Actually dis time outing kinda bored n tiring....i broke my record, wearing high heels shop for hours....MAN!!!it's pain!!!well, din buy anything, wanna save money first, after stpm oni shop crazily....wakakka....
~chiling n i......took inside her car.....dis girl juz freak la, can make up anywhere...inside car, lrt oso not a problem for her....she even can make up while driving + changing cd...yes, the car is moving....driving 100+....lolz, girl....dun ever try it again next time, very dangerous....
~having lunch in secret recipe.....yummy, luv yogurt cheese a lot.......^_^...n we talked a lot too....juz wan to say, girl, u has changed a lot, reli a lot....u can play, but be careful....
~after dat, start our window shopping, lolz....i'm a poor student....was fitting some top in MNG....lolz, she is the one who trying, i oni cam-whoring...not reli in mood to do anything today...i'm so dead still....
~next shop....lolz, two posers....haha, she is finding clothes for clubbing...girl, y la so eager to becum a mature lady??enjoy ur final teenage....lolz....
~haha, my legs r weird....but she is a very great poser....lolz.....pai seh pai seh...hahha
~lolz, she keeps on persuading me to try some outfit...okok dear, i try k??haha, n dis is the result....the top juz too mature on me.....i prefer sporty wearing...we shop n shop n shop, finally she got a purple colour tube top for herself...i'm looking for sum necklace, but cant find....well, maybe next time....
~going home.....chiling while driving.....
~so faz going to leave....well, chiling, thanks for sending me home.....will miss ya a lot....
~going home.....chiling while driving.....
~so faz going to leave....well, chiling, thanks for sending me home.....will miss ya a lot....心情话：还以为生气过后就会忘记，但原来在我冷静下来后，伤心才开始攻击。。。以为今天能开开心心逛街，但逛逛下，竟然慌神。。。我确实是在想着一些事情。。。
说不伤心是骗人的，我知道我现在只是需要时间复原。。。live stronger is the only thing i can do now rather than letting myself drown....muz think positively....回到家，还是send了一封信息给他："i din mean anything, juz wan to say sorry for being rude yesterday...no need reply...."。。。我觉得，不管谁对谁错，最重要是觉得对得起自己。。。不管他说的话多难听，我觉得我还是需要道歉，因为我昨天的确很不客气跟他吵得很凶。昨天，是我活了十九年第一次被骂得遍体鳞伤，作为一个女人最大的耻辱；昨天，也是我第一次骂了这么难听的话，什么粗口都出完来，因为我真的很气。。。原来一个人很气时，真的很想骂粗口的，不顾形象那种。。。最终，我还是道歉了，想让自己好过一点。。。什么事情都要面对。。。现在，我所希望的，就是开学后，我不想听到任何关于我和他的谣言，只想说，我们没在一起过。。。我希望他知道，受伤的不止是他一个人。。。
感觉就像被人狠狠地咬了一口，伤痕依然会在，纪念曾经受过的伤害，因为毕竟那还是属于自己的故事。。。只是，你选择忘记，我选择不要想起。。。我不讨厌你，但我恨你，恨你那么不负责任。。。不过，我还是会祝福你，祝福自己。。。我会遇到比你好的，我要让自己过的比你好，因为我不想再对不起自己多一次。。。~
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也许今天特别感性吧。
看着你的心情话，之前的两篇日记，觉得很想突然哭。
我亲爱的巧颖啊，当年的你怎么了呢? 而我又，怎么了呢？
好想抱着彼此回到还没受过伤的那时候。。。
大人的世界，好复杂。。。我现在什么都不想要，我只想很平静的过生活。。。
我只想说的话是。。你们俩都变了。。俐君变得很渴望恋爱， 而巧颖变得敢做敢为。。你受的伤比任何人都多， 也恢复得比任何人更快， 可能，我们没办法看得见你内心的伤吧！因为我也不相信你能那么快就恢复了，毕竟，我们也是血肉之躯，人类为智慧之群， 都因我们有感情。。。一时三刻， 不能完全痊愈吧？
p/s:巧颖， 有时候，发泄总比藏在内心好。。毕竟， 它只不过是你生命成长中的一位路过者， 它留下的也只不过是一些些脚印，迟早也会淡却。。想象未来吧，还会有更好的男生的。。上天对我们是公平的， 别轻易下毒誓，从此不恋爱。。受过伤就会成长，成长后，眼界也会放远些，受伤过的女人， 最终都会有比任何人都美满的幸福。。 别放弃！！需要时，还有我们在！ :-)
john:of coz will sad for few days, but i muz recover asap becoz it's unworth to sad for so long due to a bastard...well, i always think positively, if not, i would not write all des in my blog....i'm a mature person(kononnya, at least mature than him more more sheng), dat's y i still apologise to him even though i know the one who very wrong is he.he still young, i forgive for his childish n innocent, he dun understand an adult world...when he finally grew up n flash back wad he had done to a girl， how he deeply hurt n fool a girl b4, then it's the pay back time...dat time he feel guilty is dia punya pasal..i edi done wad i shud do...i believe in karma...He pretend ntg happen b4, did ntg to me b4, but God know...so, 别太于执著于他，一直想他的种种不是只是在浪费着我的时间，倒不如用那些时间做别的事情。你很了解我的对吗？我一直告诉我自己，可以伤心几天，但过后一定要振作起来，地球不会因为他不要我而停止转动的。。。这次算是一次经验吧！也让我发现，男人坏起来会到什么地步，下次我就会带眼识人。没跌过倒就不晓得什么是痛，痛过后就会知道自己平安无事是最幸福的。。。我现在只想稳稳地度过2007。。。
john:还有，我发泄过了。。。delete他的号码，他的信息，哭，delete关于他的post，在blog里很没气质的骂粗口，这些算吗？哈哈！放心，我有事情是不会收在心底太久的。。。外面还有很多事情等着我做呢。。。男人，好过他的还很多，干嘛要为了一个小孩子跟自己过不去，对吗？
glad to hear that.. coz thats a deep cut.. really hope that u can recovering with a faster rate :-)
And to let u know.. guyz are all nasty, including me, i admit it, im a nasty, bastard too.. but the difference is, some guyz just have it in mind, while some guyz have it in action...
戴眼识人.. really is very important for a gal..
p/s: Guyz will never be mature unless they reached 18.. some might need 4 more years than that
haha, thanks for the 'info' u gav me...
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