wad a tiring day!!!!

Today is sat, but still need to wake up early n go back to school for gotong-royong....bring lots of things, detergent, cloth, my outing cloths, cosmetics, my file, tuition notes, pencil case n bla bla bla, coz after dat tuition n outing wiv winnie n nicole....well, not reli did much today coz accidentally cut my palm when holding a big glass, real big glass.....it's juz a small cut, but in order to prevent any infection, so i juz do light work, like help them to change the dirt water, n get fd for my classmates. well, still pain.....after finish cleaning our class, went for jap club meeting.Honestly, everytime feel pissed off when having jap club meeting, members r not co-operate, teacher like dun k...haih, maybe me n davis oso got problem in leading a society...neway, going to 'retire' soon, juz dun think too much......hope dat the new board can lead better than us.....

Then maths tuition....i was sooooo tired, wad teacher taught juz absorb half....vector is very hard, for me la, luckily i'm not taking physic (vector related to physic).....finally, two hours has passed, go to TS as faz as i can, left about 45 minutes for me to meet my frens....i hav to change cloths, lap my body(coz sweat a lot juz now) n put sum make-up, juz very light make-up...feeling like wan to finish my cosmetic asap....after talk n walk for whole day....now i totally exhausted.....however, today muz finish my hw b4 go to sleep, tml hav to start my revision dat oredi set laz week........


~Mei sing is cleaning the fan....hahaha, Sc4 gals r strong....wakakka, so boys out der dun try to pijak on our tails.....whole gang of us sure will shoot u till die.....pity our class maths expert always kena shoot by us.....lolz, sorry ray......n Mei Sing is my classmate, not my junior.....Felix, i ain't dat old ok........sad me....: (

~'secret recipe' 's chesse cake...dis is yogurt cheese......very nice.....wow, ate quite lot today.....one set of lunch meal, one cheese cake, nasi lemak n bread within the afternoon....will hav my dinner later......normally juz can finish half of the cheese cake, but today i finish my spaghetti n my cheese cake sekali gus.....coz i very hungry.....

~nicole n i.....getting 'lady' each day..... my very close fren since form 2....i still remember i'm the one who change her becum a talkative person.....hahahha..........

~winnie n i.....very very close oso.....form five was sitting beside me.....a very 'straight' n daring gal......it's nice when u be wiv her coz she is not dat kind of gal dat will stab u from behind.........

~hahahha, winnie is helping me coz i told her i wan a smaller face.....

~while waiting for her parents to cum, i acc her n cam-whoring wiv her....

~waiting for my dad......very tired edi.....

~reach home finally........

Watched one live band show in sg.wang, oni 3 ppl, 2 vocalists n 1 guitarist...the guitarist is using acoustic if not mistaken.....they r very gd.....both of the vocalists can sing very gd.......miss dat day suddenly....miss the song 'ni yao de ai' n of coz miss my band members too.....i know i still love to sing.....

after dat lepak here n der wiv winnie, not reli talk much coz very very tired le.....then met up with kok loon b4 going back.....sms for whole evening but meet up for 2 minutes, funny.........hahaha....n met wai leong n lucy too.....they asked me whether wan to join VI's campfire.......nah, very tired edi......sorry!!!! gosh!!!!!spend a lot these two days....juz bought a face cleanser today, cost me 45 bucks, from THE BODY SHOP....hopefully can control my pimples from popping out...okok, stop outing for the next few months...oni out if der is reli reli special occasion.....muz control myself edi.......

tiredddd.....but happy.....^_^

Today was having chinese society meeting, n i'm the conductor for the tea ceremony.....SHIT, my hand juz shaking like hell, not used to do those 'small' n 'tiny' things, haha, it means dat i wont becum a doctor in the future....lolz......well, knew some lower six gals, gd gd....After that, me n wen shiuan rush to times square to meet jia wen as we'll watch 'Transformer" together at 3.30pm....

Me n shiuan changed our cloths with our fastest speed, coz not used to the feeling, wearing school uniform outing wiv frens, so bag heavy sikit tak apa, hahah....n the consequence is, i drop my file, my bio text bk n secretary record book inside the toilet, luckily the water on the floor is clean n luckily not dropping inside the mangkuk tandas, my book juz above the mangkuk, reli fortunate...if not, hahahh!!!!dunno how to clean it.....

The timing juz nice, after finish changing cloth n que up to buy some drinks, it oredi 3.30pm, but later abit nvm, so many advertisements to advertise before the movie start.... met wai kin, felix n his fren too...cant say is a coincidence coz oredi knew they'll go for movie b4 dat oso, wakkaka.....well, the 'transformer' reli very nice....at first i thought oni boy will like dis movie coz gals normally go for barbie doll rite??hahah....n quite blur n confusing for the opening of the movie....however, it getting nicer as u watch it....comments>>>the movie very 'yeng' man....i oso can heard dat those boys sitting behind me keep telling 'damn yeng man'....ya, no doubt, reli yeng......

After the movie, of coz, go to eat, i juz very very very hungry!!!!!coz nvr take my lunch.......from 11.00am till 6pm sumthing.....OMG, reli hungry till feeling like wanna vomit edi......then we walk for dunno how many floors but still cant find any restaurant that we wan....me n wen shiuan dunwan faz fd, yesterday oni had mcd, so wanna try sumthing other than faz fd....summore, faz fd is bad for health, carcinogenic ar, cause cancer,n very heat, so dun eat too much....i oso hav to jaga my skin, the pimples juz very 'daring', pop out without my 'permission', STRESS!!!!!!we went to a japanese restaurant eventually, 'NIPPON TEI'....no doubt, the fd was seriously nice, lolz, maybe i toooo hungry edi, so everything is nice, as long as it can be consumed.....n hav lots of green tea der...haha, TEA, my gdness!!!!the price oso very 'nice'....reli bankrap edi.....but nvm la, i sayang my perut, juz eat once in a while, shud treat my stomach better..... b4 n after the meal, chat a lot, gossip a lot too, wakakka......from study>religious>relationship, hahhaha.......well, reli many to talk about coz long time nvm meet jia wen, long time nvr date wiv my darling shiuan, so so many 'news' to bocor, lolz, jkjk......

