Marry or Not?

As a woman, for sure we hav come through meeting some other womans who is still single even at their age of 50. It could be 2 reasons, either u seriously enjoy single life, everynight go club go bar (50 still can go young ppl places ok...=.=), or u couldnt find the right guy to marry~

As for me, after i've seen them, the bunch of unattached, no matter how happy they look, somehow i still feel like it's kinda lonesome when the moment u back to ur apartment, there is no hubby n no kids warm welcoming u back...Thus, i told myself, i wanna get myself married before 30. Well, is juz part of my plan, whether i'll get marry or remained single, is still an unknown n somehow a lil depends on fate u know~

Ok, let assume u get to marry. But, woman has to really choose the right one before u step into marriage life, make a vow n commit to someone who u will spend the rest of ur life with~

Or else, the rest of ur life will become like this........



Being a mad frustrating woman complain on wadever things on ur marriage, u even will think that regreting marry this guy...I bet every woman dun wish this to happen, who wanna make their life a misery right? Believe it or not, my mom told me after married, husband n wife will only argue on these thingss....MONEY, KIDS, ATTITUDE N WOMAN~~that's all....n if u get the wrong guy, muahahhaha, welcome to the miserable marriage life....

If u ask me, what criteria(s) should a man possesses to make yourself safe to marry him?

I would answer u this...


1. The man must love his family

It is obvious if a man cannot love his family when he is young, he wouldnt love his future family when he become a husband and a daddy, and ur family...well, of course he should also know how to balance the love in between..So, for me this is the most important element when u want to marry a guy, see how he interacts with his family...

2. The man must be a cute man

Dun fall for a handsome man, fall for a cute man instead.. Handsome man wont made ur day but a cute man will. Imagine that u gonna spend ur life with him for the rest of ur life, 'handsome-ness' will fade, but cute-ness is something inner and can be last. If ur man is not cute enough, then i guess ur life would be kinda bored... u know, like sometimes u two will fight like kids, crack some lame jokes which can make u laugh for the whole day, and sometimes giv u lil surprises, maybe a sudden kiss or a sudden hug...For me, when i'm cooking, n my cute bf hugging me from behind and say :'thanks honey', it is sweet enough indeed...=)

3. The man must can do housechore, maybe not all but at least some to help out

Man who doesnt help out a woman do housechore when they r still couple, do u think they will bother to help u to change a fius or a bulb after u marry him?


4. The man can cook...(actually this is bonus la~~~haha...)

Whether he can cook u very simple meal like fried egg, sausage n toast with butter like this....

or make u some sweet-into-heart dessert like this or some nice nice cuisine which can compared with restaurant outside....

muaahahahha, u r the lucky one girl~~=))Dont u girl think a guy who can cook is soooooooo attractive??Imagine ur bf in an apron washing vege, cutting meat n bla bla bla~~=))

5. The man will buy u gift sometimes

I heard woman says that i would be happier if a received a bouquet during normal day than valentines or anniversary...maybe no need a bouquet, but a flower with some sweet notes can enlighten ur gf or honey's day...Guys out there, trust me, the real girl of u wont demand u to buy so expensive stuff, they will help u to save also...but they also want some lil gift surprise when u two are together...Like when she is having exam, buy her boxes of candy and snacks; when she is sick, buy her watermelon, or something when u shop n u feel is suitable for her...

For me, if the man is still has no career n cannot give u luxury life, but if he loves u enough, he will try his best to giv u things that he could 'afford' (not necessary expensive stuff, it could be a 'romance'..=))), at least for now when u two still together...

'I'm tired', 'I'm out of money', 'I have no time' cannot always be the excuses~~

If ur man can do this, grab him tightly, and a happy marriage could be urs...=))

if NOT, think twice before u enter the stage of marriage....

Welll, super important here, to get a great guys like this, of course u as a girl, should be nice and worth enough to let him do so~~=))

Relationship~

The story begins like this....

