argh!!!!

so many things to blog rite now but not reli now...bullshit i'm talking....i saw my lovely junior, cat n i'm soo touched as she know i'll get hungry faster so she bought me some biscuit for me during my working hours, how sweet was dat, luv u cat!!muackss~n so sorry for not acc u as i was busy serving customers, thanks for waiting me patiently.^^

N n hor~i saw 'fei lun hai'=farenheit, a very famous group from taiwan...i think me n my colleagues quite lucky le as four of them pass by in front of us(we juz finish having lunch so lepak-lepak for a while, hehe) when they got down from the lift, IN FRONT!!!then witness them go down to concourse using escalator....no doubt, very handsome....thinking wanna take out my phone to take photo de but once i analyse, take out my phone from the cover need 1 minute, unlock n go to camera need another minute, then standby, capture n save need another minute, total up= roughly 2-3 minutes, they oso go down edi, so i oso save my energy, not taking any action...lolz....

well, when i got back to counter oni i know kak ros was shaking hand wiv one of them!!!!KAK ROS, U PALING LUCKY DALAM SELURUH KLCC HARI INI!!!BANYAK ORANG TAK DAPAT SENTUH BULU MEREKA PUN....yala, the guard so strict......=.=conclusion, goosebump raise when seeing them.....the feeling was soooo HIGH u know....now oni i know meeting wiv someone that every ppl(especially girls) crazy about is dis kind of feeling..no jokes, my bulu reli singing 'NEGARAKU' at that moment.

Haha, well, gtg le, full shift for continuosly two days edi(12 hours per day), super tired!!!!nitezzz~

CY

Received Joo Eey's phone call around 10pm. Thought she wanna invite me for clubbing as laz week i did ask her when wanna club again, i miss them a lot, kakaka....then she told me dat chui ying aka my pet sis is going to leave malaysia to foreign country, dunno wer, to becum an AIR STEWARDESS....wow, once was my dream job...well, Chui Ying is tall, 175++, very chinese look... no wonder can becum air stewardess so easily, well, her height edi enough to make her pass the interview...

However, so sad dat i couldn't make it as i'll work continuosly till next fri...well, i sms her n told her dat...hehe, another gd news has cum. that is she will meet me personally during my working hours...monday she'll come over to klcc to look for me....sis, so sayang u de....:)

Hehe, looking forward for monday to come....^^

Will miss her damn lot after dat...n i bet she'll enjoy her life, coz can fly here n der, meeting diff ppl...well, i oso know dat air stewardess is a very tiring job, wearing high heels n heavy make up all the time. haha, i'm so lazy now coz nowadays i so daring, not putting any foundation...juz eye n lip make up, hahha...ya, i juz let my impurities expose like dat, cover sini cover sana, begitu susah buat apa?haha....well, one word, I'M LAZY~~~~n actualy oso for my own skin gd...my colleague, Chloe sure will scold me 99 if she c me putting foundation n let my frindge cover my forehead...now she became my personal beauty consultant edi....well, i appreciate her a lot...^^luv u girl, muackss~

Dat's all for today...later gonna take bath then *pigzzzzzzz*, juz reach home not long ago actually...miss my blog, hahahah...:p

final yoga lesson...sob sob...:(

Sigh, today is the final lesson for me as june i'll stop learning due to some financial problem, (oni got rm150 as my pocket money for my entire may, n i hav used up almost all for eating n travelling during working plus some outing wiv frens) n kinda tired of two hours travelling from my house juz to go der for an one hour lesson. so i think i better stop le......i wanna earn more money n buy a car!!!!


~i'm the earliest one...^^....still wiv my jacket...

~took off my jacket, gonna ready to do some stretching n warm up first.....

~ready??go!!!!

~i gonna practise harder, so dat i can fold my body into half, now almost oni, coz i'm not flexible enuf.....

~wiv one leg lift up to 90 degree....n stretch my back....

~stretch my legs.......i think i've injured my right legs since laz two weeks, b4 i went penang dat time. coz my right legs super pain when i stretch it.....:'(

~after finish stretching, lift again my legs higher, stretch more on my back n legs as well.......