~the fd is very very tasty.....a very gd example of balance diet.....wad a wholesome meal wiv the seven classes of nutrients provided....the miso soup was nice, salad was nice, everything juz nice.....n of coz, the tea was nice too, so definitely the price wont be so 'ugly'........

~cam-whoring wiv my darling....long time nvr go out wiv her le, laz time outing was laz year....

~dunno wad pose to do.........>_<

~peace.....i luv dis the most.....^_^

~jia wen, wen shiuan n i.....jia wen is going to Russia to study medicine, most probably, progressing now..... i'm sure he can get it, wiv the pointer(CGPA)he got in stpm, shud not be a problem for him....break both legs ya....^_^....well, waiting for next tuesday to battle wiv u, i mean badminton...miss those time we played gila-gila, n thanks for always ask me to join u guys, coz if not mistaken i was the only one junior who play gila-gila wiv u all every tuesday in badminton court......wad i can tell u juz my skill drop edi....haha, next tuesday u'll c.....

Dunno y, everytime feel very very tired after watching movie, sit der for hours oso will feel tired, weird!!!!so, say no to HOMEWORK today as i am reli reli tired now, n my head abit heavy n dizzy........Damn, tml still hav to go back to school for wad 'gotong-royong perdana', morning summore........Tml will be another exotic n exhausted day for me oso coz GOTONG-ROYONG > JAP CLUB MEETING > MATHS TUITION > OUTING AGAIN!!!! well, tml outing wiv winnie n nicole....i believe tml will be another happy for me eventhough i'll be smelly n tired....but no point, for frens, i'll juz do it.....hopefully tml wont faint down while walking, hahahah.........^_^

mR.R!gHt

今天忍受不住与朋友谈天的诱惑，在练习完茶艺过后临时决定P补习，跟kok loon和文暄去麦当劳谈天。。。就这样在那里坐了差不多两个小时，谈了很多。。。跟朋友谈天真的真的很开心。。。而且，很久没跟我的darling文暄‘约会’了，哈哈！好啦，不要这样恶。。。

由于我们三个里面，他们两个都有绯闻对象，只有我是清白的，所以主角当然是他们咯！静静听他们说话其实也很enjoy了，我并没有什么故事好分享的，只是偶尔插下嘴。。。分享过后的结果，发现其实外表坏坏的男生或者外表很playboy的男生，一专情起来，比女生还够力，k. loon就是这样的男孩。。。听着他如何为他喜欢的女孩准备的生日礼物，就让我感动不已。。。也才发现，其实自己很粗心，一点都没有女孩应有的细心和体贴。。。文暄其实不要看她很多话讲，平时有点粗枝大叶，其实她也很用心。她知道我们的personal senior(both of us share the same personal senior)喜欢rubber ball，只要一看到那些机器，就会转给她，她说她家里还有两百多粒。。。其实很羡慕他们。能找到一个让自己疼，让自己无怨无悔付出的人，也是很幸福的一件事，从另一个角度看。。。我没做过这些事，没做过生日卡，没亲手做过蛋糕或是巧克力给自己喜欢的男生，什么都没做过，所以从来也没收过这些东西，女性朋友就有啦，哈哈！在想，以后我也许不会是一个百分百的女朋友，我又不温柔，不细心等等。。。感觉自己好像错过这些时期了。。。

好啦，终于肯回家了。。。在等巴士的时候，遇到弟弟的朋友，LY。。。她是个很frenly的女生，什么都告诉你，所以不会在她身上找到‘心机’这两个字。。。她告诉我他刚从男朋友家回来，如果不是因为等下有做工，她打算‘住’到星期日。听后只是觉得OH MY GOD，十六岁女孩在男朋友家过夜，以大人的角度想，真的很容易发生事情。。。如果我十六岁时这样做，我现在一定是残废的，给父母打断脚。。。不要说十六岁，现在都不行啦。因为这样会让人家觉得这个女生很随便。我记得妈告诉过我：“女生让男生进自己的房间，随便；女生进男生的房间，发娇。”其实没有百分百同意，因为我也进过男生的房间，看戏。。。只要不要想太多就不会发生事情，但如果他们两个之间有野，真的很容易发生事情。。。然后，她也告诉我很多她的情史，有些真的很夸张。。。什么剃头发啦，捧着一大束花从petaling street走到金河给她啦，etc...不过真的找不到炫耀的成分，听得出她只是纯粹分享。。。突然觉得自己真的老了。。。也错过了很多。。。错过了那纯纯的puppy love，错过了男女处于尴尬期时（十五/十六岁）会面对的暧昧，还有很多很多。。。不过她告诉我，每个人一生中都会经历这些，只是早晚的问题。。。哈哈！无可奉告。。。

今天，重点还是在麦当劳那两个小时，让我对外表play的男生有一点点改观，也更能肯定，first impression是不可靠的事情，对一个人第一印象不好，往往会变成今日的好朋友；对一个人第一印象很好很好，反而今天你是有份讲他坏话的人。。。而且，也在我理想男友的list添加了一些东西。。。

~理想男友~
~有点酷酷，不爱讲话的，但又会在我不开心时哄我开心。。。
~要有胡须，可是一定要剃，不然的话，就要好像金城武或施易男那样有style的。。。有点怪，我知道，但其实这又故事的。。。
~要有责任感，有一点点的大男人主义，一点点就好。。。这样上他才能压着我有点‘悍’的性格。。。
~观察力要强。知道你需要什么，就算自己没开口。。。
~最新添加=要温柔。是男生的温柔，不要sissy那种，然后要很细心，体贴。。。如果我喜欢的男生像k.loon那样对待他喜欢的女生般对待自己，我一定爱死他的。。。

不过，其实想回来，如果真的喜欢他，他不需要大费周章，或花一大笔钱买这个买那个逗我开心。。。能一起手牵手逛街，轻轻松松喝个下午茶，然后两个一起窝在房间，躺在他臂弯一起看dvd看到睡着或一起坐在板凳上看星星我就会很满足了。一张精心制做的卡片往往比一大束玫瑰有意思得多。。。简简单单就好。。。

