特别给你~

听着你说的故事，
那种无奈，空虚的心情，
我都可以体会，
毕竟大家都是过来人。。。
分别只是，
我已经放下了。。。
相信我吧，等你过不久移民到德国后，
一切从新开始吧！
时间与距离，真的是我们的解药。。。
这些东西尤其这样（touch-wood)，
朋友屡劝，当时的我都不听，
当朋友都不再劝时，自己却放下了。。。
亲爱的，好男人还很多。。。
那些纠缠着你不放的，只是让你知道一部分的男人都是一个样的。。。
才二十岁的我们，就经历这些，其实我会觉得有点不公平。。。
但好就好在，我们领悟得早，
都看清了这个不单纯的世界。。。

p/s:‘男人’并不是针对任何人。。。

happy outing wiv anata cl n cindy oo~~

today, me, chi ling n cindy hav an outing since three of us r free today...but so sad, din take photo wiv cindy pulak...>_<

~me, inside chi ling's car.....i used to take photo in her car, hahaha~~~

~cy n cl....wer is cindy??haha, she's is shopping while waiting for us~~

~wanna cut short or not??

~waiting for condy's reply in MCD, whether wanna go maison since it's free entry tonight...BUT!! BUT!!tak jadi...sob sob...i miss clubbing~~~:'(

~*smile*.....lolz, i was ss-ing....

~heading home luuu~~~since tak jadi go clubbing.....

~my anata is driving....^^

well, i went klcc visit my ex-colleague as well....miss them a lot oo...n i miss my working life over there, my passion for make up....^^

雨天

雨天，
让人的心情变得蓝蓝的。。。
之前的忙碌，
让自己忘了雨天的存在。。。
也忘了‘自己’的存在。。。
有没有问过，
什么是‘自己’这个问题？

生活方式~

假期一到，整个人就懒了下来。。。
坐在电脑前很久很久，viewed了很多人，比较有印象是viewed了契姐的profile，她到了中东开始她全新的空姐生活，不知道她现在过得好吗？挺想念她的。。。
又想到一些事情。。。
很想好好的生活。。。
大人的生活。。。
之前从有点复杂的生活变成了现在对我来说有点单调的生活，
没有怨言，但就是平淡了点。。。
又viewed了yenn的profile，之前做pc fair认识的朋友。突然想起那段天天都浓妆抹艳的日子，和今天完全不化妆的我。。。我的化妆品再不用真的怕会过期。。。
viewed了anata，想起之前和她一起clubbing的日子，一起到处闲逛的日子。。。
好怀念以前的日子哦！虽然是没有书读，但我很enjoy那种多姿多彩的生活，虽然有少少乱，但这样才比较像生活啊！
现在觉得自己还是一个小孩子一样~
四年耶~~~
现在却希望这四年快快过，然后去选择自己真正要的生活方式。。。
怪只怪自己从小心就很散，如果从小就知道自己要什么，那么今天就不用再这里碎碎念。。。
弟弟做的很对，他对音乐的热忱与坚持成功说服妈妈让他修读音乐系，当然他在乐器方面还是很有天分的。。。
而我呢？现在还是吊在半空中的。。。

injuries~~~

finish the 3 days camp at bangi finally.....

well well, the camp is fun coz can talk fun wiv frens from other courses.....this is the thing that i gain thru dis pt dancing, dat's is frenship....^^(*peace*)

However, there is also hardship where every dancer hav to go through, that is physical pain...
i injured as well, no doubt...n it's super duper pain....n everytime i take bath, OMG~~~

i'm so gonna miss allll the dancerssss, muackkies~~well, still got one camp waiting for us~~~~

~3rd day of the camp....reli hav to bandage my foot because i couldnt walk properly due to the wound, wad's more dancing?

~after finish dancing......

~no diff wiv 'piggie' foot....

~actually the wound isnt big, but dunno y very very pain....plus the area i injured is the placed where contact the most wiv surface....i injured at the very first day, second day juz balut one piece of cloth the dance 4 almost whole day....dis only make things worse...

~close shot...

~blue-black as well.....

hahha, i start my mid-sem break officially......but always feel lazy n sleepy once i got home....*yawn*

Happy holidays to those who in holidays n happy new year for all the malays...^^

unexpected!!!!

seriously unexpected that i manage to enter the final singing competition for cac nite...

neway, i'm not satisfied wiv my performance coz i was f**king nervous!!!!seriously nvr been nervous tll dis extent b4. even when i perform in sji, i also nvr been nervous b4....

dunno whether i still phobia to public or the mode diff...

