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好久都没病得这样‘五颜六色’了。。。还以为自己好了，哪里知道烧又回来了。。。
这几天都睡了好久，真的很累很累。。。而且，都没什么吃到东西，因为一吃了就想吐，没什么胃口。本来以为自己食物中毒，因为连喝水都想吐，然后又泄得。。。再泄下去觉得自己的身体会脱水。。。今天，总算没泄了，但又发烧了。。。之前发烧都不会这样辛苦，但是这次真的有点辛苦。。。而且，我不喜欢吃药，所以没有看医生，应该不会好得那么快，唯有喝多点水，真的不行再吃panadol，然后不要再冷到，相信会比较快好吧。。。
现在真的全身没力，从早上八点到现在，间隔十一个小时，我才吃了一粒苹果，一碗面和一根香蕉，还去补习（补完习才病回的），走了不少路。。。等巴士真的明显发觉自己随时会晕倒。我很想吃我要吃的东西，但我现在都不能吃，*哭*。。。要吃东西就要赶快好起来。。。：（

很想。。。

很想去海边。。。
很想时间多一点。。。
考完试的第一件事，整理书桌。。。
将房间大扫除一番，
回乡下，
游北马，
学跳舞，
应征我梦寐以求的工作，
和朋友出街，脚断也没关系，
暂时是这样多。。。
现在想不会太早，现在都几月了，只能说，时间过得太快太快了。。。

who invent dis?!!!I NEED SPACE

Juz now my dad showed me a msg, i was shocked gila!!!!!I think maxis is having a new plan, wad fren finder plan, which can check wer a person be at at a particular time juz by sending his/her number to the centre......then u'll get a reply within seven minutes....they will show the ADDRESS summore....

Luckily i reli went to tuition juz now....my dad was checking me thru dis plan.....he showed me the msg:"fren finder:0122705xxx is near dataran merdeka, jln hishamudin, kl"......awwww, WAD IS DIS?!?!?!no wonder yesterday he took my phono...rupa-rupanya he is registering the plan FOR ME....dun say me, my two brothers oso kena......haih, he said for our gd, if we r kidnapped then can find thru dis.....ok, i admit it's gd in sum ways, but it seems like mencabuli my kebebasan....haih, if they reli kidnap me, they'll throw the simcard away oso la, they wont so stupid guah...n, who wan to kidnap me?i aint pretty nor rich, kidnap me for wad????now wer am i, wad am i doing is under supervision....he still can check thru 3G.....can c everything.....

And one more thing, dunno y my mom juz dun believe wad i said lately....she ask me y so late oni cum back home, i said i tuition, she juz dun believe......i juz dunwan answer anymore...fed up when i heard dis.laz time oso, the campfire end late, she said i lie to her.....i juz terminate the call without saying gd-bye, i know it's rude but forgive me, i wad so fed up listening dat n so lazy n tired to explain...coz dat time quite late, n i was so tired...but the thing is i told them in the afternoon i went to my school for a campfire, n i'll reach home quite late....but she juz dun believe.....i know they r k for us, but i'm no longer a lil girl....juz giv me more freedom....i'm ur daughter, cant u guyz juz trust me a lil bit more?i know wad is correct n wad is wrong, juz let me 'fly' as i wish.... i'll learn to take k of myself...after i fell i'll learn......wad i wan juz ur support.....but mommy, u juz love to decide for me n insist that u r right, nvr think wad i actually like.....ok, nvm, maybe 19 for u guys still 'small'...i hope dat when i was 21, i can get the freedom dat i suppose to get....

FREEDOM, for me is very important....i dun like being tied down....i luv to 'run', 'jump', 'fly', i dun like being controlled, i dun like sum very lame 'rules' that limit me in doing things....i luv to mix around rather than stay in a gang, when i alone juz leave me alone, i dun mind, if i need frens, i'll find, n of coz u guyz r welcum to find me when u r facing wiv problems.....actually for the time being, i quite satisfied wiv wad i am doing now where i mix around wiv boys n girls in school, without my f5 gang, i think i got more freedom to do wad actually i like(i'm not saying i dun like gang up wiv them, but after trying, i think it'll be better for me not to engage wiv any gang that seriuosly stick together EVERY MOMENT, i prefer to do things alone, sumtimes)

Daddy, i believe u r a very rational daddy, i told myself u r juz trying out the plan dat u juz registered for me yesterday....n nvr try to tie me down....i juz like a horse, i need space n freedom.....i'll run.....

lazyness....