剪掉了。。。感觉真好。。。

昨天， 终于忍无可忍，叫妈妈帮我把头发剪了。。。当然，没有很短，只是将烂了的发尾剪了。之前染过，又电卷，所以发尾脱色兼损了。。。其实很早就很想剪了，但妈说电卷后剪很难看，所以我忍了下来。。。昨天，不管了。。。
剪后那一秒开始，一定要控制自己不烫，不电，不染，不想再继续伤害我的头发。。。很想留到很长很长，但我的头发就是长得很慢。。。
感觉很好，现在摸下去的头发，是滑的，不像之前一直打结了。。。多好，剪掉的感觉多好。。。

~其实，这篇小品有另一个意思。。。在想，谁会‘找’到。。。~

。。。

离开你之后--蚊子

从来没仔细想过

我们未来的生活

在你身边的我一直很享受

开心的 快乐的 哭泣的 难过的

你总是默默承受

从来没仔细想过

在你离开之后

少了你的我会不知所措

孤单的 寂寞的 忧伤的 淡淡的

你是否会难过

也许你不曾想过

会为我留

也许我会后悔没有开口

也许你不曾（会）后悔

没为我留

也许我已后悔没有开口

~真的是考我的听写，一边听一边写它的词。。。。。。~

~blue~

今天天气很好，可是心情不怎么好。。。不懂为什么。。。

帮了妈妈一整个早上，不晓得为什么，今天就是特别多顾客。。。过后，换了房间床单，干净多了，房间都是香香的柠檬味。。。下午很晒，很懒得去补习，但还是要去，今年大考，不可以懒惰。。。今天很cool，当然，不可能一个人边走边傻笑。。。不喜欢这种感觉，不喜欢酷酷的看待身边的一切。。。我知道我不是酷女孩。。。只是下kl差不多两个小时就回家了，一个人也不懂要去哪里。。。从轻快铁望出去，天上的云朵真的很漂亮，看了心都变得很空旷，但是。。。心情还是蓝蓝的，懒得讲话，很想就这样瘫在那里。。。

回到家，也没什么特别，我的生活太乏味了。。。

现在，还是听着“离开你之后”。。。胸口突然有种很重的感觉。。。不会想哭，也不懂为什么要为自己不懂的事情哭。。。也许，有点难过吧。。。

把重心放在学业吧！不要再去想自己也知道不会有结果的事情了。。。

anti 花心男

很快，一个星期就这样过了。。。回想上个星期的自己在做什么；回想起一年前现在的自己在做什么，再来看看自己现在在做什么，也不懂该说什么。。。很大差别，还是没有差别。。。

想到忘了form几读过的"The Road Not Taken"，其实这首新诗真的很有意思。。。生活就好像一直在走路，有时崎岖，有时平坦。。。走累了，休息一下；发觉自己脱离社会的脚步了，那就要跑一下。。。偶尔会出现交叉路，是时候做选择了，不同的路又会带你到不同的地方。。。今天我选择了这条都不懂会不会让自己后悔的路。。。但既然选了，就不能后悔。。。不做让自己后悔的事也是我做人的原则，我没有很多时间让我走回头路，所以不能后悔。。。虽然这条路走得有点辛苦，但一定要坚强地走到最后。。。

今天补习之前和两个朋友谈了很多，gossip了很多，原来两男一女坐在一起也是会gossip的，还以为只有女生才会。。。突然谈到‘花心’的问题。。。我觉得，‘花心男’会来看我的blog。。。不要mention名字，相信他自己也懂。。。他说要追我的干妹妹，有点气，真的生气。。。你的故事我不是不知道，我认识你女朋友，也认识你曾经深深伤害过的人，更认识你现在踏着那条船的女孩。。。真的越讲越气，能不能不要这样玩了。。。要玩找能玩的女孩陪你玩，不要找那些innocent的玩好不好。。。不要因为女朋友不在身旁就找另一个，不要这样不甘寂寞好不好！你这样子伤她们很深的好不好。。。不要因为自己一时的快乐却在她们心中带来永远的伤痛。。。你之前那个case让我很pissed off了，你竟然这样伤她。跟她也许不是很很很要好的朋友，但站在朋友的立场和女性的立场来看，你是没有被原谅的理由。我记得我骂了你很久，但你还是不知悔改，还想去伤别个女生的心。。。我真的不知道MY喜欢你什么，她也知道你有女朋友，却不知道为什么要这样死心塌地喜欢你，真的不知道要讲她单纯还是笨。。。也许‘爱情’真的会让人盲目吧！我想她应该是盲了。。。不要把你从小就得不到爱作为借口，这只是让你花心的理由。。。我没有阻止你玩，你爱玩是你的事，但不要找我身边的人玩好不好。。。你试过被人狠狠伤过的感觉吗？我只能再说一次，不要想动我妹妹的念头。。。HF在等着你的。。。如果你和她的感情是这么经不起诱惑，那就分手，这样你就不用隐瞒到那么辛苦，也让她早点发现自己爱的人是那么花心，不要浪费自己的时间在你身上。。。我真的有点担心你有一天会淹死。。。那时不要怪我不救你，不要打电话来跟我说你后悔了。。。建议你去学yoga， yoga可以增强一个人的自制能力。。。我现在是骂着你没错，恨不得想骂醒你，不想看到更多单纯的女孩变受害者。。。看到美女的时候，想下HF。。。想玩时，想下你以前如何伤J的心。。。

真的真的很讨厌花心男，为了自己的快乐与欲望去伤透女孩子的心。。。恨不得哪一天轮到你们遇到super playgirl，把你们狠狠地伤一遍，让你们知道你们以前是如何拿一把刀stab人家的心。。。

finally.....

