i'm a survivor instead of a life maker~

Now is 2.05 a.m., and i still unable to get my ass out from the chair and get a very gd night sleep. Maybe used to this very unhealthy schedule where rush my assignments in this so damn early morning, not even dawn~~my health turn worse seriously, look so chan physically~~

Now is 2.08a.m., i'm still doing PA lab report plus scratching my itchy skin due to the mosquitoes bite while chating wiv one of my fren.....found that i got some psychology problem......i seem like lost the passionate of living....if u ask me wad's the purpose i live?i'll answer i dunno....so i doubt, y GOD makes us, then eventually HE still will bring us back to his side? Then wad's the purpose of living for years?Then my lil bro said:'coz God wanna determine whether the someone is entering heaven or hell...', wad a lovely answer.....i thought ppl who believe in GOD will enter heaven? if things is as simple as like this izzit gd?can someone who view this blog kindly drop ur comment bout this issues?i need pedomen so badly, desperately~~~

finally i can understand the diff of 'survive' and 'live'...

Find someone that can teach me how to 'live' my life to the fullest, but 'survive' in this world to the endless...

PLZZZZ~~~i'm just 21....*should i use 'just'*, i thought my life has juz started?but y it stucked here???

And now the clock hit 2.20a.m., i think i reli shud go n wash my face n get myself to sleep or else tml all the pimples will erupt like volcano on my face.......


*emo-talk: to all my dear frens, plz dun treat me that gd.....it's not worth to treat a ppl who love to be alone so gd, i'll feel that i owe u guys too much....maybe i'm still not used to the lifestyle currently.....:'(.....yes, i'm bloody emo today, dun ask me y, coz me myself not even know the answer..:'(*

now is 2.24 a.m.....urgh, i hate insomnia seriously....

伤心

今早本来不怎么错的心情因为几个某人，而搞到乱七八糟。。。心顿时觉得被叉了三刀~最糟还是那个‘视而不见’的状况。。。有需要吗？然后整个下午也就没有很多话，因为都不想讲话了。不懂，觉得距离好像越来越大。。。不懂，还是大姨妈要来了，难免会过敏一点的~然后就开始头疼，躲在房里睡到晚餐时间，过后又跑去练舞了。



发现，做自己喜欢的事情会让心情好起来。。。过后几位朋友在练习钢琴，我也去八了一下。最后，还和lynn part了几首歌。她弹琴，我唱歌。只能说，她真的太厉害了，听了我唱几句就可以把我的key找出来，和她jam真的很爽~好久都没唱得那么过瘾了。朋友也许不知道，我不喜欢唱k，但我喜欢jam。就是旁边有人帮你伴奏。那种形成的火花, reaction是很vigrous的。早上本来很烂的心情也慢慢ok了点~下次一定要和她jam过，要完成我们的'how do i live'....



好想念felix噢~~我们最后一次jam是几时了？好像是2007年的月光晚会吧。当晚唱了jane,晴天~~哈哈，很怀念叻~~

bz bz bz~~~

bz since i start my mid-sem...so many things to be done in this 2 weeks~~~~
urgh~~~

n finger cross dat we manage to get the house in tmn tenaga which 9 of us like it so much~~yaya, i'm moving to kajang, tmn tenaga instead of bangi, fasa 3...IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL LA~~~

hectic life

mid sem test has started officially, n due to the cacat exam time table at bangi, my mid sem is dragged till early march....however, in between the exam period, i still hav to rush several assignments like nobody business.......so scary once think of it!!!!!!!!!!!