Well, today kelly skip class as she's not feeling well....today, irene taught us some new pose like crow pose. i oni manage to lift for few seconds as my stomach n hand reli not strong enuf to withstand my body weight...so, wad to do??GONNA PRACTISE MORE!!!!n some pose i cant do today coz i'm having menses rite now, if not back flow of the blood, n it's not gd gor our body....

Sigh, after today muz time myself for yoga, coz no longer learning, sure will get lazy....Melody, muz hardworking ok??

teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I cant breathe
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky, cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see


*歌词浅白易懂，简简单单就道出了单恋的心情*
那些年纯纯的岁月，永远是倒带也回不了的过去。。。

过渡期

很想你就在我身边
但 我知道
想念你的日子
只是一种 过渡期

wad a day~

Went out early in the morning to settle my banking stuff....
Reached home n stare at my schedule...sigh, feeling like wanna stop working earlier, as too many politics inside.....i hate seeing those politics stuff that always hurt ppls' feelings...:(

~baby~

我最近发了很奇怪的梦。

第一次，我梦见自己怀孕了，氧胎水爆了，但baby就是怎样都不肯出来。。。担心baby脑缺氧生出来变成弱智儿而在那里哭哭啼啼。过后，醒了。。。

第二次，我梦见自己怀孕了，这次顺利生产，但我却将baby给了别人。。。很依依不舍那种，毕竟怀胎十月，生了又拱手让人那种滋味谁受得了。虽然只是梦境，但那种抱着自己的baby，看着他沉睡，然后亲手将他交给陌生人的感觉却很真实。梦里的我，哭了，然后一直叮咛那陌生人好好照顾baby，然后又跟baby不懂说了什么。只是知道，视线离不开baby就对了。。。过后，梦醒了。。。痛的感觉一道一道划在心上，痛很真实。。。好像自己真的做了mommy一样。

两个梦境的共同点，我没有老公，那时的我也不是我想像中的适婚年龄。。。

虽然这不是噩梦，因为我没被鬼(touch wood)或怪兽追，没被杀手追杀，没有生命危险，但我却觉得那是恶梦。如果在现实生活中我在结婚前（爸妈还不懂我有男朋友的状况下）怀孕了，那个绝对是一个超级大恶梦。

其实我真的想过，到了适婚年龄还找不到另一半，我就会去找一个优质男孩借精，呃，不！应该是‘要’精，我可没精子还他，哈哈！然后，再让自己怀孕。我要生个女儿，因为总感觉女儿比较粘妈妈，又可以跟她打扮，投资在她身上都比较值得。前提是我要很本领才行，不然怎么养得起呢？而且还要将她调教得很有气质+内涵才行。

有这种想法很奇怪吗？

关于那两个梦，有谁或谁的朋友会解梦的？可以帮我解看看吗？我会感激万分的。^^

第一次这么concern自己发过的梦。。。

*现在单身，不用害怕我会怀孕，哈哈！

so vain~:p

So in love wiv dark colour recently...errr...mistery enough?lolz.....


~this is my 'homework' when working for Paul & Joe. i hav used my spare time to do this...thanks to my colleague who has helped me to complete my ten fingers.......base coat, nail polish n top coat from Paul & Joe. Their nail polish is very nice, the colour intensity is gd, the texture is nice n smooth n etc...smell nice wiv the fragance...^^dat's y it's so costly....rm50 per item. *colour applied= cherry red

~well, this is not from Paul & Joe, but it's from SKIN FOOD. I bought when i visited to cap square after attending my school's teacher's day celebration...the quality not bad....texture is smooth enough n the intensity of colour also very gd, easy to apply....^^nail colour n top coat both from SKIN FOOD.This one cheaper, rm8.80 per item.*colour applied= maroon red

Lolz, i know both colours also look vain....but i juz Luv it....kakkaka....:p

sien dao ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man, i'm so so so so so sooooooo sien ar!!!!!!!!!!!
juz called anata, i wanna club wiv her, long time dun go clubbing edi!!!!!!
n juz called the supervisor n the agent....
shit!!!!!!!!they said the salary out edi but by the time they nvr ask me my acc no., how cum oh?!!!say wanna check for me, dunno true or not!will bother them till i got it!huh!!!
very scared work for agency de, always delay our salary!!!!!!!!!!!!ishhhh!!!!!!!!!!
i wan money ar!!!!!!gonna wait summore!!!!!
sien sien sien~

~better in time~

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)
Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too
yes I do(It'll all get better in time)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh (It'll all get better....)