终于，考完我的mid-term了，这两天拿回chem和bio考卷，有点吓到。我以为星期五才会拿回chem，哪里知道星期三就拿回了；以为下个星期才拿回bio，哪里知道今天，星期四就拿回了，怎么会这么快。。。还好，成绩挺满意的，高三就是不能要求太多，有fully pass就要回满足，A对我来讲很难拿，所以都不曾拿过。。。bio老师可能看我们全班的表现差强人意，所以每个人加十分，我又一次吓到，虽然这个举动帮了很多人，但我觉得再好也不是自己考回来的，所以我并没有很开心。。。但我也要为没有pass的朋友想，他们也许很需要这十分，这样才不会和校长‘约会’。。。真的觉得这次自己考到分数其实是靠点运气，因为总觉得自己并没有很努力。。。补习老师说，如果你现在觉得你自己还不够努力，那你是正常的，至少你知道自己的不足在哪里。。。还好，我还算正常。。。很努力的话就不会每天上网blogging，努力blogging就有我的份，真的要控制自己了。。。哈哈，那天才答应jia wen会经常blog，因为很大可能他要去russia读medicine了，通过blog他才知道我的状况。。。我还是会继续blog的，放心。。。：p。。。haih, medicine。。。刚刚收到乡下一位朋友的msg，她告诉我她被选中进UM读medicine。以前是学车是认识的，每次要回乡下才能见到她，现在她在kl读书，见面都不用这样辛苦。。。。UM, 我的理想大学。。。唉，很多朋友都进大学了，我还在高三受苦，还不肯定能不能进大学那种，,my future is not guarantee。。。dilemma-ing。。。

离大考还剩五个月，另一种说法就是还剩20个星期。。。后者听起来是超恐怖的，20，很少很少。。。真的要像chi chung gor gor讲那样：“u better better stop playing now....”，这句话他去年告诉我的，现在还很响的，一直在我耳朵围绕着。。。没关系，告诉自己，辛苦20个星期，有可能过后就会senang liao le....哈哈。。。。

My cUte CuTe PeT S!s...^_^

~应朋友要求，post了我干妹妹的照片上来。猜到是哪一位吗？就是最可爱那位，被夹在中间的那位，有frindge的那一位。。。。在titiwangsa gal school是学长。。。很可爱对吧！嘻嘻！^_^

“离开你之后”。。。

呼。。。终于要考完试了。。。剩下一张relatively简单的，因为全部ABC，不会做还可以用M16。。。难考的都结束了，感觉真好。。。还记得开始考试前一天，睡前可以明显的感觉到脑袋在急速收缩着，也许太压力了，所以赶快哼些调子平缓一下，我的脑袋明天还要用来考试的叻。。。只能说，这次的年中考有些很难，有些ok，应该没有人会说很简单。。。考完了，也不想去想太多。觉得这个星期五很有可能拿回化学考卷，我的化学老师做事的效率很快，我们也习惯了。时间真的过得很快，死命k书的情景仿佛昨日。。。

很好，今天能轻轻松松上网，blogging等等。。。

回家之前，在PWTC轻快铁站meet了我的干妹妹。。。她说她要继续拿华文，所以将我的stpm华文书二手买了过去。。。今天放学后趁还有时间翻了一下。。。那三本书新得可以，自从转校后就没有时间翻过它了。。。四科都不是很能了，不用说多拿一科华语。。。说真的，好久都没那种熟悉的感觉了，太久没真正地读‘真正’的华文。。。这次，我真的可以说我的华文退步了，blogging用的华文也越来越口语化，不过也好，太机械化给不了人家一种亲近感。。。华语，一个我可以说永远都不会放弃的东西，虽然stpm我没报考华文。。。华文，是我写感觉的媒介语，不能少了它。。。

说到干妹妹，紫莹，很可爱的女生。看到酱可爱的女生叫我‘姐姐’，我会忍不住很想疼她。。。跟她很投缘，谈着谈着，问她如果我想收她做我妹妹，ok吗?哈哈，她也很开心的答应了。。。我也很开心。。。Yew Joe幸运，在PWTC站遇到他，就在当场介绍紫莹给他。。。交了书，在YJ的电话传了几首歌，就回家了。。。好久没在四点多的时候在titiwangsa车站等巴士了，果然，jalan TAR很塞车，我最讨厌的。。。不过，sms朋友打发时间。。。有朋友陪伴，时间真的会过得快一点。。。在巴士里，遇到一位妇女。。。知道她很久了，以前穿着浅蓝色的校服就一直在巴士看到她。。。气质好得让人忍不住想多看几眼。。。还记得她在几年前怀孕，现在还是位漂亮妈咪。。。她刚好坐我的旁边，不晓得为什么，直觉告诉我，她是个很幸福的女人。。。直觉，就是那么不可思议，无法解释。。。喜欢靠直觉做事，懒惰思考吧！靠直觉做事，很危险。。。有一些人在自己的生命中，就只是静静走过，但你却会对她/他印象深刻。哪一天在某个街头遇到他，你还会想说：“欸，是他！”。奇妙。。。

突然想到一件事情，有时现在认识的朋友就是类似这样交回来的。以前一起补习的，都不曾讲过话，也不曾打过招呼。就在毕业后的某一天，某一个街道碰面，大家却笑了起来，就这样变成有说有笑的朋友。。。缘分，总是爱迟到。。。干妹妹也是，同校了那么多年，都不曾熟络过，现在却变成电话已拿起来就可以谈上几个小时的‘妹妹’。。。

听着不懂谁唱的“离开你之后”，满满的感觉又回来了。。。开始慢慢觉得其实很多事情不用太执著，有一天他/她/它终会离去，一个人来到这世界，最终，还是一个人离去。。。如果是我的话，回忆我也不想带走，有些回忆很美好，但相对的，也很沉重，就让它盛开在它最美的地方，足够了。。。学会放手，让自己快乐点，也让对方快乐点。。。

“离开你之后”，歌唱技巧没有很花俏，就是很清淡的一首歌。歌手淡淡的唱完这一首，我也静静的听完这一首歌，多希望自己是一位驻唱歌手，喜欢那种淡淡唱完一首歌的感觉，整个人也变得轻松。。。有些东西不用修饰，也很美。它难免会有缺陷，但这些就是我们有眼睛的人也看不见的缺陷美。。。

~一个小故事想和大家分享：

那个被人遗忘了的角落，有谁会知道每个清晨的周会，有一个几乎被我们这群看得见的人遗忘了。。。每次发现国歌播放完毕后，他就一个人静静地走掉。。。他，圣约翰国中的一位盲人老师（resos teacher)。。。没跟他说过话，但我总会注意到他。。。我特别喜欢跟寂寞的人做朋友，因为他们可能被世界遗忘了，所以我想陪他们。。。善用你们的眼睛，去看一些平常人看不到的细节，你就会发现很多。。。试下看着陆地的积水，你会看到另一片更大，更美的天空。。。

hahha, saturday...another happy day.....yippie!!!!