Lazyness is attacking me lately....LCY, roughly 2 months left for trial, wad hav u reli do??oni i realize i do ntg.....i beg u, cut down ur on9 time, cut down ur sleeping time, juz for 4 months ok?????GOD, going insane edi.......i hate dis.......plz be consisten abit......i wan the consistency like laz time.........

RuSh HoUr........

Eleven sumthing in the morning suddenly recieved cindy's call, ask me whether wanna go to midvalley...She wants to but a dress for her prom nite....Of coz, i hardly to refuse her invitation coz long time dun c her oso, so juz acc her to MV....

Well, the weather juz nice, kl was raining, luckily not very heavy....at least the rain giv the environment the cooling effect....Reach MV about twelve sumthing, then we straight away heading to TOP SHOP to purchase the dress that cindy's wan...BUT....we couldn't get the size we wan, cindy is so thin....So, we asked the staff to check for us if other outlet still hav the stock.....Luckily they found one for us which is at one U....Gosh, we gonna rush there asap as the prom will start at 6, n after 'shopping', i still need to make up for cindy.... So, we juz jump inside the car n rush to there as soon as we can.....again BUT, the traffic is sooooo jammmm......trap inside the car for almost half an hour, even more than that......isshhhh!!!!

~very bored, so played around wiv my hp....blek....

~cindy n i....Her brother is a well-known model in malaysia...n her bf soon to be a star idol oso....

~again cindy n i....so sien neh......almost finish the sweet that she brought for me from sarawak....nice wei....

~still traffic jam.......>_<

Reach one U finally, after got the dress she wan, juz rush back to my house.....use 45 minutes to make up, rather long huh...muz improve my timing edi......haih, din take photo after make up, coz she is tooo rush edi, so juz let her go....hahahha.......well, nice 'sudden outing' wiv u....n thanks for ur sweets....^_^....next time we 'shop' again ya.....hope u'll hav a wonderful prom nite wiv ur handsome bf!!^_^

luv dat feeling....^_^

真的发现自己越来越爱唱歌了，虽然技巧还是有待加强。。。
最近的歌瘾很容易来。。。朋友介绍了ryan cabrera的true。。。第一次听觉的还好，但真的越听越好听。。。用了两天的时间学了这首歌，现在可以跟我的guitarist jam了。。。
为了下个星期的演出，今天下kl和felix练习，但少了julius，还是有少少的担心，不是很有安全感，感觉vocalist方面还有很多东西还没做，和音那些。。。糟了，剩下星期一可以练，但julius又有gm。。。烦！我真的希望每一个演出都是perfect。
练习之前竟然心血来潮去了博物馆一趟，还好啦，没什么东西看，都是石头，武器，照片bla bla bla的。。。过后找个荫荫的地方坐下来练习。他弹吉他，我唱歌，感觉真的很好很好。。。气氛又好，赞！只练了半个小时，过后就去补习了。。。真的爱上那首歌了，more than words 和 true，两首我都很喜欢。。。
当然，等下要做‘功课’了。清唱录下来，再找缺点，当然，study歌词很重要，才知道那首歌要表达什么，feel很重要哦！
希望下个星期不会吐槌，God will bless us......

原来死亡离我们很近。。。

昨天接到爸的电话，他说我的表哥车祸去世了。。。我还怀疑自己听错，再次确定，没错，他真的去世了。。。才大我几年，是小时候的玩伴。。。也许大了，所以没之前那么熟，但听后还是很伤心，整天的心情掉到谷底。。。

第二次发现，死亡真的离我们很近，近得你不知道下一秒，下一个转角，你是不是就会离开这个世界。。。突然想很多。。。

打给我的吉他手，讨论下个星期的演出过后，跟他谈了很多。。。可能我话变少了吧，所以觉得昨晚他讲的话比平时多了一倍，relatively。。。不过没关系，我当时真的很需要一些声音，需要有人陪。。。谈了确实舒服很多。。。他平常真的不多话，不过跟他谈天真的很爽，谈音乐还有bla bla bla的，一样梦想吧！

今天又得知我同学的婆婆去世了。。。怎么一下子这样多这种消息。。。节哀顺变吧。。。

还能说什么？珍惜身边的一切。。。

Lolz..........