A very random night, a boy n a girl met, and believe it or not, pheromone has makes them attracts to each other so much and finally, ya, they fell in love, deeply... And shall i end this story with, 'they live together happily ever after' just like what disney fairy-tale ever told us n somehow poisoned our mind that white prince will eventually appear in our life?

Well, ya, it could be possible the story can be ended with 'living together happily ever after'..But who knows behind this sentence, it actually takes the couple how long and how hard to reach this stage~

In a relationship, firstly of course honey-moon period becomes the dominant. After a while, perhaps a 3 months to half year, stability or comfort period will take place where couples are so much used to each other n being so true-self to each other until ur so tak boleh tengok punya pattern (eg., farting, muahahhaha~~XD..ok, tell me who dun fart..=.=..it just depends if u can make it into silent mode or vibration or wadever) also come out. Well, this is gd if ur other half can accept the whole you (actually it depends on the degree of tolerance ur partner has, if the degree is wide then congrats, otherwise pile of complaints and nagging will be heard from ur loved ones). Sooner or later, arguements take place due to the increasing of involvement in each other life. This is kinda true when something or wiv someone u get so close with, the occurance of friction increase, and gradually unstatisfaction appears n BOOM, the ever first arguement occur~~

Somehow couple could survive the very first one, but not guarantee with the subsequents one~And there is the critical period to determine if the relationship can be kept going~~YA!!accept the truth that things only has YES, or NO~either u make it or u couldnt. Of coz in this case is for couple who make it, if cant make it then BYE BYE end of the story.

If couple could survive after so much arguements, eventually a compromise will be produced after the pattern. For example, BIG arguement, then one side will keep quiet (NOT a cold war), if ur other half is rational enough, he/she will calm down, if he/she is not then sorry for ur ears to endure those bullshitss~and when both side are totally calm down, then only talk about it and solve it...it is even better if a solution could be sort-out and compromises reached. And believe it or not, this will appear to be a cycle...just like domestic violence...Who is strong enough to make through this cycle, then marriage could be ur choice...*A happy marriage is always a 2-way efforts.

There is one period in between where after going through the whole cycle, u will realize he is actually that man/girl who is the one u can be together with, living together, treasure life together, u know...and holding hands together till both of u go to consult dentist and get falsies together, and u always n perhaps love him more n more, n then--------U STARTED TO SCARE THAT YOU WILL LOSE HIM~~~This doesnt sounds good coz as a human beings we should accept the fact that no matter what happend, in the end, we will lose the someone. We couldnt find the ETERNITY physically but yet ETERNITY EMOTIONALLY is somehow hard to be seen. Human is greedy, we want something lasting physically where u can touch it, see it, hear it, taste it, smell it..Senses, are sin~~(at least for a pure buddha, it is!)That's the reasons making human beings demand for more and forget that actually without any of them, we still can survive, with all the fundamental things that already given by The Almighty. Due to the greed, u want something forever which u can actually see it with ur eyes but not heart. That's y u afraid of losing him~

Once in a blue moon, this question pop out in my mind. Can i afford to lose him?at least for now~~ (plz dun compare ur bf with ur family, coz ur family is always the first and no one can afford the pain of losing any of ur family member...If a bf is gd enough, then he will become ur family~=))
Ok, back to the questions~ANS: i realize i scared that i will lose him~ It's been really a while i never look into his eyes, and few days back, out of very random i look into his eyes again n i c something, undescribable, which makes me think that : 'what if i lose this man i love one day?'..and i lost...to no where...

Perhaps instead of afraid of something which is an unknown, i should spend more time n more effort to love him...Coz it's never been easy to find someone like the one who is right beside u holding ur hands now~ If one day happen that i lose him, i should tell myself, no sad, no regreting n all, coz at least we have the ETERNITY before when we look into each other eyes, thoroughlly... that is where u feel love, the way into his heart...

n yes i love my bf~

Isnt it lovely?