N ppl, i'll move to BANGI this june or july, n will spend the rest of my 3 years there.......sob sob....eventhough kl is quite near from bangi, but still, sigh.....quite leceh if wanna go home~~~



Well, is a gd experience though where we plan it all together, the 9 forensics heroes...now is still looking for house....this friday will go to c our first choice, might be the last choice i think...if yes, it would be our new house in bangi fasa 3~~~

~~lonely valentine~~

happy valentine's day everyone~~~

i know this special occasion means a lot to some of you regradless u r attached, single or watever...haha, well, for me...i got no comments about this....juz another day which date is 14/2 for me...i bet outside there must be crowded wiv all the so-in-love couple, and maybe one bunch of frens who celebrate together....think i'm gonna miss this special date once again as i not reli got the mood to go out...

spend it with myself is a gd way i think so~~

AGAIN, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE OF U~~~MUACKSS MUACKSS~^^


*lonely valentine, but still i'm happy with it, ^^*

keanu reeves~~~

I know i was kinda out-dated to post this.....

yesterday was watching 'constantine', a movie few years back, ya, yesterday only i watched it, thanks to my bro~~or else i would nvr hav watched it....

Keanu reeves is soooo handsome n man!!!no doubt when a man has reached certain age, the became mature, steady n sooo attractive....time do make a ppl change...so much~~



~keanu reeves in 'constantine'......

~a guy wiv mustache makes them look soooo 'MAN'~~~~

so sorry coz all the photos r very small in size, isnt clear at all......well, juz download any of his movie, matrix or constantine n hav a clear look.....'constantine' is reli a nice movie besides starring by a handsome man...i would call him 'man' rather than guy....back to the movie, the story line is gd, wiv nice visual effect and quite-not-bad eng, besides 'SOME' unpleasant words like 'asshole', n some others, couldnt remember..others quite gd indeed....

Well, juz cum up here to crap something that make up my day, besides buried under all the assignments n cuming soon mid-sem....urgh~~~

add oil to all my frens who is going to sit for the mid-sem exam...^^

randomly~~some meaningful pieces from my lecture notes~~~yea, u're right, lecture notes~~

Was trying to complete my assignment in malay...however, when i flip thru the notes, i found some interesting pieces within it...so blog here so dat can share wiv everybody~~
well, the subject related is 'pengurusan emosi', haha....

It's reli meaningful~~hopefully u guys able to get the hidden meaning from it...^^

Strength of a man
~strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders, it's seen in the width of his arms that circle you.
~strength of a man isn't how many women he's loved. It's in can be had be true to a woman.
~strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work. It's in how respected he is at home.

Ultimate measure
~The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands during challenge and controversy.(Martin Luther King, Jr, 1929-1968)

The beauty of a woman
~The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figures she carries.
~The beauty of a woman must be seen for in her eyes. Because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love insides.
~It's the caring the she lovingly gives. The passion that she loves.

Money money money
~money can buy you a bed but not a sleep.
~money can buy you books but not knowledge.
~money can buy you food but not appetite.
~money can buy you clothes but not sense.
~money can buy you a house but not home.
~money can buy medicine but not health.
~money can buy you luxuries but not happiness.
~When character is lost then everything is lost. But, when money is lost, not everything is lost.
~Money can buy you.

When you are old...
~The day that you see me old, and i'm already not, have patience and try to understand me.
~If i get dirty when eating, if i cannot dress...have patience, remember the hours when i spent teaching it to you.
~If, when i speak to you, i repeat the same things thousand of times, do not interrupt me, and listen to me...when you were...when i do not want to...
~When you see me ignorance on new technologies, give me the necessary time and not look at me with your mocking smile.
~I taught you how to do so many things, to eat good, to dress well, to confront life...when at some moment, I lose my memory or the thread of our conversation...let me have the necessary time to remember...and if i cannot do it, do not become nervous...as the most important thing is not my conversation but surely to be with you and to have you listening to me...
~And when my tired legs not allow me to walk, give me your hand, the same way i did when you gave me your first step.
~And when someday, when i say to you that i do not want to live anymore, that i want to die, do not get angry, someday you will understand.
~Try to understand that my age i not lived but survived.





ok~~~get back to my assignments!!!!!!!i'm buried under assignments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
N hate it soooooo much when u got a terrible teammate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!