Saturday, June 28, 2008

bangi orientation week~

Well, will off to bangi for one week for the orientation week.....wont be on9 for about one week or even more than one week...

A lil bit upset when the person who sending u der isnt ur family....:(

blue blue~

Juz received kah mun's msg: THINKING BACK ON OUR MEMORIES. EVERYTHING THAT WE'VE DONE TOGETHER. ALL THE LAUGHTERS AND CRIES. ALL THE JOYS AND PAINS. IT'S LIKE JUZ YESTERDAY. THE DAY WENT BY TOO FAST. I REALLY MISS THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER. ALL THESE ARE OUR SWEET MEMORIES! MY DEAR FREN, MUST TAKE CARE OH! FRIENDSHIP 4EVER...

I dunno how to describe the feel now.....juz now Geo called, i told him my current mood neither happy nor sad...juz very blue...start from tml, my life would change....am i thinking too much? Y am i so emotion today....

My life has entered to another new phase.....learning how to accept every new things that will soon appear in my life....

Life circle juz like the metamorphosis, before entering the next phase to a better person, we muz go thru all the hardship, experience the pain.....

I'll be missing every single moment wiv my girls, my SJI gang, my yam cha gang n frens.....

Friday, June 27, 2008

压力~

汽油涨价了,什么东西都跟着涨。

爸爸刚刚在放话,说他手头很紧,要我开学后继续做工,自己赚pocket money,不会再support我一分一毫了。刚刚拿到的1.5k明天要按出来还给他,因为yuran pendaftaran的rm1410是他帮我缴的。现在连我的手头都紧了。弟弟的pocket money也被cut了,看来遭殃的不止我一个。

还以为开学后要努力读个first class honour出来,搏个奖学金出国读,怎么说forensic science在外国还是比较吃香的。现在想起自己未来的生活都有点恐怖了。连主任都叫我辞工,要我专心读书,现在怎么办?

其实满伤感的。爸爸会要我们省,为什么之前他自己都不会省?尤其是他那两车!!!!!!他那辆hyundai coupe一个月的供期就是我读大学一年的学费,是一年的学费。我不是夸张哦!我看过他开给银行的支票。每次想到学费,我就想到他的车。

都不懂这篇post要怎么写下去了。。。自己也是很压力的。。。

要学会苦中作乐~

ji mui~

~hong ting, me n kah mun...three of us will pursue our studies in public uni...ting will go utm for something hartanah, i'll go ukm for forensic science, kah mun will go um for economy...^^break both legs girls!!^^


~dis is my gang, my 'ji mui bong' during titiwangsa girl school. Joo Eey was correct, we r getting closer n closer each gathering.....^^
I LUV U GIRLS~~~~~^^

Thursday, June 26, 2008

happy outing~^^

Today considered out for whole day edi....

Afternoon out wiv jia wen senior...play two games of pool, wiv my sux skill....well, he still taught me something at least.....n i do learnt it, better abit la...haha..then we went for movie, watched 'long khong2'....er....actually the movie reli so so lo...story some kind like seek revenge, n the moral value is, karmic cycle is stop by our own.so we muz generous...dat's the conclusion i got la....

After dat, i'm waiting for 8pm, coz second round wiv my fren, kakaka....long time din meet up wiv him edi....dis one lagi gila, we two hav played 9 GAMES of pool...n he reli taught me a lot, the angle, how to hold correctly, n a lot, n i reli improved a lot...last time used about 30 minutes to finish a game. Now, hehe, 20 minutes can le....kakka....so happy....so addicted to pool now...next time wanna challenge snooker, coz my fren said snooker harder as the table bigger by the time the ball smaller....

Finished 9 GAMES of pool finally....then we went to 'wings' restaurant yam cha....n listen to the singer....Today's singers not bad, the girl is very gd, the male guitarist is very gd in guitar....reli can make the atmosphere high lo..gd part i would like to say....