We kiss we love n occasionally we fight crazily like kids when we r young where both of us still energetic and capable of doing so much crazy things...and when both of us grow older, maybe couldnt be as crazy as before, but i believe a state of equilibrium has reached where we learn how to love in a way with a better give and take~~

And this is all about love and also life, give and take...Never afraid of losing someone u love when u two have been in love before, at least there is something happened in your life which carved a nice memory in ur heart which is unremovable~~=))

perfect woman~~

Ppl said, behind a successful man, there would be a woman he loves~~
I would like to say, sometimes, behind a perfect woman, there would be a man she loves too~~

I aint perfect for everyone, but HE makes me perfect, at least for myself....=)

the recent me~~

The recent me??


~still love to cium-cium her ah moi~~

~still love to do those silly pose~~

~face still that round and big....=.=.....

~loves her braces a lot....haha...^o^

~loves to smile wide without k bout the braces...

~trying to be more feminine.....*blush*...haha....

~still the old me where i think i've gained something outer n inner that i not really realized. But i know i've changed...thanks to all the disaster which came to me within this holidays~~they make me grow stronger and tougher....

it hurts a lot~~~

Dunno wad's the reason i came back to blog...emo i guess....
Juz back from work, juz settle down myself, n my legs seems like do not get rest still n roaring in pain....
How many hours i work for?
Gosh it's only 4 hours but it seems like so damn long when i'm at counter....
I din stand all the time, thank God there is still a chair for me to sit...
But the heels hurt a lot whenever i wear it......
The heels doesnt fit me at all. I hav size 4 feet but i was forced to bought a size 5 low heels as i really need a pair of working heels at that time..limited choice n there is no size 4 n i'm quite ok with the design everything so i just grab it, thought by adding whatever pad then my foot will fit in nicely eventually....added all types of inner-sole to make it fit to my foot....
In the end, i can walk in a nicer way but it hurts a lot....
What's the point of wearing a pair of shoes that u think it's nice, elegant, make ur legs look longer n slimmer n bla bla bla but it hurts and not comfort at all indeed?

Aiks, dunno wad i emo for.......

Lesson of the day: Things that do not suit u will only hurt u a lot though u like it very much...

the moment~

感觉，还真的是一瞬间的事情~~
很开心，不需要用那些勉强人的借口，最终还是放手，这个才叫真正的放下~~

生活加油！！

前天去了云顶，做了些疯狂的事，开心延续到今天~~
偶尔抛开一切疯一天，原来也是mentally的一种休息~

生活再加油！^^

陷在回忆里面~

不要知道答案，是不是更好~
老早作了选择，但为什么知道后却那么伤心~
回忆涌现，开始到结束原来不曾模糊过~
结局只是让我觉得那么的可惜~
‘它’不曾在我身边逗留过~
我的另一扇窗呢？
我想是上面的太忙碌了吧~
我的小case被他们丢进waiting list了～
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movies~

最近一直都在ppstream翻回旧片来看~
以前都喜欢看周星驰的搞笑片，现在这类型的片却打动不了我，反而以前怎么看也看不明的文艺片让我深陷了。

记得最先接触的是《星语心愿》和《心动》，也是n年前的事了。。。
过后有一排都没看这种两小时的电影，反而追看连续剧~
后来有了ppstream，无聊时就会翻旧片看~
还真的发现了不少宝~
刚看完《如果。爱》，看完后，没话说~
我想，‘没话说’的定义是一种境界，没有得评论，是太好了吗？
演得太细腻了。一个拥抱，一个眼神，一滴眼泪，一句简短对白，都说进心坎里~



~永远爱你的，是你自己~

~现实的诱惑vs爱情的？？（我也想不到要放什么）。。。现实说：‘爱能喂饱你吗？’；爱情说：‘我以为有爱就够了？’。

好一个‘以为’，是‘疑问’？还是‘反问’？

~爱情里面，会找到‘复仇’，但往往伤害了曾经让你心碎的人后，才发现自己还是以前的自己，那个不忍心把对方伤害的自己~多傻啊！

另一部让我‘哇’的，就是‘色戒’。。。无可否认，床戏是个卖点。

令我印象深刻的，是汤唯说了一句：‘三年前你可以的，为什么不？’~

~《黑皮书》，让你知道，不能全相信你所看到与听到的，外面的世界是险恶的可以~这部戏不能说十分精彩，但它就是会让你静静地看完~

~《傲慢与偏见》，我也不晓得为什么会放这上来，因为看完了也没有很明。还有，它是第一部看着字幕也不是很懂的戏，用词很深。我觉得需要再找一天好好看过一遍，再慢慢消化，应该会很累人的~

