~c u guys LATER~

Well, juz wan to tell all my dear readers, i'll tutup kedai for almost 2 months time.....Y???!!!!becoz stpm is cuming soon, reli reli soon.....soooo scary man!!!!! n honestly, i'm sooooo tense up for the time being...one word, PRESSURE!!!!!!!!ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So think will oni start blogging after i finish my stpm, n oso cum back from my trip, most probably.....lolz.....well, if any special events+i hav spare time, i'll blog...neway, i dun think i'll hav extra time....n my routine juz study study n study then sleep, for the time being, dun hav special events oso.....

So, c ya after 2 months.....will miss u guys a lot....miss me too wor......*blek*.....^_^....GD LUCK for myself, my frens n for those who r taking stpm n spm for year 2007....^_^

GANBATTE!!!!

Today is 19/10/2007.....i left exactly ONE MONTH to prepare for my stpm.....muz fight till the end....GANBATTE!!!!!

To all the stpm candidates, ganbatte in ur studies.....dun on9 for sooo long oooo...........^_^

Well, very longing for the life after the scary exam......Dad said will bring me to Langkawi n Penang after my exam....k, looking forward to dat.....Beach, sun-shine, cam-whore, i'm cuming!!!!!!^_^

my name says...

Well, i found dis in *sasa*'s blog.....^_^
http://www.lovepm.com/zodiac/namesays/main.shtml

Check ur name!well, i juz checked mine...n dis is wad my name says....

Sexuality is the key word for them. They are extremely sensitive and vocal in their thoughts. They are the demonstrative kind. Communicating with others is no problem for them. In fact they thrive in-group discussions. Sexuality with sensuality combined with their open nature is a deadly weapon. And you are a goner if you come across them. But no need to be afraid 'cause these extrovert are not the fanatic kind and knows how to maintain their limitation, i.e. they can put a stop to their continuous chatter. Reason being public appearance matters a lot them and they want to move in the right kind of status circle. So they'll try their level best to leave no loopholes.

~well, kinda true.....^_^....dat's me.....muahahahha!!!!

^_^

haha, mv shoot by my anata has shown officially.....music video from local female artist, phoebe, new song--触电...

lolz, so sorry din put up the link here, got no time to search still.....

well, ah moi, u reli got the model look har....u look chun in dat mv, lolz, nope, suppose u look pretty all the time, *wink*!!!!proud of u, keep it on, n chase ur dream, always support u....... muacksss!!!

touched....

有时候，朋友一封很简单的信息，都能让我感动久久。。。谢谢哦，linda....^_^
跟你认识不久，也不深，但谢谢你的鼓励。。。我们一起加油吧！^_^

.....

Was outing wiv chiling juz now....long time dun meet up wiv her edi, so sayang cindy cant join us.....well, chiling, my buddy since form 2....she has changed a lot from wearing, physical outlook, even thinking....well, everything n everyone will change as time goes.....

Actually dis time outing kinda bored n tiring....i broke my record, wearing high heels shop for hours....MAN!!!it's pain!!!well, din buy anything, wanna save money first, after stpm oni shop crazily....wakakka....

~chiling n i......took inside her car.....dis girl juz freak la, can make up anywhere...inside car, lrt oso not a problem for her....she even can make up while driving + changing cd...yes, the car is moving....driving 100+....lolz, girl....dun ever try it again next time, very dangerous....

~having lunch in secret recipe.....yummy, luv yogurt cheese a lot.......^_^...n we talked a lot too....juz wan to say, girl, u has changed a lot, reli a lot....u can play, but be careful....

~after dat, start our window shopping, lolz....i'm a poor student....was fitting some top in MNG....lolz, she is the one who trying, i oni cam-whoring...not reli in mood to do anything today...i'm so dead still....

~next shop....lolz, two posers....haha, she is finding clothes for clubbing...girl, y la so eager to becum a mature lady??enjoy ur final teenage....lolz....

