go der for an one hour lesson. so i think i better stop le......i wanna earn more money n buy a car!!!!


~i'm the earliest one...^^....still wiv my jacket...

~took off my jacket, gonna ready to do some stretching n warm up first.....

~ready??go!!!!

~i gonna practise harder, so dat i can fold my body into half, now almost oni, coz i'm not flexible enuf.....

~wiv one leg lift up to 90 degree....n stretch my back....

~stretch my legs.......i think i've injured my right legs since laz two weeks, b4 i went penang dat time. coz my right legs super pain when i stretch it.....:'(

~after finish stretching, lift again my legs higher, stretch more on my back n legs as well.......

Well, today kelly skip class as she's not feeling well....today, irene taught us some new pose like crow pose. i oni manage to lift for few seconds as my stomach n hand reli not strong enuf to withstand my body weight...so, wad to do??GONNA PRACTISE MORE!!!!n some pose i cant do today coz i'm having menses rite now, if not back flow of the blood, n it's not gd gor our body....

Sigh, after today muz time myself for yoga, coz no longer learning, sure will get lazy....Melody, muz hardworking ok??

teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I cant breathe
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky, cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see


*歌词浅白易懂，简简单单就道出了单恋的心情*
那些年纯纯的岁月，永远是倒带也回不了的过去。。。

过渡期

很想你就在我身边
但 我知道
想念你的日子
只是一种 过渡期

wad a day~

Went out early in the morning to settle my banking stuff....
Reached home n stare at my schedule...sigh, feeling like wanna stop working earlier, as too many politics inside.....i hate seeing those politics stuff that always hurt ppls' feelings...:(

~baby~

我最近发了很奇怪的梦。

第一次，我梦见自己怀孕了，氧胎水爆了，但baby就是怎样都不肯出来。。。担心baby脑缺氧生出来变成弱智儿而在那里哭哭啼啼。过后，醒了。。。

第二次，我梦见自己怀孕了，这次顺利生产，但我却将baby给了别人。。。很依依不舍那种，毕竟怀胎十月，生了又拱手让人那种滋味谁受得了。虽然只是梦境，但那种抱着自己的baby，看着他沉睡，然后亲手将他交给陌生人的感觉却很真实。梦里的我，哭了，然后一直叮咛那陌生人好好照顾baby，然后又跟baby不懂说了什么。只是知道，视线离不开baby就对了。。。过后，梦醒了。。。痛的感觉一道一道划在心上，痛很真实。。。好像自己真的做了mommy一样。

两个梦境的共同点，我没有老公，那时的我也不是我想像中的适婚年龄。。。

虽然这不是噩梦，因为我没被鬼(touch wood)或怪兽追，没被杀手追杀，没有生命危险，但我却觉得那是恶梦。如果在现实生活中我在结婚前（爸妈还不懂我有男朋友的状况下）怀孕了，那个绝对是一个超级大恶梦。

其实我真的想过，到了适婚年龄还找不到另一半，我就会去找一个优质男孩借精，呃，不！应该是‘要’精，我可没精子还他，哈哈！然后，再让自己怀孕。我要生个女儿，因为总感觉女儿比较粘妈妈，又可以跟她打扮，投资在她身上都比较值得。前提是我要很本领才行，不然怎么养得起呢？而且还要将她调教得很有气质+内涵才行。

有这种想法很奇怪吗？

关于那两个梦，有谁或谁的朋友会解梦的？可以帮我解看看吗？我会感激万分的。^^

第一次这么concern自己发过的梦。。。

*现在单身，不用害怕我会怀孕，哈哈！

so vain~:p

So in love wiv dark colour recently...errr...mistery enough?lolz.....