~无可否认，setting很美，就像《断背山》的setting一样~

其实还后很多不错的片子，个人推荐《画皮》，《花木兰》。故事围绕的莫过于爱情，但我觉得它好看是因为。。。它们就好像实实在在，发生在我们四周一样~

first step always the hardest~

Y am i sad??
Y am i so k about it??
By the time i've got no rights to do, to feel anything of it!!!
Can it fade faster??
SHIT!!!!!
I'm juz ntg....=(
God, plz stop fooling around wiv me anymore....
my heart can no longer withstand the feeling of heartache everytime when i c something dat i dun wish too...
Conclusion, i know i'm the one who is always psycho about that, so shud i said i deserved it?? deserved for being so kepo?
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thought i've decided n hav the determination in doing it, somehow first step always the hardest~~=(


ok, i'm not happy after all.......=(

braced~~

Finally, finally my dream has come true where i've got my braces done....well, it's kinda funny as i categorized it as my dream~~~haha, YES!!it is my dream, juz that i wasnt dare enough to brace since i was young coz i scare to extract my teeth, i scare the anaesthetic injection!!!until one day where one of my pt dance teacher tease on my teeth, so i decided to brace~~~scared no more!!

So, i was lucky enough to get into UKM n become their student coz we always hav the privileged to get the free services, and bracing the teeth is one of it.....

After deciding to brace, i've go register at FGG and get a general check-up first, then screening.....and wait for next appointment......

I remember the doctor asked me:'Do u mind waiting for few months to get ur braces?','Of coz i dun mind'....(o.s: it would be better if we can start immediately...=.=)ok, sooooo....the few months he means actually is 12 months until i got the call from my orthodontist-on-trained......OMG, i'm sooo happy to get that calll, finally my dream is one step nearer........

First thing before i got my braces was putting separator.......n i accidentally swallow it together wiv my MCD fillet-o-fish burger after putting it for 3 weeks...n i only realized i swallowed it when i'm watching AVATAR coz i can feel the pain.......=.=*fainted*

Second thing, which is the most scary for me, is teeth extraction....i've extracted 4 teeths within 3 days...i nvr knew i can do this...n wad i wan to comment here is, anaesthetic injection reli reli reli reli FU*KING PAIN PAIN PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, done wiv extraction.....i was happy coz finally i can get my braces few days later.....n sarcastic-cally, the path to get my braces was actually tough...coz while waiting for bracing that day, FGG has blackout for few times....n doctor once told me if the electricity still do no recover by 11.45am, then the appointment has to be cancelled....by the time, it was already 11.15am.......God knows how hard i pray juz to get back the electricity.....HELO, i skipped all my monday classes juz to get the things done on my teeth~~~n thanks God He heard my prayers....the electricity has OKAY at 11.25am, fiu... risky though........so at last i manage to get my braces happily...........

And now edi 3rd day of bracing, n i hav eaten porridge for 3 days.....but still not reli can c the movement of my teeth coz i hav grew older, age of 21 consider quite old to get brace edi....so doctor asked me to be patient to c the result...Gum recovery slow down already wad.....

Well, i think the next challenge i hav to face is another anaesthetic injection which i hate the most....coz i need to put screw to locate my molar teeth so that it wont move forward instead the front teeth hav to move backward....argh!!i juz cant imagine wad will happen to my delicate gum...put a screw on it...somebody tell me it's not pain at all plz~~~@.@

Neway, despite of all the painful experince, i hav finally get my braces, shud hav happy n be grateful for it........so i shud hav smile~~~but not wide, ulceration will start soon if i move my lips tooo much......

