为什么~

为什么我都不知道他在想什么?
隔了半年的感觉又回来了~
不确定的感觉一点都不好，
我可不可以不要。
喜欢一个人能不能不需要顾虑这样多~

看着一炉米的部落格，
最新那一封帖子，
#在人生最单纯的那时候找到你#
好有感触。

这几天突然回想起以前的生活，
在我人生还单纯的时候，遇到了不单纯的男孩，
给了我一个难忘，不堪回首的过去，
也许是自暴自弃吧，
生活开始变得有点糟！
直到上大学，才好一点点~

有时在想，
如果没有那段过去，
现在的我会不会过得好一点?
如果没有那段过去，
今天幸福会不会离我近一点?
果然，还忘不了。。。。

东西其实很简单，
但为什么在我身上却变得这么难?
希望今年的生日愿望不要再和去年一样了~

心情话:我在人生还很单纯的时候，错过了很多东西，觉得很难用二十一岁的岁月去弥补了吧！

爱情与婚姻

什么是爱情?
爱情就是当一个人吩咐你进森林走一趟，然后将沿途最美的花朵采下来，采了就不能换，且不许回头。但到最后你却空手出来。那个人问你怎么了，你说:"每当看到一朵很美的花朵时，我会想采，但深怕前方还有更美的，所以也就放弃了。走到了最后，才发觉我已经错过了那朵最美的。所以，什么都没得到。"
这，就是爱情，错过比得到多~

那，什么是婚姻?
婚姻就是当一个人吩咐你进森林一趟，然后将沿途最肥壮的树砍下来，砍了就不许再换，一样不许回头。这一次，你扛了一个并没有很大的树就出来了。那个人问你怎么了?你说:"经过上一次的教训，这次只要我看到觉得肥大的，我就砍下来了。但走去尽头时却发现其实更大的在后头。是有点后悔，但总好过又再一次空手而归，只好认命吧！"
这，就是大部分人的婚姻心态。后悔，认命。

梦很美~

梦
有时是美到你不愿醒来。。。
它如果能成真
那该多好~

这次
还真的希望自己不要醒来的好~
醒来后
又回到那个模样了~

penang 'half day' trip

Finally penang i'm here...well, i'm not here for trip or jalan-jalan actually. Me n my family are supposed here to help my grandpa out as he will be doing his heart operation in GH. However, before the operation, i did steal the day n enjoy wiv my uni-mates.

First day reach penang edi 6pm something, so after we hav our dinner, my uncle sent me to guat tee's house. N i hav overnight at her place for 2 nights. The first night we hav went to 'coffee island' to 'lim teh'. We were trying to ask as more ppl as possible, but finally only yuk fen manage to join. Then that night we edi plan for tml's outing. Hehehhe.......

So, here comes the second day in Penang. We hav invited sotong n ah beng go to beach together to view the sunset. But, because they are planning for gym first, so me n tee went to queensbay mall shopping...hehe....She has bought 2 hair colour solutions n a sun glasses whereas i hav bought a top...vincci is doing sales!!!!!!!!!!if not that we scare we'll be late i think we'll shop at vincci till broke...hahha.....




~shopping shopping.....

~guat tee n i having lunch at yaka dunno wad ramen..........

Hehe, then sotong called telling he is on the way......yippie, beach~~we r cuming......

Well, only 4 ppl, so kesian sotong becum our driver...neway, thanks a lot...our journey has started after we went to fetch ah beng....

~Finally!!!!!!!!!!!i miss u batu ferringi.....luckily we still on time for the sunset...or to be exact, we'r abit too early for a sunset...haha.....

~sun still high up in the sky......

~the boys....

~n the girls....

~i luv this a lot~~~~

~group pic....i look like pregnant woman in this photo.....

~jumping, nice shot!!!

~this is the NG one....

Lastly, sunset is here....too bad that we only hav camera phone wiv us, or else i think the photo would be nicer wiv a total camera....

Sun disappearing in juz few minutes, i wonder, y every single beautiful thing can fade away in such a speed.......appreciate every single thing beside u....especially the beautiful one~~

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O.K.~~~~after sun has set......we went for dinner n lastly a movie, ICAC (I corrupt all cops), not bad a movie.....then sayonara le......c~~one day has passed, so fast....