Today go to school for ntg actually........coz today dun hav PNP...our Education Minister is visiting to our school for dunno wad function....n of coz, whole school was busy up n down for the past two days but Dato Sri Hishammudin juz came for two hours...Actually i go to school becoz i was chosen to pin the coursage for Dato....N i juz crack lots of jokes becoz very suprisingly, my hand is not shaking but my whole body is shivering...of coz shiver la.......First, he is a 'big ppl', secondly, so many 'big ppl' n reporters around him, OMG....it's impossible i wont get nervous.....However, he quite frenly though, bent slightly down to let me pin the coursage for him, then ask me dun panic, he wont eat me....all the teachers juz cum around n say, dun panic....lolz, actually i'm not lo, juz they all 'comfort me' till i panic oso...but of coz, i still manage to pin it, juz took rather long time....reporters n photographer shud thank to me, i drag the time so long n let them catch so many photoes, hahah....... hopefully my face wont appear in newspaper the next day...n thanks to kelly for helping me oso....^_^

Well, today quite happy la,go back together wiv my guitarist, n talk a lot of coz...long time nvr chat wiv him le....talked about band....wow, COOL!!!we still need another guitarist, pianist, n i wish to hav one male vocalist, can duet wad, drummer i think he found one....hahahha......anyone interested in it?n thanks for helping me to free myself today n also the pic below, thanks for helping me to scan.........

~hehe, my one-year-old birthday party.......yeah, victory....i luv dis...wonder who is the photographer, izzit daddy??hahhaha........i thought the cake is a real piano, so i reli use my hand 'play' on it n even step on it....those photoes still wiv me....haha, the 'grand piano' hancur oredi, lolz........wad a sweet memory.....

~juz woke up.....my blur look.......hahha.....sleeping, one of my hobby........notice my chubby face nvr change....lolz..........^_^.....~sweet~

#Who invent the camera?ppl today shud thanks to him...if not, ntg can keep our memory fresh.....haha, i'm juz a photo freak........#

SJI CAMPFIRE 2007 ROXXXX!!!!

Lolz, said wan to let my mouth n myself rest for several days, how cum yesterday i went to the sji campfire n shout like hell....

Haha, at first, nvr thought wan to go....somehow, after i finish doing an interview wiv my fren from TARc, suddenly feeling like dunwan to go home n got no mood to study, then called so many ppl n ask who wanna go, wanna find a companion, till my phone got no battery n out of credit>_<.....loitering around first since the time still early, juz nice 5pm....the event start the registeration at 6 n start officially at 7...so no point i reach der so early....so, i went to putra lrt station to find a public phone, continue calling frens....hahahha, lolz, finally i found yun han is going too, k, gd....so, i walked to school n meet wiv him first, since i reli got ntg to do......still early man, haven reach 6 oso, but they let me enter oso coz i'm johannian wad, they wont becum so cruel de,hahaaha......while all the scout members r busying preparing, me, yun han n one guy, forgot his name edi, sorry, were listening to songs in bilik garudamas, n oni i realize yun han can sing very nice....he has a gd voice...

Waiting for sooo long, finally, sum johannians arrived....i was sooo happy when i saw li jia, juz stick wiv her for the whole night enuf coz oni me n she r upper six gals.....n lots of cps' were der, juz know sum of them...so still stick wiv li jia for the whole night....

The whole event was amazing....concert, games(lolz, everyone is hugging here n der, but me n my team members were out after the 3rd round). The most impressed me was the performance from scout members where they create a story line, some act as police n some act as thief, climb here n der in order to arrest the thieves.... sum of them reli fall down from school building, n it's quite high man....got no idea whether they fall purposely or accidentally....but i am sure that kevin n theng fall accidentally.....kevin fall from the arc n injured his arm n leg while theng fall from the badminton court der to the volley ball court...he hit the zinc plate(roof top), awww, sure very pain....hopefully they r fine...finger cross.....n kok peng is sooooo yeng while climbing up to the f5 block, reli OMG, from QM room, to canteen, then up to form 5 classes, without using staircase, reli climb man....damn yeng man.....lolz, becum his admirer edi......hahaha, jkjk........ well, can c dat they reli put in lots of effort n time to make dis event a success....thumb up!!!^_^