So, hav u smile today???i hav~~~~^^



~hehehehhehe..............*doink*

无奈-ing~

待会儿就要回到加影了~
开始新的一个学期~
其实，并没有很期待~
没有特别开心，也没有特别伤心~
特别无奈倒是有一点点的~

什么咚咚在作祟啊？
结束开始，从来都由不到我们来作主~
所以呢~
还是乖乖收拾心情，迎接即将来临的新挑战吧~

本人还是比较期待一月四日，套上牙套的那一天，如果一切都顺利的话~
那个对我来说，才比较像一个新的开始~
开始我的牙套生活~

现在，好好享受当下吧~

前进，还是后退~~

我又回来了，不好意思，又要blog些不开心的东西，因为除了生日那天，我都好像没开心过了。。。

这几天开始会烦，开始会胡思乱想，开始会有负面想法。。。
朋友问我又发生什么事情了，我说我们就是什么都没发生。。。
开始发现自己越陷越深了，怎么办？
该继续这样下去？还是该减少联络，减少见面，放自己的心一条生路？
为什么要放弃？因为当你不知道你喜欢的人在想什么时，完全sense不到他对你怎样时，但表面上又好像很close时，那种像下一步就会踩到地雷的感觉一点都不好受。。。唯有立即逃离，不然最后被炸得粉身碎骨，我能怨谁？
开口？难道我没想过吗？但没把握的事我是不会做的。。。你说我自卑也好，怕死也好，我都不管，我就是怕死！！怎样！！怎样！！

那种感觉又回来了。。。谁说暗恋也是一种幸福？bullshit!!!!

已经做了最坏的心理准备，就是，在我什么都没做的情况下，我会失去他。。。

我就是没胆。。。我承认。。。

为了一个你喜欢，但他不知道自己喜欢他的人，伤心是难免的，但不是应该~

random update~~

back back back!!!!finally~~~~

Finally finish my final, it was sux, that's wad i can comment....first time feeeeeel dat stress u know...n finally i understand y some mahasiswa and mahasiswi will commit suicide~~~but still it has over.....yippie!!!!!

well, start working at klcc, selling RENE FURTERER, a hair care product from France....once think dat need to work, one word>>>SIEN...maybe instead of feeling sien sien dei, i shud hav learn to make my life more colourful......

Fortunately, i still manage to get some rest b4 starting to work....went back to hometown to accompany my grandparents....went movie, 2012 wiv my physio fren n overnight at their place....then went a late night movie<> with den.....these two movies makes me learn to appreciate wad we hav currently, but not to demand too much, u'll need to pay more than wad u demand.....n 2012 not bad a movie also.....i wonder if or earth will turn out like that in the future 2 years....well, God decides this....

N one more pleasant thing, hehe, if everything goes well, 1st of dec will start to wear a seperator on my teeth, n after few weeks i can start my bracing....huhu..so excited once think about it....may everything goes well then....coz i've waited for one year plus.....*whee*^^

work work work later!!!!!!!!!>.<

away~~~

huhu, i'm here to bid a transient gdbye............yyy???
becoz....
becoz.................
i'll be having final next week until almost mid of nov............urgh!!!!
this sem final is totally a nightmare for me~~~

well, pharmacology make me sick for memorising all the drugs, their MOA and side effects.....reli headache with this.......
Chemistry n its 'derivatives' wakakaka..........make me look stupid!!!
sigh...

Conclusion, break both legs for myself n to frens who r having exam also....

Jia You, Jia You.........JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^^

i'm scared!!!!!!!!!down~~~

Now is 2.00am, n yes, i juz finished my mcd filet-o-fish set....tml 9.00am dance practice again, i supposed right on my bed now instead of blogging~~~BUT!! BUT!! I REALLY NEED A WAY OUT!!!!

I shouldnt be complained here as i was willing to join this n dance all 6 dances at the first place, neway, i juz wanna say it out to make myself feel better.......

Practised for 2 days (whole day) continuously.....n finally we ALMOST completed all 6 dances....juz need to polish up all the movement...n we only left ONE WEEK for performance.....n seriously, our dance, none of one can move to the stage........First time i feel so stress!!!!!!!