Here, specially credit to sotong n ah beng as actually i wasnt close wiv them, juz like hi-crap-bye fren during 1st year in ktsn...but reli thanks for the companian dat day....haha, i can feel the passion of penang lang....*doink*

And also thanks to chong ki senior for bringing me yam cha at taiping....^^though i nvr mention anything about taiping in this post. hahha....

不值得

你在简讯问我，‘是不是还不想见到我’，我回了你，‘哈哈，你想太多了！’
但说真的，我没有很想和你出去，所以都一直在找借口推掉约会，还放过你飞机~你为了约会拿offday，我却在约会前几天放你飞机~对不起~
也许，下一次有机会我就要诚实告诉你，‘我已经有喜欢的人了，我们就不要浪费大家的时间吧~’我对你来说还不值得，真的~

night at the museum 2

Yesterday night suddenly received nic's sms asking for yam cha, well, i juz said 'yes' as long time din meet up wiv him n sean also....

When i saw him only he told me dat:'ei, we go for movie lo'......then i said;'oklo..'....n we decided to watch 'Night At The Museum 2'...Our ticket is 12.45am...so we hang out at starbucks to hav some snack first since we still hav about half an hour....and chit-chating lo.....

Finally, we hav waited till the time...wow, long time dun hav late night movie wiv my frens edi....well, as usual, commercial advertisement for about 15 minutes.....i almost fall asleep edi.......About 1 a.m. only the movie start.....

The movie end at 2.42am.......Gosh!!!!!i sleep late again~~~=.=

Honestly, i step out the cinema wiv lots of disappointment........y??

Becoz the movie is SUX!!!!!!!!!so many LAME dialouge......seriously wasting time!!!some parts is amusing no doubt, but i got no idea y others their 'laughing point' can be such low..i dun think it's funny by the way....they juz can laugh throughout the movie.....well, maybe this movie is sell their 'EFFECT' ba i would like to say.....the graphic n sound effect are gd....story line so so....others i got no idea wad to comment about....totally disappointed~~~~~

Hehe, another few hours i'm off to perak n penang edi, so wont be on9 for few days......is not going for trip, but send my grandpa to penang for heart operation....finger crossed he will be fine...^^

high heels

Today, i was challenging myself for wearing high heels to shop the beauty fair n go to work....conclusion, it's so damn torturing, think no longer will wear high heels to work again!!

I remember my fren told me b4, the moment when a GIRL turn into LADY, is the moment when the girl start loving high heels n start wearing it...

No doubt i luv high heels a lot as it can lengthening ur legs (so that the ratio of ur upper part body n lower part body will look perfect) n makes u look more professional, elegance, n femine....but do you know how much a girl need to pay when wearing high heels? of coz in terms of money n health....

Well, today finally i hav decided to wear the black high heels to work. First, went to beauty fair, shop about 2 hours more....ok, start feeling discomfort after long walk in the tunnel....lunch, ok, rest a while....then, start my work......HELL, dat's the story start. Start feeling pain whenever i go toilet, n when go for dinner at avenue k, my legs like going to break while walking...after back from dinner, greeting session hav to stand for one hour, i curi-curi take off one of it n rest when there is no customer pass by my counter....at night, walau, pain till cannot tahan, walk also abit cacat look n when going back, i hav to borrow a pair of flat slipper from nancy, thank God i manage to walk in a proper way wiv the flat one....

Maybe some of u curious., reli dat pain mou??!!errr....maybe i'm not used to it, and my heels is rather thin, so increase the force per area, n walk on those hard floor, the pressure reli pushing me to death...well, my heels about 2 and a half inchs...for me is a big challange for wearing it up to 12 hours....

~ya, u c, no doubt wearing high heels can be sexy....

~seductive, femine and wild.......

~also, professional and elegance....

BUT!!BUT!!!, it's super duper pain when the heels getting higher n thinner.....well, think dat i shud practise more walking with high heels edi....

Ever wonder the history of high heels? well, i try to google it and there is lots of version, i got no idea which one to be identified as the correct one....haha...so if u all interested in high heels, haha, google it.....