Haha, i think dat's only for today....played for two days edi, muz spend my lovely sunday to study....well, hopefully those who injured will be ok after the treatment, n all scout members get enuf rest as all of them r reli bz coordinating everything to ensure every lil part of the event is going smoothly, n of coz thanks to kok peng, his inviting........^_^......LASTLY, TO ALL THE SJI SCOUT MEMBERS, U GUYS R ROCK!!!!:p

有点难过。。。

推掉了他offer我的jamming session，因为怕自己抽不出时间练习。不想考虑太久，怕会拖他的时间太久，所以很果断的拒绝了，但我告诉他我会去。八月十三日晚上八点，我会记得的。。。

有点难过。。。人有时候就是不能做自己喜欢的东西。。。没有人会喜欢考试的吧！但这个时候，我却选择了读书。。。违背了自己的梦想。。。我还是现实的奴隶。。。我多希望神能给我所一点点时间。。。错过了这一次的机会，还会有下一次吗？

今天，我想除了等下会帮朋友做的interview说话之外，其余的时间，我都没心情说话了。。。好吧，就让自己的嘴巴休息几天。。。

今天，有点难过。。。荷尔蒙作怪吧。。。

suprise!!!!!

Too many things r suprising me lately....me n Hs still like dat, nvr exceed 5 sentences in our conversation during school hours.......i oso dunno wad to do, seems like getting serious, the selisih is getting deeper n deeper....but reli got no mood lately, lazy to talk, lazy to explain.....very tired....so better dun do anything...i believe time will heal........

Well, the first thing suprising me is my grandma came dis thursday....the first second i step on doorstep i reli very suprise.......i thought she dunwan to cum, neway, she still came....wkakak........yeah, i can follow her to the wedding dinner edi....

Friday, ya, friday....oni cum to school for 2 periods of PA, lots of teacher involve in the rehearsal, i oso involve indirectly....y?haha, story goes like dis....when i was doing my revision, a lower six gal came to my class n told me mrs.cheng wan to c me....i thought teacher wan me pass me sum hw for our class to do....then suddenly Alice(the lower six gal) ask me,"do u learn music?", "erm....i know sum...y?","ooo, mrs.cheng seems like wan u to play music for us","wad?i dunwan....i cannot play properly n i not reli got the ohm to sing for any function like laz time edi"...ya, the phobia still der, stage-fright still der.......however, when i reach the hall, mrs.cheng juz ask me to correct their tune....lower sixers going to sing national anthem n school ralley on tuesday....u know, to form a choir, it's not an easy thing, if the starting key is not uniform, whole song will go sux....well, me n KL were der to help mrs.cheng dis, ntg much actually, juz giv opinion, find the tempo n pitch for them.....now oni i realize 'all the way' n 'the pledge' r nice....laz time nvr learn these two songs....haha, but dis year they nvr learn the song 'the johannian spirit'....so, me, kl, juen, milton n eu gin who know to sing dis song sing to them, let them know wad the song sounds like....n my gdness, pui yan cam n told me i hav a nice voice....oh pls, eversince i viewed the video which record down dat day, i reli think dat my voice is not nice....haih, i know i shud view it in positive way, coz singing is my passion, impossible to let a 'video' beat me down rite?so, haha, no comments.....k la, still will sing.....in shower........wakakak, jkjk!!!

After dat, chinese society meeting>>japan foundation>>go home>>wedding dinner....

Another suprising me is the wedding dinner......i remember i said dat it'll be a very grand dinner in my previous post.....however, i totally wrong......very very wrong.....once i reached der, everything juz OMG......well, no comments bout the fd, still nice actually, coz very hungry edi, so juz eat.....the things dat drop my spec is, k, they juz hold a buffet, k, no problem wiv dat....but then, got no bride, no gown, no bridegroom, OH, WAD IS DAT?? n everybody juz wear cincai-cincai....luckily my wearing was casual enuf, if not, sure becum monkey among them...n no handsome n pretty der.....hahaha......lolz, it's not grand at all......maybe shud say it's juz a very simple 'symbolic' dinner....like juz let own relatives know dat my daughter is getting marry....well, my cousin sis oredi 30+, neway, she still look elegant n pretty....but not in the pic below....her real look is prettier....no idea who is her husband, reli kena bom, how cum bridgroom nvr attend, YES, IS NVR CUM....how cum?!conclusion, everything juz out of my expectation.......n talk nvr exceed 10 sentences during the dinner oso....not close wiv my relatives der, juz keeps on sms-ing wiv my fren, n juz like wad i said, tired, no mood to talk........



