Finally, finish my bio n chem practical....today is my fifth time doing rat disection, second time disect the thorax of the rat....oh man, feeling like wan to vomit once i open the cover of the container...juz cannot tolerate wiv the formalin smell......after school having lunch, the soup oso turns to becum formalin smell.....
Well, thorax is quite hard for me to open compared to abdomen....coz there r many blood vessels, vein n arteries that i cannot break it....now oni i know when doing disection, i reli need lots of concentration....disect for 3 hours.....>_<....3 hours, juz to remove the muscle, clear the nerve tissues n fat tissues so dat the vein can be clearly seen....n it's hard, coz my rat quite unusual, teacher said so....however, i still manage to do it finally, juz i accidentally broke a main vein...luckily the other side still nice....quite messy though coz the muscle haven remove thoroughly n it already dried up.....but the main thing is as long as teacher can c the vein, arteries n everything exactly like the manual, then can score edi....lastly, hav to remove the heart n pass up.....shit, dunno where to cut, dunno how to do....however still able to finish it wiv the aid of teacher n frens....
Well, after this practical, i dun think will take up medicine course in my future....today while disect until half reli feeling like wan to giv up....coz reli dunno how to do, how to open the rib cage?wad if i break the trachea accidentally?wad if bla bla bla....oni i know, every single cut we made, there is a lot of courageos hidden behind it...of coz, try to apply this in our life....we need lots of courageous to continue living, coz a small step will determine our future sumtimes....n like today's disection, if i cut it wrongly, then i hav to say bye bye to this practical...n ya, actually i oso use up lots of courageous to trace, to display n so on....every movement i made within the organ muz be gentle, so i hav to be dare even the risiko is there....
N today oso oni i realize i hav 'transformed'....those days where i keep on worrying about everything, sink in pain n so on were the processes of transformation...n today sumthing make me feel dat i'm different from others....neway, the difference is gd, lil girl still will grow up wad....n thanks to my mom for forcing me enter form 6...i remember i used about months to make myself adapted to f6 life in a new environment, n i made it....ya, f6 is hard to go through no doubt, but i learnt a lot n gain a lot too...i learnt how to multitask, learn how to mix wiv all kinds of ppl, learnt how to work under pressure, learnt how to divide my time well(dis one still can improve though),'learnt' how to live without tv, 'learnt' how to sleep oni 5 hours a day n lots more....
Now already august, wad i can say is time reli flies....first time i feel dat my 'one week' passes so faz....tml another 'friday', next week is another week.....so faz huh.....2007 is going to end soon, STPM ARRRR!!!!!!
Dis one and a half year, started tackle out wad reality is, wad actually a hectic life is, n the concept of living is the same, apply wad we had learnt in school n books into our daily life, never say study is useless, coz u nvr apply the concept properly...(i hate exam but nvr hate study, plz dun get me wrong)...the problem is how u view a thing oni, juz like wad my chemistry teacher always said:"monster(reactants) keeps on changing, but concept still the same"...dat's wad we called philosophy i think...well, God will bless me.....dat's all wad i can say...
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