Saturday, another happy day for me........went for tuition at 11am.....then suddenly met ching ju in maths class, very sudden, coz the class oni for st.john's n cbn's student...suddenly a vi gal cums in, lolz...teacher asked, both of u know gar....of coz, know thru tuition oso.......haha......ching ju was sat beside me, n she ask me whether wanna follow her go to her school, vi carnival wad today....actually laz few days my vi frens asked me, but i reject oredi, said i wanna study, exam stil proceeding, i know dis made lucy n wai leong very disappointed...sorry dear....somehow, after ching ju asked me, i din reject.....struggle for a while, then i nod my head....haha, sudden decision.u knwo how daring am i, becoz i thought after finish tuition juz go home directly,so i juz bring rm8 plus sum syiling today....luckily wai leong gav me the cupon n return him the money next time ok le....hehe..... after finish tuition, walk to vi together wiv chai n ching ju, ya, from petaling street...okla, not reli far......Met some chinese society frens......met lian, a gal who always call me nice nice jie jie..haha....met yun han(again, lolz), chee seong n yee peng n so on....hahaha.....

Actually go der juz wan to treat my stomach, haha, no idea, juz luv to eat, n easily get hungey.... n of coz la, find my frens, giv them support mah, coz they gav me support too, during chinese society's gathering....haha, wai leong n lucy were suprised seeing me....

~ching ju is doing for me.....chocolate fondue......the chocalate is sooooooo tasty.....lolz, chocolate, another of my favourite.....haha, ching ju is a very nice n pretty girl....look like one of the taiwanese artist, yvonne Hsu.....can share a lot of things wiv her too.......

~my 'lunch', 3 fruits(strawberry pineapple n kiwi) coated wiv my favourite chocolate n 1 fruit tart.... the fruit tart is 'home-made' by lucy.....nice wei........

~my nice nice mui mui (lian) is eating.....:p

~before leaving, took a pic as memory....nvr thought will met her today...we juz knew actually....so teman each other today, lepak here n der as we dunno wad to do dat time........hahaha.... nice to meet her.....^_^

After dat, go home together wiv wai keat, ting fatt n yew joe (oso bump into them suddenly) coz i got no money to spend anymore, edi bankrap lar n i forgot how to walk to hang tuah station, wakakka.....next week gonna outing wiv my secondary fren summore, coz one juz came back from perak, another from upm....winnie n nicole, wait for me ya..haha..miss u all sooooo much........Then in lrt very cham ar.....the wong yew joe bully me teruk-teruk.....sobbing......ok boy, wan to play wiv me izzit, monday let's c.....another thing is, suddenly received msg from my pet sis, tze ying.....she ask me whether i'm inside lrt?YES, I AM....thought can c her, but she was not in...she saw me becoz she was standing ooposite of me, the other platform........haih, miss the chance to c her, dis one reli reli long time no c, laz time i think was in titiwangsa, laz year, b4 i transfer to st.john.........

Haha, well, today is happy too........dunno y, feel contented each day, maybe i hav changed my mind in viewing life?ya, dis is important, the way we view things around us....WAD U VIEWED WILL CHANGE UR VIEW OF LIFE......a meaningful sentence.....or maybe chocolate, acts like adrenaline which makes me feel happy??hahahha......

心情篇

现在是用很neutral的心情去写这篇文章，别误会我不开心。。。

~ 刚下线不久，跟朋友谈了不少，但也不多。。。 开始觉得自己越来越不会安慰人，以前很会安慰人的巧颖跑去哪里了？以前朋友不开心都会找我聊天，但现在都比较少了，也许大家都在忙，没时间去想那些问题。。。以前我伤心时也不需要别人motivate，因为自己就是看得很开，也很会motivate自己，每一天都是过得那么豁达。。。但最近想法真的改了，也发现自己变了。。。开始看到这个世界有多现实。。。从前的梦想，从歌星（不要笑我），作家到化妆师，到今天都不知道自己要的是什么。。。当年级越来越大，周遭的诱惑也会越来越多，慢慢看到世界的不完美。。。也许自己不够坚持，所以开始学会接受周遭所给的一切，当然不是全部，我做人还是有原则的。。。而且，周遭有太多太多因素让我没有勇气不顾一切地去追求自己所要的。。。如果当初有不顾一切的勇气，今天的我就不会失去那么多。。。决定每件事以前，要想下自己的将来，家人等等。。。

我把世界看得很灰吧！但我也曾争取过，我也敢说我努力过，只是很多时候我们也只能等待命运的安排。。。我还是不写了，要我认真再写下去，写到天亮也写不完。。。~

specially to my dearest guitarist,

我还是觉得很抱歉，最后一次的谈话并没有给到你任何motivation，我知道我不应该这么自私，带这些negative的想法给你，但又不忍心欺骗你这个世界其实有很多缺角。。。如果今天我和你一样是十六岁的女孩，我可以肯定，我告诉你的，不是这些，因为当时的我并不像今天的我，完全不像，我清楚的记得。。。不懂，也许想法不同，心态不同吧！人生是很抽象的东西，要亲身经历才知道什么滋味。。。

以你的case看来，我看，不如就这样吧，与其想着自己在做着自己不喜欢的东西，倒不如想着每次弹吉他，睡觉就是你最开心，最幸福的时候。你应该感激因为你还是有权利选择你喜欢的东西，只是不是每一次。要知道世上比你，比我不幸的，没得选择的，还很多。只能说，其实我们真的很幸福。。。如果你真的很爱吉他，争取每一次的演出，享受每一次弹吉他的时刻，然后告诉你自己，尽力做好它，证明自己对梦想的坚持是值得的。。。

还是那句，相信一位姐姐的话吧！你在走着的路，我也走过。那种切身的感受我也经历过；那种‘不能做自己喜欢的东西’的感觉也不曾间断过。等你走到今天我走着的路，你就会了解我告诉过你的东西。往positive的一面想，不要去想不开心的事。我们不能控制生命的长度，但我们却能决定生命的深度。要开心的生活其实是一门很大的学问，关键是看你如何调整自己的心态。。。永远祝福你！^_^

（我有没有给你玩过这个，在刚下过雨的街道找一潭水，然后看着那潭水，问问你自己，你看到什么。。。不明白的话，去试，还是不明白的话，在msn问我吧！）好像给你玩过了是吗？




~ur vocalist~

~sO HaPpY~

Dis week, very very happy, eventhough is exam week, where i need to study day n night 'non-stop', however, there r sum events which makes me sooooo happy......let's go.....