~me n my cousin sis......c, she's so tall, both of us r not wearing high heel, fair, hahaha......former stewardess of SGP AIRLINES.... she looks prettier in real life, reli......n i realize i becum fatter lately...no idea, eating too much........


~time reli flies....all my relatives said dat when they saw me, a gal who is going to turn 20....laz time they said when i still a small kid n bla bla bla......n i'm the only teenage gal dat nite......so boring......can c dat, my cousin sis' siblings who looks very handsome n pretty laz time was now looking soso after their marriage.....dis is life....diff stages to go, i'll reach dat stage eventually oso......n i know, now is the time for my generation to rock n roll....~

无可奉告

觉得上天真的很眷顾我。。。开心的事情，他给我双倍；伤心的事情，他还是给了我双倍。。。

今天朋友跑过来问了我一件事情。她说她只是听回来的，叫我听后不要生气。。。她说，外面有传言说我对lower six的juniors这样好是因为我要拿今年的best senior!!!我听后很砸到，‘扑嗞’一声大笑了出来。。。只是觉得，我的天啊！我根本不是那种为了利益才对一个人好的人。。。她说，认识你的人就知道你不是这种人。。。第一秒，我是大笑的，可是接下来，突然胸口感觉有点重，很想哭。。。我不知道原来我的friendly在别人眼中是这么虚伪的。。。散播谣言的人果然不了解我。。。如果我只是单纯的想拿best senior，那我在学校对F4和F5的人好又是这么一回事？我对lower six就好啦！听过后真的有点气。。。那些人真的是吃饱没事做。。。没事做就去睡觉，不然就去读多点激励成长的书籍，为自己的内涵加分。。。我对人好，是因为看到别人因为得到自己帮助那开心的心情，自己也会开心。。。你以为开心是因为你身上穿着名牌衣吗？是因为你有别人没有的东西吗？我的开心是，当周围的朋友开心，自然而然也会开心，一个很可爱的小东西也会令我开心，能在我肚子饿时买个面包给我吃我也会开心，还有很多很多。当然我还是觉得帮助有需要人还是最开心的，所以有一天我突然有个念头，我想去孤儿院，去做我能做的事情。我觉得那种开心是很充实的。我不否认你买一样我很喜欢的东西给我我也会很开心，但不同的，充实的感觉还是最有意义的。真的觉得周围的东西都变了，当人们的念头变了质，当一切动作都被冠为虚伪的时候，真的会很失望。。。讨厌跟有心机的人在一起，处处防备很累。。。我宁愿你鸡杂点，但就是不要让我觉得你有心机，天蝎座一耍心机起来你们都要靠边站。。。

另一件令我很头痛的就是跟她的事，今天跟她讲话不超过五句。。。我想她误会我在她junior面前讲她坏话，我也不想解释，懒得解释。。。如果我们的友情会因为一个我们两个都认识不久的junior破坏的话，那算了吧！我们之间少了朋友间的信任。我跟你的junior会比她跟你好是因为我们早上有时会一起来学校，而且我是她第一个认识的senior，所以才会这样好。。。总觉得你爱为小事计较，大事却不管。。。也一直以为你会很成熟的处理事情，但原来你不是，有时真的不能忍受你的性格。。。既然你都不想跟我讲话那就算了吧！我也不是那种爱pou satay的人。。。要记得，我们要说很多谎话来圆一个谎，让自己这样辛苦干嘛！我就是那么敢爱敢恨。你不要我也不希罕。

不过，伤心过后就算了，嘴巴是人家的，我封不起来。只要自己觉得问心无愧，那就好了。。。我只能声明，刘巧颖不是那种爱巴结的人。。。如果任何一位觉得是的话，欢迎你们在comments中留言说我就是那么假。我不怕，因为我对得起自己。。。