因为我寂寞

事情往往是这样
期待
真的来临
却怯步了

我在放不开些什么？

也许 心里测验也有准的时候

也许 我 一生只爱一个人

如果我想也没想就答应你

那我大可告诉你 那不是爱情

只是因为 我寂寞

~kissing~

无言...
年少的激情 往往发生在当年
还有挥霍不完那青春的 想当年

忙里偷闲

难得今天又没有做工，七早八早就把kah yan拉了起来一起跑步去。跑到住家附近的公园，然后做些伸展动作，谈下天，过后到auntie那里回味一下我之前超级爱吃的板面。真的，什么都起价了。。。

觉得今天的年轻人应该很少有这种早起的耐力，就只是要去跑步。。。在这个发达的e时代，时下的e达人都宁愿睡到太阳晒屁股才甘愿起床，然后就会on电脑，对吧？才发现自己要的生活就是那些退休人士的生活。

依稀记得以前和婆婆住在怡保的时候，每天早晨（五点多）她都会拉我起来陪她去打太极。然后，我就会提着小凳子，穿着棉质的睡衣，顶着惺忪的眼睛，坐在那里看她打太极。过后再陪她到pasar买菜，吃早餐。怡保，最令我难忘的是天还没亮，挂在苍穹努力闪耀自己的星星，过后就是那里绵延不绝的山脉，再来就是她那沁人心脾的自来水，真的是超级舒服的。以前会觉得super闷，现在不知几想过回那种生活，几天都好。在太平也是，一样被婆婆拉起来陪她到太平湖（店屋里太平湖很近，走路都可以到了）去打太极，过后到附近的pasar吃早餐，买菜。现在她老了，都没特地爬起来去打太极了。反而是陪心脏不太好的公公到太平湖跑步，然后到附近的茶餐室吃早点。那里真的很传统哦，早上的时候整间茶室里只有包，点心和唐人茶。下午我还可以到Irene老师那里学瑜伽，没有规定学几天，一堂课rm8，想去就可以去，很好吧！中心那栋楼刚建不久，所以还挺有时尚感的。studio里的装潢，灯光也是一级棒的，做瑜伽的feel恰到好处。^^

六月，真的要找一天回去那里了。上了大学就没那个时间了吧！哎，人长大了，就会开始选择自己理想的生活方式，只是自己也许还太年轻，没经济能力，也加上现实的阻扰，所以没得选。悲哀！但也发现了一样事情，开始有能力实现小小的梦想，例如，学瑜伽，我做到了；进cosmetic counter做工，我也达到了。现在，对自己设下的另一个mission是，别做机器人，过个有feel的生活。。。

你们知道吗？今天一直挂在头上的灯泡亮了，一直给我悠闲的生活的话，就后就会觉得闷。。。
原来，‘忙里偷闲’的生活，才是最值得期待的。。。^^

tired!!!!

Urgh!!!i'm sooooo tired......tired of travelling, tired of working n everything...
Seriously dis is the first time i do sales till like dis, unlike laz time when i worked for lazo...Laz time i was soooo active to push my sales, keeps on promoting, maybe due to the stress dat given by kenny, my lazo manager....haha, but now...let me tell u wad i do whenever i work....

Well, when i juz start working, i was so hardworking to make up from house, use about almost one hour to complete my heavy make up.....but now...kakka....half n hour b4 i go out from home, only i go take bath....then reach there without any make up, only wiv my make up base..then start make up der...now reli lazy to make up edi,i told nancy, can i dun make up for tml?i'm so lazy to make up......gonna get myself an eyecream as when doing smokey eyes, my eyes lids suffer a lot, i dunwan all the fine lines appear so soon...

K, after finish my make up, chit-chating wiv frens, if got custmer oni i go n serve, wrap the gift set, man, i hate dis a lot but somehow i wan to challenge myself, so keeps on doing it....well, not reli sell hard coz like tak ada stress oni....if she/he wanna buy, then juz buy, if dunwan to buy, i oso wont promote anymore....so tak bagus, a gd promoter shudn't like dis....sigh.....