~this is my 'homework' when working for Paul & Joe. i hav used my spare time to do this...thanks to my colleague who has helped me to complete my ten fingers.......base coat, nail polish n top coat from Paul & Joe. Their nail polish is very nice, the colour intensity is gd, the texture is nice n smooth n etc...smell nice wiv the fragance...^^dat's y it's so costly....rm50 per item. *colour applied= cherry red

~well, this is not from Paul & Joe, but it's from SKIN FOOD. I bought when i visited to cap square after attending my school's teacher's day celebration...the quality not bad....texture is smooth enough n the intensity of colour also very gd, easy to apply....^^nail colour n top coat both from SKIN FOOD.This one cheaper, rm8.80 per item.*colour applied= maroon red

Lolz, i know both colours also look vain....but i juz Luv it....kakkaka....:p

sien dao ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man, i'm so so so so so sooooooo sien ar!!!!!!!!!!!
juz called anata, i wanna club wiv her, long time dun go clubbing edi!!!!!!
n juz called the supervisor n the agent....
shit!!!!!!!!they said the salary out edi but by the time they nvr ask me my acc no., how cum oh?!!!say wanna check for me, dunno true or not!will bother them till i got it!huh!!!
very scared work for agency de, always delay our salary!!!!!!!!!!!!ishhhh!!!!!!!!!!
i wan money ar!!!!!!gonna wait summore!!!!!
sien sien sien~

~better in time~

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)
Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too
yes I do(It'll all get better in time)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh (It'll all get better....)

因为我寂寞

事情往往是这样
期待
真的来临
却怯步了

我在放不开些什么？

也许 心里测验也有准的时候

也许 我 一生只爱一个人

如果我想也没想就答应你

那我大可告诉你 那不是爱情

只是因为 我寂寞

~kissing~

无言...
年少的激情 往往发生在当年
还有挥霍不完那青春的 想当年

忙里偷闲

难得今天又没有做工，七早八早就把kah yan拉了起来一起跑步去。跑到住家附近的公园，然后做些伸展动作，谈下天，过后到auntie那里回味一下我之前超级爱吃的板面。真的，什么都起价了。。。

觉得今天的年轻人应该很少有这种早起的耐力，就只是要去跑步。。。在这个发达的e时代，时下的e达人都宁愿睡到太阳晒屁股才甘愿起床，然后就会on电脑，对吧？才发现自己要的生活就是那些退休人士的生活。

依稀记得以前和婆婆住在怡保的时候，每天早晨（五点多）她都会拉我起来陪她去打太极。然后，我就会提着小凳子，穿着棉质的睡衣，顶着惺忪的眼睛，坐在那里看她打太极。过后再陪她到pasar买菜，吃早餐。怡保，最令我难忘的是天还没亮，挂在苍穹努力闪耀自己的星星，过后就是那里绵延不绝的山脉，再来就是她那沁人心脾的自来水，真的是超级舒服的。以前会觉得super闷，现在不知几想过回那种生活，几天都好。在太平也是，一样被婆婆拉起来陪她到太平湖（店屋里太平湖很近，走路都可以到了）去打太极，过后到附近的pasar吃早餐，买菜。现在她老了，都没特地爬起来去打太极了。反而是陪心脏不太好的公公到太平湖跑步，然后到附近的茶餐室吃早点。那里真的很传统哦，早上的时候整间茶室里只有包，点心和唐人茶。下午我还可以到Irene老师那里学瑜伽，没有规定学几天，一堂课rm8，想去就可以去，很好吧！中心那栋楼刚建不久，所以还挺有时尚感的。studio里的装潢，灯光也是一级棒的，做瑜伽的feel恰到好处。^^

六月，真的要找一天回去那里了。上了大学就没那个时间了吧！哎，人长大了，就会开始选择自己理想的生活方式，只是自己也许还太年轻，没经济能力，也加上现实的阻扰，所以没得选。悲哀！但也发现了一样事情，开始有能力实现小小的梦想，例如，学瑜伽，我做到了；进cosmetic counter做工，我也达到了。现在，对自己设下的另一个mission是，别做机器人，过个有feel的生活。。。

你们知道吗？今天一直挂在头上的灯泡亮了，一直给我悠闲的生活的话，就后就会觉得闷。。。
原来，‘忙里偷闲’的生活，才是最值得期待的。。。^^

tired!!!!