Monday: start my lovely day walking on muddy land, kl was flooded seriously... ya, i know, dis is not a happy thing to talk about as lots of shop will kena n they hav to close for several days which will make them rugi.....but i helped a lower six day gal dat day, i still remember her name is shu ning....her skirt was totally dirty becoz an unconsiderate driver juz pass by like dat n spilt the mud on her skirt....i saw her washing n washing in the toilet, somehow the dirt seems like unwanted to leave...so i offer her a help, bring her to eagirl's teacher advisor n get a clean skirt for her.... i was happy becoz the feeling was great...when someone need help, u can lend them a hand regardless who they r....

Tuesday: start my exam... the PA paper two was average hard, almost cant finish, but force myself to speed up my writting speed....so my handwriting, from the beginning was nice n neat, satu biji satu biji, laz few parts, haha, becum tulisan sambungan oredi, then cancel a lot as no time for me to use liquid paper.....quite messy....hope teacher wont faint down....

Wednesday: wednesday juz so so, ntg special happen....having maths exam....the only thing i happy is at least i can answer 9 questions out of 11 within 2 n a half hours....at least there is improvement shown, better than laz time...maybe dis time the paper not as hard as laz time, so i able to answer it.....

Thursday: my exam still proceeding, bio!!!!!damn, bio was super duper hard, got no time to finish all....well, thursday i was very happy too, becoz early in the morning, met 3 lower six gals inside the train, n make fren wiv them....they quite frenly n talkative, haha....they r sara, siao tong n xin yi...i dunno if i spell their name correctly.... so gd, knew sum of my juniors edi......

Friday: haha, friday was the highlight throughout the week(i think sat n sun juz lock myself inside the room n study pa n maths 2 , next week exam paper, gosh!!!!...)....having my chem....the questions, erm.....okokla, sum part quite confusing oso....well, after dat, went to tuition together wiv chai n mehala.....u know wad, mehala was so gd, she knew i start loving indian fd, so she brought me to an indian restaurant nearby to treat my stomach....actually wanted to order tosai masala, but finish oredi, so juz ordered a mee goreng as i not feeling wan to eat rice....then chai n mehala ordered dunno wad pisang, as below.....


~taste not bad....indian fd is nice, serious.......

~yogurt, always my favourite....gd for health.....quite sour, not like those seeling at 7-11 de, very sweet....neway, it's still nice, luv it...........^_^

~dis was taken laz year when i was joining pjkn, n having the program keluarga angkat, my keluarga angkat was an indian family....dat time was the time i start loving indian culture, luv saree, luv indian fd, tosai, capati, n their spicy fd,my mommy cooked indian special fd for me n my others pet sisters everyday, diff style of dish n she can cook very nice....damn nice man.....i remember when second day went der, i perged for whole day, maybe the day b4 ate too much spicy fd.....dat nite having 'malam kebudayaan' summore, luckily not dat serious edi, joining a gang of indian performed cat walk show in saree....thanks for my 'mom' tie the saree for me.......Muax!!!

~reli reli very miss pjkn life.....me n strawberry (suk hong)....know y i'm calling her strawberry, becoz whenever u c her, sure there will be a strawberry item wiv her, hair clip or necklace....n she will answer to u whenever u call her strawberry....getting closer during the program keluarga angkat.... we reli hold each other's hand n walk by the kampung roadside on the evening....we r not lesbian ok.....holding hand is a very gd way to show how much u treasure n appreciate ur fren....luckily still keep in touch wiv her, wad a cute gal!!!reli miss her....laz time saw her was 2007 new year count down.....

Haha, after having our lunch, dat's wer the story start n my stomach getting pain n pain.....

~went to watson together wiv chai n mehala oso......visiting department selling condom.....haha, n discussing bout it.....n due to our bio lesson in hormone, we r curios about the item like pregnancy test slip n so on...standing there for so long, n 'investigating' wad's the diff between all the condom.....i like the way they name it, ROMANTIC LOVE RUBBER....hahhahaha.reli laugh my lung out.....wad a beautiful nomenclature......

~the pic on it is quite eye catching....n the price is soooo cheap....no wonder so many teenagers oredi 'tried'....it's not gd to try (eventhough i'm not against the idea of having 'sex before marriage'), however it's gd to use condom if u reli wan....to prevent any harmful diaseases n preventing from 'making a new life', hahah.......

Bought an acne lotion, as the 'stress' nowadays makes all the pimples pop out.......sob sob.....my clear skin has gone......very sad man!!!!!ishhhhh...geram betul!!!!!!!

Then while walking to kasturi, met yun han on the half way...he oso follow us lepak at popular.......was having sooooo much fun inside popular, talking craps that makes me laugh non-stop.......

CY: u c, nvr cut ur 'kuku', pengawas summore...

Yun Han: wad cut my 'kuku', watch ur words......(laughing)

CY:.......(blurring)
Yun Han: (again) watch ur words......

CY: Y?wad happen? wad's wrong??............OH!!!!!!!(finally i realized).....lolz, wad la u think 45 degree....

Yun Han: 90 degree oredi......

CY: ..............(speechless)

Becoz of dis, i laugh for so long n loud, inside popular.....till tuition centre.....n chai told yun han everything bout the condom......wad la u all....CHAI, DUN LET ME C U BUY CONDOM AT WATSON NEXT TIME......ooo, rupa-rupanya u oso will get malu one ar??hahahahahah..........(i seems like very 'open' in discussing dis, :P)

Then yun han ask for my help...he wanted to buy sumthing to a special 'gal' fren, ask me to choose for him.....asked him wad the girl like? wad colour she luv? very gurlish or wad?but the fella juz told me ntg becoz he DUNNO.....at lasl he told me sumthing bout the gal, i forgot wad was dat.....finally, chose one for him...but dunno whether he will buy or not...Yun han ar Yun han, try to 'liu gai' the gal first, then very easy for u to 'ehem' her edi...lolz........