~haha, my legs r weird....but she is a very great poser....lolz.....pai seh pai seh...hahha

~lolz, she keeps on persuading me to try some outfit...okok dear, i try k??haha, n dis is the result....the top juz too mature on me.....i prefer sporty wearing...

we shop n shop n shop, finally she got a purple colour tube top for herself...i'm looking for sum necklace, but cant find....well, maybe next time....

~going home.....chiling while driving.....

~so faz going to leave....well, chiling, thanks for sending me home.....will miss ya a lot....

心情话：还以为生气过后就会忘记，但原来在我冷静下来后，伤心才开始攻击。。。以为今天能开开心心逛街，但逛逛下，竟然慌神。。。我确实是在想着一些事情。。。

说不伤心是骗人的，我知道我现在只是需要时间复原。。。live stronger is the only thing i can do now rather than letting myself drown....muz think positively....回到家，还是send了一封信息给他："i din mean anything, juz wan to say sorry for being rude yesterday...no need reply...."。。。我觉得，不管谁对谁错，最重要是觉得对得起自己。。。不管他说的话多难听，我觉得我还是需要道歉，因为我昨天的确很不客气跟他吵得很凶。昨天，是我活了十九年第一次被骂得遍体鳞伤，作为一个女人最大的耻辱；昨天，也是我第一次骂了这么难听的话，什么粗口都出完来，因为我真的很气。。。原来一个人很气时，真的很想骂粗口的，不顾形象那种。。。最终，我还是道歉了，想让自己好过一点。。。什么事情都要面对。。。现在，我所希望的，就是开学后，我不想听到任何关于我和他的谣言，只想说，我们没在一起过。。。我希望他知道，受伤的不止是他一个人。。。

感觉就像被人狠狠地咬了一口，伤痕依然会在，纪念曾经受过的伤害，因为毕竟那还是属于自己的故事。。。只是，你选择忘记，我选择不要想起。。。我不讨厌你，但我恨你，恨你那么不负责任。。。不过，我还是会祝福你，祝福自己。。。我会遇到比你好的，我要让自己过的比你好，因为我不想再对不起自己多一次。。。~

Yay!!! i 'LUV' maths..........

sob sob.....who can help me????i dislike maths 2....langsung tak tau vector...die ler die ler....wad is resultant force?resultant velocity?relative velocity????omg!!!!wad the F**K is dat!!!!!!!!!langsung tak faham.........sobbing.........i hate vector, even geometry deduction!!!!!who can help me?????haih, but as i c, at this critical moment, i'm the only one who can help myself...means wad?do more exercise lor..........isshhhhh, hate it hate it....how can i persuade myself like dis way:"ooo, maths, i luv u, luv u soooo much, muz luv me too k??", wad a stupid way it is......well, exercise still need to do wad, no point complaining it....well, i juz wan to 'fa xie'...

So sleepyyyy..

Yesterday yam cha wiv shiuan, sean n chai till 2am....gosh, long itme nvr 'yam' till so late edi....actually 10 sumthing wanna sleep oredi, suddenly chai's msg came n juz okla, join them 'yam cha' since i promised him bring him to 'naili's place' which near my place coz the environment there very nice, for me la....

well, was talking lots of stuff wiv them n laugh a lot....but, sob sob, actually chai asked yi ching out as well, but dunno y she cant cum, so sad....long time din meet up wiv her edi, seriously miss her sooooo much.....:(.....maybe in conjuction wiv raya, so naili's place close at 1am instead of usual time 2.30am, so we left n go for second round, which is in sentul oso, but juz for a while then bla edi....lolz, i cannot tahan edi....