Well, today cant cook movie le as it's quite late now....tml will update more about my gathering wiv my secondary ji mui....^^

Gd nitez readers~

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

出走

心情很是沉重,
虽然没有要去很远很远的地方,
但是,
想起自己又必须开始接受新的生活方式,
或许,会不习惯,
或许,会不喜欢,
但,我还是要接受,还得去适应它。

你们知道吗?
生活,难在‘重新适应’,
当‘现在’已成了习惯,生活开始慢慢定型时,
最压力不过的,就是reformat everything。。。

希望我不会后悔,我也不能后悔,
决定了进修‘法证’这科,
就要做到底。。。
证明给当初不明白为什么我会选这科的人看,
冷门的科系还是能出人头地的。。。

其实,我知道爸爸妈妈很担心以后我会找不到吃,
他们弄到我也觉得我好像会穷苦潦倒的感觉,
不懂,其实自己也很乱。。。
我不喜欢热门的科系,因为感觉要斗得很够力才会被spot light照到,
我比较喜欢静静的地方,我才能专心的发挥。。。

Monday, June 23, 2008

yay!!settle some finally~

wow, yesterday 'cook phone porridge' till 3.00am!!!!!OMG, LCY, NVR EVER DO IT AGAIN OK???BAD FOR HEALTH!!!!

Then today woke up at about 12pm!gosh!!!!!actually dis morning wanna go gh to do my medical check up, but dunno wad time i received lai mei's call. she said, for gh, earliest oso 8 of july oni can get the report.....so after i knew dat, i sleep back again, i know it's not a point for me to go gh anymore, coz i dun like to settle thing in dis way, where finish some, left some, so x organized.

Finally, i'm willing to wake up from my cosy bed, felt some kind of heaty...maybe sleep late yesterday night...then i called lai mei ask about the medical things again. she intro me to go to DAMAI SERVICE HOSPITAL, where u can get ur report instantly in roughly 2 hours time, n it only cost u about rm68++, quite cheap actually......so i decided to go der for my medical check up...

After finish my the medical check up, i went to chow kit....for wad?peep ah gua??@#$%^*&#....lolz, is for my baju kurung.......i hav survey two lorong...oh man!!!i dun like the corak lar~seriosuly, all wiv COLOURFUL flower printing, it juz makes me look 10 years older after i wear it.....if kebaya i might can accept lar, but baju kurung wei~no offence kay?juz dat i reli cant accept the COLOURFUL PRINTING lo~~~

Actually my mom who is the one choosing all the way coz I RELI GOT NO IDEA WIV BAJU KURUNG, TO BE SPECIFIC, IS BLUE COLOUR BAJU KURUNG.....i found wad i like, but it's not blue....sigh~~~she said:"c.ying, dis one not bad hor~", "ermm...yaya, aiks, i dunno la, WO BU ZHI DAO WO BU ZHI DAO~"

Finally we bought two sets...n it edi cost me about rm90++......urgh!!!!can u c my purse is bleeding????



~my medical report....my x-ray film n report on my urine test......hehe, in a nut shell, i'm a healthy girl....*wink*


~the baju kurung dat i hav bought...dis one cost me rm50 after bargain wiv the seller....hehhe...
b4 discount is rm80 leh....

~dis one after bargain=rm36, before is rm50 leh....MOMMY, U RELI GENG AR~~~
One more thing, my face start itchy le....coz the air in chow kit is so polluted, all the buses.....MY GOD!!!can u imagine dat i'll study der for 4 years??!!!but luckily my hostel so near with titiwangsa lake...i can go jogging early in the morning to gasp more fresh air...hehe...then muz convince my dad to let me stay in hostel for the first year....^^
OK, today quite happy coz finally i hav settle 2 things....so tml will back to school to certified my documents, then go to bank to open account n make the payment....then complete the form n pack....hahha.......i'm done wiv everyhting then...so happy~^^


outing wiv cat~meow!

Ok, got my offer letter finally....n that's the time i start hunting for the things i wan n settle all the stuff asap...