Then tuition...okla, doing graph today....so din fall asleep....went back home, blogging, hahaha......after dat>>>>study......wad a boring life.....well, i shud view it in positive way n make the boredom becum more 'colourful'....hahahah.....i wan to be a happy gal, i wish i can laugh like today for every moment i breath....ok, promise myself, dun let any things to slow me down...live to the max n treasure things n ppl around me....^_^.....hav a gd day for all the readers...i'm sooo happy today!!!!

~thanks to my closest indian fren, mehala.....taught me a lot today....intro nice indian fd to me, teach me the table manner in indian culture n so on.........reli learn a lot.......start luving indian culture now, a very 'colourful' cultural for me........^_^

AHAHHA......again, today, i'm so happy.......thanks!!!!!MUAXXXX!!!!!

乱写。。。

今天的心情有点蓝蓝，也懒懒的。。。最后一天假期，唉，对我而言是没假期。。。开学后第二天就考试了，都还没准备好。。。习题都不会做，生物都背不进脑了。。。

觉得自己长大了，都不知道是好事还是坏事。。。以前什么都无所谓，朋友都说我是很单纯，很直，很容易受骗，everything happy-go-lucky，很真的小孩，又很鸡杂。。。现在？一直烦，也许没有以前那么单纯，但心机也没有变得很重，只是还是很容易受骗。。。很想很想变回以前那个傻傻的我。。。
说过了，不喜欢大人的世界。。。还记得前几天跟爸爸到一间什么pesuruhjaya sumpah sumthing签一份东西(car's owner transferring),那个former majistret说我很幸运，小小就有车。。。哈哈！其实，车只是放我的名，还是公公他们用着的，manual的叻，我不行啦！然后开始发现这些东西有多复杂，买车买屋子都不知道要签多少份东西，又有什么insurance，结婚又要这个那个，等下又要申请一些东西又要这个，又要那个。。。我记得以前f5申请Multimedia University和Matrices都已经把我弄得一个头两个大，这些都是自己来做，因为妈妈根本不懂这些，我爸，哈！算了吧，叫他申请credit card会容易些。。。这是我学习独立的第一步。。。妈妈也告诉我说：“是啊！你以为酱容易啊！这些东西很烦的！”。。。学习独力第二步，上次惹小官司，当然没有上court这样严重，只是自己写上诉信，自己问人。。。学习独立第三步，去年车祸，没告诉家人，不想被骂，也不想他们担心，幸好还有朋友（云，云男友，蔓菱，还有sji一些朋友）帮我度过这个难关，让我发现到什么是a fren in need is a fren indeed。。。高三开始后，学习最多了，很多时候都是一个人。。。也才发现，我不能再像以前那么依赖了。
记得f3才学会搭巴士，还要朋友陪那一种，之前都觉得父母太保护自己，这个不行，那个不行。。。长大后才发现，他们的‘自由’，是慢慢给的。。。现在，算蛮自由了，to a certain extent。。。
最近爸妈冷战，已经几天不讲话了。

妈：“再过几年如果你的老爸还是这样，我就搬出去，不告诉你们我去哪里。。。”
颖：“har?!要么！不如你告诉我你搬去那里，给我知道一下，我不会跟爸爸讲的。”（换作是以前我早就哭了）
妈：“不要，一个人住还好。。。为这个家付出这样多，你爸爸还是不会想。我也是时候为自己想一下了。。。”
颖：“那你也要想下你的孩子的嘛！”
妈：“再过几年你们都大了，我还担心什么。。。”
颖：“。。。” （其实只是想讲，在父母面前，不管自己多大了，我们都还是小孩。。。，也看见爱情可以变得很现实，原来他们的爱情是渴望得到回报的。。。谁说爱情是无私的？）

是的，有时自己也觉得爸爸不会想，尤其是理财方面。。。赚十块，花十一块。。。所以从小妈妈就帮我们洗脑，叫我们好好为自己的将来打算。。。也因此，我没想过出国读书，完全没想过。只是想读好书，找到一份好的工作，养得起自己，养得起家人。。。没办法，家中最大就是我。。。哈哈！好像有点想太多了。。。

写了那么多，也不知道自己的重点在哪里。。。只是不想长大，大人的世界，烦！还有，就是很想变回以前那个我。。。有时看到某些f3或f4得女生，就好像看到以前的自己。。。好怀念哦！那个没有生活压力的时期。。。

I need space!!!

突然有种觉得家不像家的感觉。。。
上次和弟弟谈天，问他，假期要不要一起将房间从新粉刷？他都没理我。。。算了。。。
觉得家很乱，怎样整理也不会干净那种，客厅被妈妈用来帮顾客理发，三楼被爸爸用来当music room，只剩下二楼两间房，算是挺私人的。。。
我们一家五口都不是土生土长的城市人，妈妈最明显。。。也许她小时候吃过苦，知道钱不容易赚，所以真的很省，省到家里堆了很多东西她都不丢。。。有时收拾房子被我丢掉的东西，都会被妈妈捡回来，所以，家里永远都不会空一点。。。突然想到上次回学校，有一位跟我挺好的校工告诉我开学不久后他就会离职了，因为另一间公司offer的价钱较高。。。你们知道在我学校当校工日薪是多少吗？一天rm20。。。听后觉得有点惭愧，有时我一天就会花超过二十了。。。
想要一个人的空间的念头越来越强烈，告诉弟弟，在我三十岁以前，一定要有自己的房子。。。还有十年，读完书后一定要努力赚钱。。。

meaningful......