Today being the first time we do a full run on dance without drama....ya, non-stop, after 1st dance continue wiv 2nd dance...the outcome of 6 dances, terrible+horrible+vegetable!!!!!
i knew all the main campus dancers din mentally prepared for the following dance as we reli reli tired as in physically n mentally......Thank God teacher din reli scold us as they knew we r tired too n we juz finish all the movement by yesterday n today, not reli familiar completely wiv all the movement yet....they juz wanna c how well we can handle if anything happen on stage....

First time i saw my dancemates blurred until ask us where she supposed to stand,
First time i saw my dancemates blank until ask us wad's the dance all about...(by the time we all finish choreograph the dance edi),
First time i found myself reach the place but dunno wad movement to start...
First time i found myself langsung blank for the next movement like we nvr did b4......
First time i found our dance sooooooooo CHAOS!!!!
First time i found we r not sure wiv our movement.....
I hav lost confidence seriously....:(

All of these mistakes can no longer appear in practice or rehearsal right 1-week b4 of performance!!!!!!
I felt sorry to teacher coz i did reli badly for all the 6 dances....
i din mentally prepared, i'm not alert.......
sigh, this time i reli reli feel that i got no confidence in handling each dance....:(

B4 start the first dance, i reli can feel my heart beat faster, first time i feel that like i'm getting heart attack u know~~

Well, treat today as an experience.....i reli hope dat the next rehearsal, all the dancers can dance better, cannot worse than this time seriously.....

GOD!!!!!!!giv all the pt-30 dancers power for one week plus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!only one week plus plz~~~~~~~~~~~all of us must dance till finish the performance........

JIA YOU EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hypnotise myself that my body, my muscle isnt pain, (eventhought it is, doubt if tml can move or not)
hypnotise myself that my skin is not itchy........(THANKS to fungus infection, now even my armpit also kena edi...........super duper pain man!!!!!!!!!!)
hypnotise myself i'm not tired, i'm awaken, i can memo all the movement, i can dance it all out wiv the right feel!!!!
hypnotise myself wiv everything that can aid me in dancing~~~~

I DUN FEEL PAIN N ITCHY~~~

finish, sleep!!!!!!!!nite nite everyone!!!

when i'm back to KL....

Finally, finally i manage to get myself to my bloggie again.....huhu, having raya break now, n i'm at KL now, super happy!!!!it's been ages i din go home.....feel so gd!!!n of coz, once i get myself back, non-stop outing.....lolz....wiv all my kaki......hahaha......
Friday night went to TS for bowling session, as usual, i broke my nails....n thanks to nic for treat us red wine......congratz for getting 1st runner up for ur logo designing ya....hahaha...

~obviously i'm lil bit drunk, after 4 of us, or i shud say 3 of us as kah yan not reli drink, finish the red wine......

The second day at KL, attended my cousin's wedding, far relatives la, i nvr c my cousin pun......no photos available, sorry......:p

Third day at KL, went out for movie 'Final Destination 4' wiv denson....n celebrate his birthday as well........opps, no photo as well, aiks, shud take one wiv him, such a memorable day....lolz.....

Well, 3 days gone like that......tml seriously need to study edi.....all the notes stack like!!!urgh!!!!hate it!!!!

2 days more gotta back to kajang again, so fast......i juz saw my parents for 1 day....they r all now in perak, left me n my bros~~~miss them so much~~~:(

N ya, before i forgot, SELAMAT HARI RAYA for those muslim, may all of u hav an unforgettable celebration wiv ur loved ones...n HAPPY HOLIDAYS for those non-muslims ya...^^ciaouzzz~~

bz like a bumblebee~~

hey guys out there, sorry for the lack update coz the owner is super bz wiv her life recently....
of coz not reli happening one.......sigh, wad u expect a uni student life would be??
well, cant runaway from tutorials n lectures class.......n the things that reli stressed me out is the ongoing mid-sem test and the PT dancing stuff....well, mid-sem is being dragged for 3 weeks which is a nighmare for me..sigh, juz let me die faster would be better.....
Then dancing also crash 99 wiv my mid-sem......sigh.......but luckily i hav mentally prepared since the day i enter the dancing.......so, so far i still can withstand de.....juz cut down my outing will do, less napping......muz fully utilised my time.....

anyhow, sometimes u'll think that bz life is gd, where u dun hav much time to think all those non-sense stuff.....