Urgh!!!i'm sooooo tired......tired of travelling, tired of working n everything...
Seriously dis is the first time i do sales till like dis, unlike laz time when i worked for lazo...Laz time i was soooo active to push my sales, keeps on promoting, maybe due to the stress dat given by kenny, my lazo manager....haha, but now...let me tell u wad i do whenever i work....

Well, when i juz start working, i was so hardworking to make up from house, use about almost one hour to complete my heavy make up.....but now...kakka....half n hour b4 i go out from home, only i go take bath....then reach there without any make up, only wiv my make up base..then start make up der...now reli lazy to make up edi,i told nancy, can i dun make up for tml?i'm so lazy to make up......gonna get myself an eyecream as when doing smokey eyes, my eyes lids suffer a lot, i dunwan all the fine lines appear so soon...

K, after finish my make up, chit-chating wiv frens, if got custmer oni i go n serve, wrap the gift set, man, i hate dis a lot but somehow i wan to challenge myself, so keeps on doing it....well, not reli sell hard coz like tak ada stress oni....if she/he wanna buy, then juz buy, if dunwan to buy, i oso wont promote anymore....so tak bagus, a gd promoter shudn't like dis....sigh.....

Neither enjoy nor suffer, juz sell my time to PARKSON, hahaha......salary isnt high, but at least i got something to do n i do learn more....haha, my speed to complete a set of smokey eyes oso semakin cepat oredi...^^

Hehe, daddy said dis sat till mon will go penang again....actually mommy suggest pangkor island de, but my aunt wanna shop, so change to penang edi.....errrr....everytime oso go der, like so sien oredi.....

exhausted!

Today's yoga class is super duper exhausting!!!!
Legs shake non-stop after we did four sets of warrior-I-II-III. n finally i sweat....dat's wad i wan, haha....nowadays oni exercise once a week....so lazy hor....
I think dis would be my final month to attend yoga class le, after uni has start, not sure whether will continue learning or not....
So fast, now edi may........

~蓝~

看到他的信息只会让我更想哭而已。。。
然而，真的，听着静茹的‘会呼吸的痛’，
眼泪又流了下来。。。
今天是怎么了？
二十四小时里面，就哭了两次。。。
早上在巴士里强忍的泪水，
回到房里，立刻决堤。。。
就这样哭到睡着。。。
现在，看到他的信息，
又哭了。。。
压力吧，
早上那单只是minor刺激而已。。。
真正流泪的原因，
我想，
是自己太寂寞了吧。
什么东西自己一个人做得太久，
会发现，自己也会累。。。
不想麻烦别人，就唯有自己吞下去。。。
羡慕那些有伴的，
负担也会轻一些。。。
像自己一样，单身的，真的要坚强很多。。。

ffk了今天本来与朋友约好的电影，对不起。。。因为今天的心情真的是烂到没话说。。。

:(

My sixth sense is telling me dat something has happened....

I think i'll be the next one.....

Ntg will laz forever....

Am i too sensitive or wad?

I'm so sad..:(

frus!!!!!!!!!!!

Is this a form of training??i'm sooo stress, so 'sun fu'....sob sob....:(

y papa so cruel?thought he will support my transport, somehow he still cut from my saving that i've asked my mom keep for me....

after calculated (deduct my meal n transport), each time i work, the NET TOTAL that i earn for each day(8 hours) is only rm25.

Being independent isn't easy. Go anywhere alone, if too far, gonna ask around how to reach there
using public transport, coz cant rely on cab everytime if u arent rich. Not enough money, think how to save....think for the whole evening, how to go klcc in the cheapest way coz currently i go der using lrt, both star n putra, double journey cost me rm6, only transport, for one day. n after reach station, papa cant fetch, gonna take cab. now cannot le, gonna take rapid kl.if i earn a lot nvm jeh, but i earn so 'chicken' little. if work everyday, hohohoho.....wer to korek money?