First of all, i hav taken ic size n passport size's photos near my house....man, i'm sooo unsatisfied wiv the outcome...so i took again the next day at nic's shop....his mommy very nice n very pro..^^dis time seriosuly very satisfied wiv it....credit to u, chai^^~thanks oooo~


So after i took the photos near my house, (so bloody annoyed dat time due to the photo, I WASNT READY LO, I HAV BLINKED MY EYES LO!!dunno y the uncle think dat photo is ok but by the time i seriously look VERY VERY VERY BLURRRRRR~)i rush to klcc to find nancy n buy something from her....hehe, n i 'A' quite lots of gift, kakkaka....thanks nancy jie, luv u, muacksss~^^

After finish my things at klcc, i rush to times square to meet up wiv Cat, she janji me accompany me shopping before i enter uni. So, dat day, i actually hunt for sneakers.....n window shopping for some cloths n accesories......haha, i can go ts anytime, so need not so hurry to buy it....:p


~treat Cat some ice cream, thanks to her coz stpm dis year, still willing to spend her time teman me shopping, so appreciate~~~^^


~cat n i.....cam-whore session start, hahahha~


~again we two....study hard ooo!always blessing u^^


~kuso look....



~she's sooo cute, hahaha......




~dis is the sneakers i bought dat day....cost me rm39.90, from B.U.M equipment...reasonable price.....the colour is sooo sharp....hahah....actually leh, once lady start wearing high heels, they dun think sneakers is nice anymore....if not due to my uni life, i dun think i will buy it lo....n seriously i reli look for so long, n finally i spot dis, hehehe.....



~bought the big one, get all the small one.....actually still got more de....*evil grin*
dat's all for today, a big thanks to cat~*huggies*^^






Friday, June 20, 2008

:(

Met winnie today, she was visiting me after she knew i was working, so happy....nice to meet u girl, i know u r reading, muacksss~

But another thing dat make me so sad is, till today she still care about it?both of us weren't wrong dat time, everything juz misunderstanding, y she still keep in her mind? dun even contact me after graduated, not even pay a visit when she came to klcc, we knew each other for 7 years, n get closer for 2 years lo, our friendship so not worth it due to her personal junior?y she juz keeps on showing me her childish attitude?she makes me so sad...:(

Laz year asked u wad had happen, u refused to tell me...i try my best to talk to u, but everytime u juz answer me my 'particular' question then keep silent. i edi tried my best to rescue our frenship, but u nvr giv it a chance, not even one. last time we used to break together, line up together, walk together, but after the incident, no more, u left me all ALONE!!!!:(

our friendship so not worth it for a small matter~:(

I'M COMING!!!

I'll soon start my uni life le, dunno shud happy or sad...well, actually i more to happy de....starting a new life is always encouraging, fresh n challenging. Haha, i luv challenging, dat's y i chose forensic science...^^
However, i know i'll be enjoy my uni life, but not campus life....my campus is soo small, oni got 3 faculties in....:(

well, let me think wad shud i do before i start my uni life:
~get a pair of sneakers....
~'top up' my skin k....
~maybe will get a bag, maybe....
~renew my popular card n buy some stationary...
~wait for the letter, settle everything asap...

hehe, then start my uni life wiv a brand new resolution:
~enjoy while study...
~continue learning yoga, maybe same place, maybe change to genting klang, c first...
~continue clubbing...dis coming july(june n early of july definitely got no time for me to do so), haha, wiv my anata...ooo anata, miss u so much here.....thank GOD that i still here, din go far...