Jia you jia you~~~^^

Stay strong Brother!!!

~This pic was grabbed from nic's blog. I supposed this is the pic that he wanted to send to me juz mms problem make me cant receive any.

Brother current condition. Thank God that he managed to live thru the critical 48 hours~~somwhow he looks very weak........i heard nic said he's hardly to breath also......Sigh, all of us cant do anything, we juz can pray as hard as we can, hopefully our prayers will accompany Brother throughout his tough moments...

Brother Lawrence, God will be with u, we'll be with u, Johannians' will be with u, all our prayers will be with u.......stay strong!

emo-talk: this is life, where everyone muz go thru death.....sometimes u'll wonder y God makes us but eventually we'll leave also? Coz God wan us learn from this dynamic world which lived with all sorts of ppl......He wants us to lose our beloved, and we learn to appreciate; He wants us to fall from the peak, and we learn to become stronger; He lets us go through lots of obstacles, becoz He wants us to be learnt...God loves us, but He wont giv us wad we WANT, but He will giv us wad we NEED, to make our life complete....Be gd, coz God is walking wiv us~~

心态的调整

学会用‘心态的调整’运用在舞蹈上，为什么到现在才发现在生活里我都没运用到呢？

或许，换个方式过生活，会让自己快乐一点~

不要理所当然的可以，不要为了去做而做~

我想这样子，任何方面，都会少了一些执著吧！

*最近的情绪敏感的可以，心情晃得很厉害~我真的真的真的超级超级讨厌荷尔蒙失调！！！*

*接下来的日子，练舞，练舞，再练舞~~肌肉还没痛完隔天又要拉筋。。。不过痛得甘愿，因为我喜欢contemp。。。。什么是contemp?看看以上的照片就知道了。有人形容它是一种‘看不明白’的舞。。。要将contemp跳好，难度很高~很开心这次的PT又学了一些新东西，舞步也明显的比起去年难。。。加油，一定可以的~~舞蹈可以，生活也一定可以~

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If my doctor told me i hav only left 48 hours or less than 48 hours to live......
I may cry, as i know i'm going to leave this world in no time.....
I no longer can do things as usual in this world.....
I'll use the remaining the 48 or maybe less than 48 hours to tell ppl around me how much i love them.....
I love my parents for giving the chance to me for seeing this world...
I love my siblings and friends for accompanying throghout my life.......
I love my lover for letting me learnt in love......
I love my enemy for hurting me enuf n let me grow stronger.....
I love everything i can, i wish....
I wish to hold my breath to accomplish things i wan n i need to in order to make my life complete.

However, now God is asking me to go back to Him, i got no choice but follow....
I believe God thinks that this is the right time for me to wrap up my life....
n i do believe i hav no regret in living, coz i respect n believe in God's decision....

I'll just close my eyes, breath the last breath,
and leave with dignity......

*earth is the place where we learn n shape our attitude......after completing, we hav to move on to another dimension of world to proceed our life..........live our death~*


~i would never forgot early in the morning i saw him walking on the balcony in white with his walking stick, n whenever i pass by i'll greet :"Good morning Brother Lawrence" in a very nice accent and he will reply me in a very gd way either...
~I remember nick told me i can drop by ur room and talk to you regarding life as for a person who hav live ur life more than half a decade, ur speech definitely will inspire me, n give me more inspiration and momentum to continue my journey in my life...
~I respect ur spirit for serving St.John's all these while....i respect your nobility....
~Fide et labore, always n always.......
~ur image would nvr abolished in our hearts, all the Johannian's heart....

*Praying hard for u, Brother Lawrence.....