So reality, everything about money.......money money money, so frus!!!!!!!

day~

Today woke up eary in the morning, very early, 5.45am, early enuf??haha, coz hav to go back to school for the academic award day.....i'm receiving 'anugerah cemerlang stpm 2007', kakka.... i'm the first senior who has reached the school, oni me wiv the 'so weird' formal cloths, well, go to toilet first while waiting others to come....

Saw lots of them, reli lots to mention....i noticed some of the girls hav becum prettier, the most shocking for me is yuet mei, so mature, so pretty......conclusion, all has changed after released from the 'prison', kakaka....dis is the freedom after stpm...^_^

about 10.00am the event has finished, me, kelly, lai mei n eve were rushing to cheras to sing k as eve has reserved a room at 11am.After that we celebrate chin chin's birthday as well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL, MUACKSS~met mei sing n see pey in the middle. Mei sing is working der, kacau her for a while, kaaka....

All of us sit der n chit-chating as we r still in U6SC4, so happy...^_^

Leaving at 5pm, reach home about 7pm....remove make up, do mask....then suddenly mommy ask me cut hair for her...she teaches me how to cut at the right angle, the outcome is a 'bob', kakka....not bad not bad....feel so satisfied....^_^

Finally today i can sleep slightly earlier as today i woke up so damn early, pretty tired actually....
then tml gona replace counter again for noon shift....money ar money!!!!!!!

in the darkness

Juz back from yoga class....Today Irene taught us bridge pose(gong qiao) n head stand....so happy coz both i able to do it, juz the head stand still require more practise as still not that stable yet.Sigh, after i start taking up yoga course, i become lazy edi, coz i nvr practise it at home, juz rely on the centre....cannot, muz hardworking abit....

N i hav decided to take up another new course start from next month, that is jazz dance. Actually modern dance oso not bad, both oso i very like it. Haha, dat means i'll be learning 2 things at the same time, dat is yoga n jazz dance...both at the same day, jazz dance from 4pm-5pm, yoga from 7.30pm-8.30pm....sure very very exhausted....but nvm, i like it....i dun mind spending money on the things i like...i rather spend money learn new things than juz sit at home on9 for the whole day....luckily i still able to fulfil it as i always said dat i wanna learn dancing or yoga after my stpm....^_^

Maybe the incident, i still very down today....b4 irene enter the class, i do some warm up n stretching myself first....in the darkness...i felt dat do it alone in the darkness i can be more concentrate....that's wad the peaceful i wan....looking myself into the mirror wiv the asana, wiv nobody by my side, dat's me, the long lost me....how long i've been missing myself in dis world....

i found back myself....in the darkness....

~hurt so bad~

The feeling juz like finish a war from a battle field...n i'm deeply injured.....the ppl who i trusted very much stabbed me from behind....i'm hurt.....

Y ppl from the same boat as me will do dis to me? i thought he will together wiv me n we can cross the river together, somehow he push me down to the deep blue sea n let me bear every single mess that he has caused!!

i'm lost in believe.....dun ask me to trust any single thing around me again....my heart isnt strong, i cant bear anymore.....:'(

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发现原来我伤心，想要忘掉一切烦恼时，我会想去club放纵一个晚上。。。
第一次有这样的想法。。。
什么都不要想。。。
只想活在那烟酒弥漫的地方，活在音乐里。。。
如果那天又遇见他，在想，我们会不会就这样ON了？
我现在只想逃避。。。
你们说我小胆也好，懦弱也好，
反正我就是不想睁开眼睛看见这个世界。。。
我一直在往下沉，怎么办？

LEONA LEWIS

Leona Lewis....Man, she's so gd!!!goosebumps raised all over my skin when listening to her song....BRAVO!!!LEONA!!!