Neither enjoy nor suffer, juz sell my time to PARKSON, hahaha......salary isnt high, but at least i got something to do n i do learn more....haha, my speed to complete a set of smokey eyes oso semakin cepat oredi...^^

Hehe, daddy said dis sat till mon will go penang again....actually mommy suggest pangkor island de, but my aunt wanna shop, so change to penang edi.....errrr....everytime oso go der, like so sien oredi.....

exhausted!

Today's yoga class is super duper exhausting!!!!
Legs shake non-stop after we did four sets of warrior-I-II-III. n finally i sweat....dat's wad i wan, haha....nowadays oni exercise once a week....so lazy hor....
I think dis would be my final month to attend yoga class le, after uni has start, not sure whether will continue learning or not....
So fast, now edi may........

~蓝~

看到他的信息只会让我更想哭而已。。。
然而，真的，听着静茹的‘会呼吸的痛’，
眼泪又流了下来。。。
今天是怎么了？
二十四小时里面，就哭了两次。。。
早上在巴士里强忍的泪水，
回到房里，立刻决堤。。。
就这样哭到睡着。。。
现在，看到他的信息，
又哭了。。。
压力吧，
早上那单只是minor刺激而已。。。
真正流泪的原因，
我想，
是自己太寂寞了吧。
什么东西自己一个人做得太久，
会发现，自己也会累。。。
不想麻烦别人，就唯有自己吞下去。。。
羡慕那些有伴的，
负担也会轻一些。。。
像自己一样，单身的，真的要坚强很多。。。

ffk了今天本来与朋友约好的电影，对不起。。。因为今天的心情真的是烂到没话说。。。

:(

My sixth sense is telling me dat something has happened....

I think i'll be the next one.....

Ntg will laz forever....

Am i too sensitive or wad?

I'm so sad..:(

frus!!!!!!!!!!!

Is this a form of training??i'm sooo stress, so 'sun fu'....sob sob....:(

y papa so cruel?thought he will support my transport, somehow he still cut from my saving that i've asked my mom keep for me....

after calculated (deduct my meal n transport), each time i work, the NET TOTAL that i earn for each day(8 hours) is only rm25.

Being independent isn't easy. Go anywhere alone, if too far, gonna ask around how to reach there
using public transport, coz cant rely on cab everytime if u arent rich. Not enough money, think how to save....think for the whole evening, how to go klcc in the cheapest way coz currently i go der using lrt, both star n putra, double journey cost me rm6, only transport, for one day. n after reach station, papa cant fetch, gonna take cab. now cannot le, gonna take rapid kl.if i earn a lot nvm jeh, but i earn so 'chicken' little. if work everyday, hohohoho.....wer to korek money?

So reality, everything about money.......money money money, so frus!!!!!!!

day~

Today woke up eary in the morning, very early, 5.45am, early enuf??haha, coz hav to go back to school for the academic award day.....i'm receiving 'anugerah cemerlang stpm 2007', kakka.... i'm the first senior who has reached the school, oni me wiv the 'so weird' formal cloths, well, go to toilet first while waiting others to come....

Saw lots of them, reli lots to mention....i noticed some of the girls hav becum prettier, the most shocking for me is yuet mei, so mature, so pretty......conclusion, all has changed after released from the 'prison', kakaka....dis is the freedom after stpm...^_^

about 10.00am the event has finished, me, kelly, lai mei n eve were rushing to cheras to sing k as eve has reserved a room at 11am.After that we celebrate chin chin's birthday as well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL, MUACKSS~met mei sing n see pey in the middle. Mei sing is working der, kacau her for a while, kaaka....

All of us sit der n chit-chating as we r still in U6SC4, so happy...^_^

Leaving at 5pm, reach home about 7pm....remove make up, do mask....then suddenly mommy ask me cut hair for her...she teaches me how to cut at the right angle, the outcome is a 'bob', kakka....not bad not bad....feel so satisfied....^_^

Finally today i can sleep slightly earlier as today i woke up so damn early, pretty tired actually....
then tml gona replace counter again for noon shift....money ar money!!!!!!!