hmm....i think dat's all......^^

UKM, I"M COMING!!!!!!^^

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

果然是晴天霹雳~

成绩放榜了,有人欢喜有人愁!
我本来真的很欢喜的咯,因为拿到自己想要得。
过后有少少愁了。
今天上网check了campus所在,原来我的科系是under kesihatan bersekutu。而那campus所在竟然在哪里你们懂吗?在chow kit!!!!!
真的是晴天霹雳!!!以为会去到bangi,远一点,然后开始新的生活,听说总校还有游泳池呢,又够偏僻,完全远离城市的烦嚣。
哪里知道!哪里知道!是在分校,真的和我在SJI读没有分别咯。现在只能在titiwangsa湖游泳咯,instead of游泳池。。。=.=
是啦,虽然我是说不要去到太远如sabah sarawak,可是chow kit,未免也太近了吧!
哎,算了吧!不要complaint太多,因为上帝真的很眷顾我,我应该懂得感恩才对。
往另一方面想,周末我还可以回klcc做回我的beauty advisor,回家是超级方便的,晚上还可以看ah gua,得空还可以跟朋友去clubbing。。。
知足者常乐!^^self-comforting.....今天就是super zadao就对了~

yippie!!!i got wad i wan!!!^^

佩珊突然在msn copy了一个url给我,是查去年的stpm考生得到的大学及科系。
那时候的心脏真的快要跳出来了,手不停发抖,真的很紧张的。。。
输入了自己的身份证号码,category还有angka giliran,按了masuk〉〉〉〉

TAHNIAH ! Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program seperti di bawah :

NAMA PROGRAM : SAINS FORENSIK

IPTA : UNIVERSITI KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA (UKM)

我喊了一声,跑下楼告诉爸爸妈咪这个消息。没拿到medical是有点失望啦,毕竟家人都希望我能读医生之类的,那种比较有前途+钱途的科系,但我知道我不会开心吧,而且又会很压力的。
forensic science一直是我要读的,而且还在ukm, super开心的,因为ukm比较著重在practical,比起usm(全马只有这两间uni offer这个course)。
公公婆婆听到后反倒没有怎样开心,因为他们都要我读牙医:(
生日愿望有实现哦!^^

#My wishes:
*i wish all the ppl around me(those who luv me n those i luv) will happy n stay healthy always...
*i wish i can get gd result in my stpm n enter u+getting the course i wan....(lolz, still hav 4 more papers to go, i hav to study harder if wan to achieve gd result...)#
(copy from my previous post)

今晚能安安稳稳地睡上一觉了。^^

nervous~

现在的心情,是紧张的。。。还有两个小时,我就会知道我的下一个去向了。
我问妈妈:"咪,你紧张吗?","当然紧张啦!"
是的,我也很紧张。。。

Monday, June 16, 2008

gd luck everyone~

Everybody is telling me the result will be out on dis coming wednesday...
i'm so nervous about it. Eventhough i know i cant change the fact as it's not my turn to decide where i'll go, which uni i'm going to enter n which course i'm going to study, eversince i hav chose to enter public uni, but i still very concern about everything....
I'm eager to know about everything, eager to know where will be my next destination.
Uni life would be another brand new life for me..no doubt...
But dis time will be much more different, as start from july, every morning when i wake up, i wouldn't c my messy room, my lovely parents n my naughty brothers. kinda cant used to it whenever i think of it...
so regret y i chose sabah sarawak dat time, i'm sooooo regret for dat......tooooo far!!!
two more days to go, counting on.....
Gd luck everyone~

Sunday, June 15, 2008

pain~

Woke up early in this lovely morning...went money's house for yoga.i hav 'abandoned' my yoga for two weeks edi......n wad has happen, i hurt my back when warming up....now still pain....:'(
sigh, reli old edi.....:(

Friday, June 13, 2008

当爱情死了。。。

太多太多不完美,不正常,不被接受的关系出现身旁,
我问为什么自己生活的圈子这么不单纯?
他说,是我自己把它变得不单纯。。。

为什么让自己不再相信爱情的人,是当时自己最深爱的人?