Seriosuly, when i was singing in sji, i wont be that nervous coz that time i was PERFORMING, however, dis time is COMPETITION, reli make me wanna pee all the time n shake non-stop while singing in front of the audience n judges...i sorry for myself coz i reli think dat i screw up everything...

sigh, y dis year i juz keeps on screwing up everything...my paper is like dat, even my singing~~~:'(

well well, now start searching for song....n long time din practise my vocal edi, dat'y i was sux!!! man, hopefully i wont do the same thing dat day........

preview show at dewan kajang

~me in the partial attire...before groom up....

~wash my oily first b4 i start my make up session with GOLD GOH PERFECT MAKE UP N HAIR STYLE ACADEMY....

~finish my make up, start styling my hair.....well, our make up n hair style hav fixed....pink purple for eye colour n tie half hair up, including the frindge...

~half-way job....

~tadaaa.....done....me n my make up artist, elaine....^^

~me n teck peng...one of my dancing partner...^^

~me n xia huang, my partner oso...parts numbers of set work together wiv him....^^

~ivy n i....actually we hav known each other past 2 years when joining the PJKN...^^happy to meet her back~~

~me n yue di...^^

~me n philles....^^she looks like fairy ooo~~~

~ivy, me n emcee....

~exco of external programme....mommy n i.....^^thanks 4 everything...^^

~me n jj.....both of us r from taiping, kakaka....he used to be my partner as well.....

~me n lay ying.....^^gd luck girl...XD

emcee n i, before go for performance......

~me n joyce, the dance diva.....before go for performance....soon to be our turn.....

~yes yes yes!!!!!!finish the preview finally...it was a success....they said the show very nice oo..happy happy^^

~well well, after partially remove my make up....^^

~start feeling tired.....waiting for ukm bus go back to kl....tml still got test, urgh!!!!!!!

~reached my hostel......ss before i'm going to remove all my make up...

~k la k la, finish ss edi....wanna remove make up n take bath le.....

LASTLY, CONGRATS TO ALL THE PERFORMERS (ACTORS, ACTRESSES N DANCERS), THE PREVIEW SHOW HAS SUCCEED......NOW, WE HAV TO WORK HARDER FOR OUR COMING OCTOBER PERFORMANCE IN DECTAR OK??GANBATTE OOO~~MAKE IT BLAST DAT DAY, CREATE A NEW HISTORY IN UKM....^^

tired~~~

oredi 3 days i din hav my dinner....i'm not fasting though....
i'm so tired, physically n mentally......
PT dancing reli killing me~~~~~

c'est la vie

心情蓝蓝的，觉得生活失去了重心。。。
想寻找一个寄托，任何类型都好，就是让我有个方向。。。
自己真的走对了吗?
今天逛了文具店，有股冲动想买水彩和图画纸，就很想画画。。。
但还是没买，知道自己做不到。。。
心有余儿力不足的感觉很难受。。。
没办法，
东西也会有它不公平的 时候，
这就是生活，
那么的起伏不定。。。。。
‘家家有本难念的经’，
这句不讲还好，
朋友一讲了，
竟然有股想哭的冲动。。。。。

special dedication~

awww~~~~it's gonna be sooo sweet~~~~~

~'me' on his hand.....promise me to keep 'me' nicely k?i'll 'spot-check' u de oooo.....:p...i definitely will miss the lil girl above so damn lot so u muzzz keep it properly since i hav gav 'her' to u~

This post is special dedicate to someone:(i know u r reading...:p)

U hav brighten my day up....i thought i still will be very moody for the second day, well, i felt better after the hours together wiv u~~~

thanks for everything....hope we'll forever like dis la....^^

i'm so gonna miss u 'two' a lot a lot...(u n the lil girl~~~)

from: ah ying~^^

重伤~

这次跌得很重。。。
过了一天，心情还是很烂，很蓝。。。
第二次崩溃了。。。
这次散落满地的心，真的不知道要从哪里开始收拾。。。
朋友都叫我不要想太多，
我说，
给我几天的时间。。。
我也知道几天的时间有点长，
我也知道一个小考不是大学四年的一切。。。
但这一跌真的是太重太重了。。。
重到我需要去见DR.KO，整个Forensics Department最大的head。
都是给那个'except'的字害死，
再给那个 'Discuss in length bone information that u can obtained from a bone.'险到，
我觉得整part MCQ，我是拿0的。。。
essay part那个bone information就拿多一粒0了。。。
下个星期去见DR，我怕我又再一次崩溃。。。
告诉我，
要怎样追回来？
senior说sem 1是最好score的，
我的mid-sem test 都烂到这样，怎么办？
我真的不知道我几时才会‘回来’，
信心真的完全没有了。。。:'(