Even now, still pain.......well, tml will be wearing a rather flat one to work.....tata...^^

Rest n pamper myself....^^

Finally i hav back again...sorry for the lack update as i was busying working for the past 3 days...N it's reli tiring....i'm so happy finally today i can rest up to friday...then sat start working again.....

Well, shud hav pamper myself for this precious 3 days as i was doing ntg that is reli gd to myself during working days, but keeps on harming my skin for putting heavy make up on my face...of coz, i'm selling cosmetic, full make up is a must....

So wad i shall do during these 3 days?? well, i hav planed to:-




1. Do facial mask, coz long hour wearing make up reli harm my skin....fully utilise the mask that i hav bought....







2. Practise yoga....u know y?i hav gain weight seriously...physically, i reli hav becum 'fat' especially my butt, hip, arm, even my waist....i got no idea whether is the side effect of the contraceptive pill or wad. Ya, i hav taken it for 2 months, dun think will continue again le...shud hav use another method to get a normal menstrual flow....aiks, this freak me out super lot....coz when i din get my menses, i look very charn, skin turns out badly wiv all the break outs....so if i nvr get my menses, no matter how expensive the skin k product i use or how precious the supplement i ate, it's all helpless....urgh!!!!





Hehe, and finally i hav get myself this ZA Deep Hydrating Gel....this product got lots of compliment from the users, i get it to know from forum n my frens who r using this. This can use as sleeping mask as well, how? Well, apply a lil bit more n thicker on ur entire face except eye area n go get urself a gd night sleep....The next morning when u wake up, u will realize ur skin is boosting wiv moisture n look radiance glow, n ur skin feel supplied when u touch it, coz it has get enough drink wad, haha..... reli super gd....*thumb up*, i hav tried...:p





Haha, dat's all for today, i wana go back to my drama le....hehhe.....^^ciaoz~~

i'm back!!!

Finally, finally, back to my own sweet home.....well, kinda miss kt though...

Haha, yesterday once i reached home, unpack few of my things, then i outing wiv chi ling le...haha, went midvalley.....outing juz for 2 and a half like dat but seems like out for very long..bought somethings...n accompany ah moi buy her mother's day present...then suddenly got the urge to find my frens in setapak...coz they juz move der...so call them up, n they also ask me cum over their new place....

So after finish our shopping session, went to setapak kacau them...hahha....the house is very very big, kira fully furnished, juz lack of washing machine....so 1.5 k is reasonable i think, coz seriously big...then play wiv the kayu, coz they r fixing a cupboard, n i also kepoh a while jiang...ahahha...after that, hav dinner wiv them n bought my favourite tong shui.....

So fast, we r going to lead a new life soon...time is too fast for us to adapt everything....while missing our previous life, we hav reach another phase of life where we need to adapt it all over again....

For me, when i was newly to uni, first time live outside, i mean hostel....wad i need to learn is used to malay fd, used to cold water bathing even in big cold day, i think dat's all ba....next year in bangi, i gotta learn more as no longer living hostel life...well, looking forward to that...life is always adventurous n dynamic......live to the max!!^^

Goodbye~

Today is the second last day for me to 'conquer' this room in KT. After tml, i no longer can live here.....abit sad actually....

Paint my first year uni life here...

I hav met with lots of people...

Of coz, no doubt, after tml, there must be someone, somebody and something i'll miss.....

After tml, no longer attending those lame activities to gain merit,

After tml, no longer 12.30pm cafe, 7.30pm cafe with coursemates n frens,

After tml, no longer kacau-ing frens in their room when i'm bored,

After tml, no longer chit-chating wiv frens after bump into them accidentally,

After tml, no longer yam-cha session wiv frens in cafe,

After tml, no longer cafe food, eventhough it sucks sometimes, however, there is some improvement lately...

After tml, no longer late night badminton wiv u guys at surau der,

After tml, no longer ping pong in DSG,

After tml, no longer piano session in DSG too,

After tml, no longer pillow talk wiv my roommate,

After tml, no longer walk here n there passing movie from frens,

After tml, no longer titiwangsa-walk with coursemates,

After tml, no longer things that i was used to do for my entire first year...

I will miss it badly i know.......

Goodbye KT,

Goodbye my first year hostel life,

Goodbye to all my frens,

SHIT~i hate saying goodbye~~~~:(

*there seem the end of the story i think....(hidden meaning)....Bye~