亲吻那一刻,泪落下那一刻,
多爱都不是爱了,多疼都不觉疼了。。。
因为,
当爱情死了,
什么不是了。。。

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

medicine



Juz came back from clinic....I hav consulted doctor bout my situation...n these r wad he gav me.. n i hav 'google' all the medicince he gav me....i miss bio n chem...:(



a)centrimide 2% lotion:

Cetrimide is a quaternary ammonium compound.
Spectrum of action: bactericidal activity against gram-positive bacteria, fungi and protozoa. It is not effective against gram negative bacteria, spores, viruses and mycobacteria.
It is a cationic surface-active agent. It is a mild keratolytic agent as well as being an antiseptic. antiseptic action is due to denaturation of proteins as well as causing cell membrane damage.

dis lotion i use to wash face to reduce the pimples. mention the last sentence? it's use to dry out the membrane of the acne thus causing it to peel off. the pus of our acne is a type of protein indeed. well, from the point of view in beauty, dis product will cause my skin to dry out...



b)calamine lotion (commonly use in skin disorder)


Calamine is a mixture of zinc oxide (ZnO) with about 0.5% iron(III) oxide (Fe2O3). It is the main ingredient in calamine lotion and is used as an antipruritic (anti-itching agent) to treat mild pruritic conditions such as sunburn, eczema, rashes, poison ivy, chickenpox, insect bites and stings.It is also used as a mild antiseptic to prevent infections that can be caused by scratching the affected area, and an astringent to dry weeping or oozing blisters and acne abscesses.

c)chlorpheniramine maleate

Chlorpheniramine is an antihistamine used to relieve symptoms of allergy, hay fever, and the common cold. These symptoms include rash, watery eyes, itchy eyes/nose/throat/skin, cough, runny nose, and sneezing.
This medication works by blocking a certain natural substance (histamine) that your body makes during an allergic reaction. By blocking another natural substance made by your body (acetylcholine), it helps dry up some body fluids to relieve symptoms such as watery eyes and runny nose.

d)prolase

unable to find any about this. wad i know about prolase is that it's a type of enzyme, dat's all. but i dunno y it uses to reduce the swellness occured...question mark?!!

*look!i miss chemistry n biology...i wanna study back....cant wait for the uni to reopen!!!hopefully i can get the course i wan...finger-crossing.

*feeling sleepy now after i consumed the chlorpheniramine maleate....so fast it reacts wiv my body...well well, hav a nap first...^^





Tuesday, June 10, 2008

suffer!!!!!

today woke up at 3am.....y??!!my face n my hand itchy till i wake up.....reli cant stop garu u know!!!i know it's not gd to garu, but i juz cant stop myself from doing dat coz very very very itchy!!!

Then i got my avene thermal water spray n spray it on my face to sooth it.....i sprayed for twice but the itchyness seems like nvr get reduces......so i woke my mommy up n ask her where is the medicine.i took one n sooner the effect start attacking me wer i feel very sleepy n sleep till very deep.....then wake up at 10am, i think i'm late for work coz i hav to enter my shift b4 12pm....so i sms chloe n nancy tell them dat i'll take off today as i hav took medicine, very very tired...then i sleep till twelve something only wake up...

Well, later will go for doctor to get some more medicine....urgh!!!!!!i hate it, itchy at face, so damn suffer!!!!

another horrible thing...my face has swollen for two days edi....swell till like pig head, especially in the morning..yesterday langsung tak berani make up any on my pity face, even eyes n lip.n i hav put on my spec to cover my swollen eyes.. sob sob.....