~今天嘉雯趁我在PA节偷睡时在我补习的note画了让我很开心的东西。。。这个开心我没有表现出来，我把它放在

心里，有这样的朋友真的很感动哦！！螃蟹是她，因为她是巨蟹座的，她的生日要到咯！^_^脚印是我。还有一句Friendship 4ever... >_<。跟她同校了五年，但F6大家都转了。只是偶尔在补习中心会遇到。。。她是一个没有心机的女生，所以跟她在一起很舒服。。。我还记得我是因为向她问时间而认识的，我们不曾同班过，但感情还是这样好。。。朋友就是会在你需要帮助是出现在你身边；在你落寞是陪在你身边；在你是失望时鼓励你站起来；在你犯着错时，狠狠骂醒你；然后会在你不注意时，做些让你感动的东西。。。carmen, thanks ya.......muax!!!!luv u 4ever pinku lady!!!!~footprint~

很累啊！！！！

也许PMS吧，今天的心情不美到不会说。。。第一次和朋友回家没讲过一句话。。。原因，我很累，心情不好，而且他弄伤脚，所以也没心情说话。。。我们就这样静静的，没讲话，一直到终点。。。

不晓得为什么，最近很多人问我要不要去什么什么function的。。。我的吉他手问我要不要去一个‘family day’，达明前天问我星期四要不要去喝茶，今天又来问我星期五要不要下petaling street，应该是他的朋友在那天帮他庆祝生日吧，所以捞埋我一起去，k.loon问我要不要去SMK Sri Sentosa的carnival，kok peng问我要不要去这个星期六他们scout举办的campfire，还有一个，jia wen gor gor的harry porter。。。好奇怪，真的好奇怪哦！一下子太太太多了。。。不过很多我都推了。原因，我很累，今天补习差不多睡了整节的biology。。。老师发现了。。。还有，我破产了。。。最近花很多在吃的，真的没有多余的钱让我花了。。。自己都还不会赚钱，总不能一直花爸爸的钱。。。而且，有点懒得出去。。。有时间我想睡觉，吃东西，上网。。。

今天，又被我发现到一位不甘寂寞的男孩。。。无可奉告。。。真的不懂要说什么了。。。之前还挺欣赏他的，但我似乎把话说得太早，之前所说的，看来今日要被我推翻了。。。人是不是都是怕寂寞的？也许我也是这样的人吧！所以有时over frenly到令人误会。。。

突然想起我还欠朋友很多outing，最久的是crab的，认识他两年但都没见过面，照片就看过，每次他问我几时得空出来，我都说等我考完试我一定会出；还有和我吉他手的鬼戏，放心，你一定会看到我乱喊的样子的；和strawberry的outing，超想跟她出的，假期后，一定要出；和我妹妹的outing也是，这个也是一定要出；最重要还是和姐妹们的，忽略她们太久了。。。有漏吗?应该没有了吧。。。这些被我列出来的我是一定会出的，只是时间关系罢了。。。

真的要对一些朋友说声抱歉，跟你们的约会推了又推，真的真的很很很对不起。。。:(

i reli wish dat i can go.......

sob sob...very sad ar.....i'm going to miss a very very grand wedding dinner dis friday.....very sad!!!!

At first can go de, but then my grandma suddenly told me dat she is not cuming to kl for the wedding dinner, so i oso cannot follow her edi....

Y i describe it as grand wedding dinner but actually i haven attend.....the bride for dat nite is my cousin sister who work as a stewardess for SGP airlines...so, now u guys can imagine how pretty she is n how tall she supposed to be, n yet she reli pretty n tall...n her siblings are all very handsome, pretty, tall, juz like artist....izzit gd if if i inherited sum of the genes from them.....genetic reli amazing....

Reli very shocked when my grandma told me that she is going to marry dis friday, coz she's quite 'open' so i thought she will 'play' for several years b4 marry....neway, their story reli amazed me....i heard my grandma said her husband-to-be proposed to her during a flight in an aeroplane....n dis 'event' came out in newspaper......my gdness, patutlah my cousin sis wan to get marry wiv him, quite romantic huh....haiya, but i wont c the pretty bride n witness their grand wedding dinner as well.......cry hundred times oso not enough...

Sob sob, thought can groom myself up dat day n attend the wedding dinner, thought can take many pic of mine n the sweet couple n put it in my blog, thought reli can attend then can c lots of pretty n handsome..........haih, how cum.......GOD, hopefully my grandma will change her mind n suddenly appear in front of me after i came back from tuition tml........finger cross.........