N now, i'm soooo sleeppyyyy.....later gonna go for tuition summore....maths arrrr!!!!!!after that, will eat again wiv frens...haha, sure got lots of things to talk later.....haha, k la, gonna be prepared edi.....urgh!!!i juz hate it.....wanna stay at home instead of going out......:(

holidayz.....but ntg to happy bout it...

sigh, holidays again....weird rite?for a student, i supposed to be happy as i need not wake up early to go to school....but for me dat means time passes so faz....i dunwan sit for exam but i wan the life after exam.....of coz cannot i know, so i still need to study hard+smart(hopefully) for the exam....i hate my life for being so bored for the time being...i hate myself for not doing the thing dat i actually like....sigh, wad to do, dis is another kind of life when u cant manipulate it, so i oni can endure the hardship that i had finally chose......it's not a fate actually n honestly....juz i dunno how to enjoy my life...wad a sad story....

however, i'm doing sumthing rite now where the result oni will be showed next year....hahha.....~renovating myself~....i know it's rather odd to use 'renovate' on a human being, but so far dis is the most suitable word i found, to describe my current situation....lolz, hopefully will success ya.....n glad to say dat, i've got strong determinationin in doing dis coz i luv it, enjoy it n proud of the result, erm, i mean soon....haha.... wad i need juz time...n money....hahhaha.....wait n c ya.....^_^.......cy.Low will reborn thoroughly....NEXT YEAR!!!!hahahha.....am i thinking too far?now oni october.....lolz, nope, i MUZ get it done by next year, so i muz on the timing now....

kkk, 'bite my teeth tightly'(lolz, direct translate from mandarin, juz ignore it if u cant understand, doesn't matter) to live thorughout my october, nov n early of dec, then i reli can fly edi.....can u c my body is growing feathers?lolz..jk, i was a physics student k, bird can fly isn't due to its feather, but is due to their body shape which apply the bernoulli principle rite?haha, luckily i still remember....hopefully it's correct.......:P

Well, i would still like to take dis opportunity to wish all the muslims 'selamat hari raya aidilfitri', if there is any malays reading my blog....n to all the students, happy holidays...for all the spm n stpm candidates, happy holidays n study hard+smart during the holidays.....n for those who dun hav holidays, stay happy always, enjoy ur life, dun be like me, so dead, k??haha, k la, better stop crapping.......take k everybody......^_^...hav a nice day ya.........:p

累。。。

~不曾干净过的书桌。。。
觉得自己快变超人了。。。现在的生活routine就是早上五点多爬起来，去学校，两点这样子回到家，休息一下，三点多开始温习功课，读书到晚上十一点。。。很变态对吗？当然没有non-stop，读两个小时，休息一个小时，不然就睡个半小时。。。然后十一点多十二点才睡，等待明天的到来。。。这就是我现在的生活，星期六星期日除外，都会睡迟一点。。。

觉得生活还可以做更多事情，只是看自己愿不愿意牺牲。。。但现在是关键时刻，真的不能松懈下来。。。说真的，为了stpm，我真的牺牲不少。。。牺牲我回乡下的时间，牺牲见朋友的时间，牺牲想做自己喜欢的东西的时间。。。

之前说过，考完试过后要学跳舞，我也在怀疑，真的做到吗？怕自己做工后又没时间。。。这样的话，多久后才会有？也许自己的time management出了问题吧！

人生，除了无奈，还是无奈，很多时候，自己走的路，都不是为了自己而走，是为了世界而走，但却忘了，世界并不会因为自己而停下来。。。

你们知道吗？我比较喜欢以前的自己。。。以前那个比较有感觉的自己。。。现在的感觉都不翼而飞了。。。拥有得多，又怎样？都不充实。。。其实这种感觉一直都在，只是现在也比较无所谓，因为习惯了。。。‘习惯’，一个可怕的名词，它会让你忘了做一样事情的最初原因。。。

这种忙碌的生活不能持续下去，再这样下去，真的会变行尸走肉般。。。很庆幸自己还剩大约一个月的时间，然后一定要彻底地改变自己，physically as well as mentally。。。

想过个比较简单的生活。。。其实做个单细胞生物也挺不错的。。。我懒嘛，懒得思考，懒得动，懒得想。。。外面的事情，不想理太多，因为有时连自己的都不是很想理了。。。