Monday, June 09, 2008

我不想

望着墙上的钟
时间不停转动
已经过多久
说再联络都没联络
我很好奇你是否偶尔会想我
如果能习惯面对寂寞
我就不会那么的执着
还不停等候

我不想
再想你的笑容
我会痛
懂不懂
我的心
在跳动
喊着说它要自由
我不想
再想你的温柔
多温柔
也不属于我
时间会帮助我
换一个梦

望着墙上的钟
忘记一段伤痛
究竟要多久
我想我们最大的错
就是相遇那一刻
不擦肩而过
如果早知道眺望天空
我就不会那么的软弱
躲藏在角落

不想再想太多
不回头
不想再去追究
错过就错过ha~
我不想
不想再等候
我的心渴望自由
我不想
不想你会懂
天空辽阔
我还有我

*有谁知道,这一切都不是我想的。。。
歌词内容,与现在的心情100%吻合。。。
我不想再想你,我会痛,懂不懂。。。*

=.=

opsss!!!wad happen to my face, itchy for few days edi.....so suffer!!!!!=.=

Sunday, June 08, 2008

满足感

今天很有满足感哦!
帮两位customer上底妆,看到他们频频点头,微笑的样子,其实心里头真的很高兴。
这种满足感真的很难找。
工作这么久以来,觉得最充实就是今天。
虽然工钱不算多,但由于化妆室我的兴趣,我留下来了。
能在自己兴趣的范围工作就不管那么多了。
如果有一天能像那些著名化妆师一样,我觉得我的career真的是perfect了。
但是我知道,‘perfect’存在的几率就相等于找到四叶草的几率一样低,所以我已经有心理准备接受这一行会面对的挑战,以及接受它的不完美。。。(如果毕业后有机会晋身这行的话)
其实其实,真的很希望能在cosmetic line发光发热,但我知道是时间问题,还有家庭问题,妈妈总是要我把书读好,美容这行放在last choice。
一直以来有一个念头,除了卖cosmetics,最重要是要让customer记住帮他们化过妆的Melody。
这一生中,真的,化妆以及唱歌是我不会放弃的事情。。。
得到肯定比开大单还要爽!!!
做自己喜欢的东西=满足感的来源。。。^^

Saturday, June 07, 2008

she is lost inside...

she is lost inside.......
again,
she's lost.....

why??


为什么每一次都是这样子?
为什么每一次都这么空虚?
然后都是自己一个人面对?
为什么每次都要自欺欺人?
为什么我永远就只能扮演着配角?
说难听一点,
我只是个替代品...

Thursday, June 05, 2008

很累很累

不知道,今天就是很累很累。。。
七早八早就被cosmetic和fragrance department的exe骂,还在customer面前给我难看。。。:(。
美好的早晨就这样被她spoil了。。。
下午还好,和sunnie还有david break。。。
放工后和sunnie还有shiuan逛逛。。。开了大单,请他们吃一顿secret recipe。。。^^
头疼疼的。。。
不知道,今天就是很累很累。。。

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

~WINNER OF THE NIGHT~

okok, chai, dis is the article i owe u....now i pay back....hahaha.....



Forgot which day we hang out as usual like we're still in our form 6 school life...planned to play pool at the late night after our yam cha session....somehow we end up playing lame games instead of go pool-ing....=.=....yer~I WANNA PLAY POOL~~~~~~

we went station one near times square while waiting for sean to come...played CHOR DAI DEE... our muz play game to spend our time...lolz...

After that our lame story begin......sien of playing CHOR DAI DEE, so we play an easier game, no need use our brain to think, juz use hand to choose card randomly to compare the points....so it depends on our luck....so, who is our luckiest winner for that nite??TADAAAA>>>>>>>>MR.CHAI...hahhaha.........proud la u!!!:p

~compare who get the smallest point, here goes the winner!!!!^^


~compare the biggest point, again mr.chai becum our winner....
So lucky huh dude!!lolz....:p
kaka, finished my expired post!!~winner of the nite~

Monday, June 02, 2008

=.=

~hehe, my masterpiece for nancy, nice?...well, she is now having vacation at thailand...enjoy ur trip girl...^^

~my masterpiece for sheila....juz know dis girl yesterday...haha, trimmed her eyebrow as well...^^


~after finish working, chiling came to fetch me for yam cha, at mcd...lolz, funny!well, both of us hav learnt a new thing today, kaka...but dunwan tell here, secret~:p




~again n again........ishhh!anyone know how make my face slim down besides slapping my ownself??




~aiyak, anata, y u suddenly pull back?



~dis is mine. ya, i hav removed all my nail colour including my foot one...coz wanna let them rest for few days, then apply again...hehe...:)


~ya, i hav cut my hair too............no idea wad the hair style call....will take pic maybe after one week.coz after one week i supposed the hair style will look nicer?hahaha, self-comfort...