~在朋友的friendster profile找到这个。。。很有意思。。。读着读着，真的会想起以前在小学那段时期。。。排队刷牙，拿粉笔画朋友的白衣等等。。。这些都是十来岁时我们会做的事情。。。。现在呢？再过一年，就二十岁了，接触的东西不再是这些了。。。不知不觉，我也有十多年交情的朋友了，时间真的过得很快。。。
发现，对话也会有改变。。。

*十岁时，坐在隔壁的我们会问：“xx你考到多少分？我才xx分而已，一定会被老师鞭。。。：（*

*十五岁时，不同班的我们会隔着电话说：“你跟他在一起了啊？很好叻，不用暗恋到酱辛苦。。。”*

*十八岁时，毕业了的我们会在某朋友的生日会碰面时问：“现在你过得怎样，有人追吗？或者有工介绍吗？哈哈！在量着地叻！”*

*二十一岁时，分开已久的我们还是会通过电话问会十八岁时会问的问题，加上一定会谈近况，谈男朋友。。。

*二十五岁时，开始会收到‘红色炸弹’，然后十多年交情的朋友就会相约一起买礼服，帮忙姐妹筹备婚礼。。。

*三十岁时，会谈自己的家庭。。。

*四十岁时，会谈自己的孩子。。。

*过后？哈哈，想不到了，毕竟自己现在才十九岁。。。但这个文章我会保留给我的未来。。。

人生，多奇妙。。。问问自己，自己的一生中有多个三十岁。。。每个人生阶段都有不同的故事。。。而每一则故事都是值得等待的，因为那时属于自己的过去，现在与未来。。。

很庆幸的，我找到一班就像以上那样的朋友，虽然我们不常联络，但大家都在彼此的心中。。。

~影响我最深的姐妹：芸云，蔓菱
毕生难忘的好朋友：小学yamcha那班朋友，还有中学那班gang。。。
你们当中有几个可以和我一起庆祝十年的anniversary了，走到这里，毅然发现，友情要走到这里真的不简单。影响我最深的那两个姐妹也不知道和她们吵过多少次架。。。只想说，朋友，我珍惜你们^_^ ~

today juz so-so........

Second laz day having my chemistry extra class, was having a sux, real sux presentation n teacher was sooo disappointed on my group...reli sorry teacher, i know we r not putting in our effort enough, n no team work has shown among us...i was sooo sorry, i'm not a gd team player....i desperately hope dat i hav the chance to present one more time....well, i hav learnt a lesson today, nvr said :'nvm la, do it properly next time lo......',NVR.......once the chance has gone, it has gone forever....muz look through the slides all over again one day b4 u present, n muz hav confidence when speaking in front public, i know my public speaking skill is poor....even myself oso dunno wad i am talking about.....:(.... well, i'll learn to be more expressive.....

After the class has finished, (opps, i know teacher is in bad mood, today's juz not my day,argghhh)...go to tuition together wiv mehala at kasturi...b4 dat, hav our lunch at 汉记, selling porridge... nice porridge, hehe.....my tongue is cooked.....>_<.... Still early man, we still hav 2 hours extra b4 the class start...so, we lepak at Peter Hoe's gallery....i know it's rather odd, but mehala told me dat the stuff they sell r nice n....it's juz nice....hahah, so we decided to hav a look on it.....one word to describe, 'GREAT', juz feel great when i enter the shop.....if u hav a keen in interior design, u may hav a 'tour' over there...the things they sell r reli...i would like to call it 'sense of life'.....i wish i can decorate my house like dat way....微弱的光线，潺潺的流水声...so i told her, next time i wan to earn a lot of money n realize my 'dream'...the price?!hmm......neither too expensive nor cheap, of coz....maybe for a student, it's impossible for me to own the things dat easily for the time being,however, for a working ppl, they definitely can afford it...

~很有‘感觉’的空间。。。

~。。。灯光有点太弱。。。

After having a quick tour, we had some funny conversation...

CY: Next time i wan to marry to an interior designer n design our place together....

Mehala: No, u shud marry to an architect, at least he knows how to build a house...summore, he surely will know lots of interior designers....

CY: If like dis, then do u think "fall for a music guy(especially saxephone, guitar n piano, they r juz attractive....>_<), marry to an architect, then hav an affair wiv an interior designer" would be better??

CY and Mehala: AHhahahahah.........

Haha, was talking nonsense....after dat we went to popular n read sum books, not stpm books....haha....i was reading some books about YOGA and PILATES, fall in luv wiv them oredi...learning head stand now, wiv the help of wall, completed quarter of it, hopefully i can completely do the head stand without the wall, however it's quite hard for me, coz i'm not following any yoga lesson rite now, wad i learnt was by myself n from my cousin who had learnt b4...hmm....overall, for yoga, i juz need more practises, to enhance my flexibility, endurance n balancing as well...juz luv yoga, relax my mind n my body....everytime finish doing it, feel sumkind of peaceful....

Wad is on my mind now??I own a house, wiv a perfect interior design, no sound, perfectly silent, n i'm doing yoga postures(asana) in front a big mirror, alone...dun like anybody to disturb me when i'm doing sumthing serious....

Well, today juz so-so......the highlight juz drop on the conversation between me n mehala.........i like dis pharse, serious>>>FALL FOR A MUSIC GUY, MARRY TO AN ARCHITECT N HAV AN AFFAIR WIV AN INTERIOR DESIGNER.......lolz........

快疯了。。。

我真的快疯了。。。走在崩溃的边缘。。。我想找一个人说说话。。。但不懂找谁。。。电话簿从A按到Z，也不懂打给谁。。。
之前不是好好的吗？干嘛现在又来发神经。。。为什么我的抗压能力这样低。。。为什么动不动就哭？为什么一遇到这种情况我不会尝试做别的事情，我就只会哭。。。为什么这一年半这么难过？为什么我会想这样多？
一直以为自己很坚强，可是到后来才发现自己什么都不是，只是一个爱哭包。。。
一直告诉自己，周围的人不会一直陪着自己，一定要学会习惯寂寞，但这些日子我学会了什么？
为什么别人都没有事情，就是我酱多事情？
为什么我不能做我自己喜欢的东西？
为什么我那么喜欢依赖别人？
为什么我以前可以这么开心，可以笑到像傻婆酱，我现在不能？
为什么每次都要在电脑面前流眼泪？
很想把自己封闭起来，很想什么都不用想，不想讲话，不想读书。。。
很想一个人做运动，做好高难度瑜伽，游泳，打壁球，打篮球，很想流汗。。。
很累，每次哭完都很累。。。是好事吧。。。至少我会舒服一点。。。

my story....

~when i was in f3.....my fren said i still look the same, no changing.....but i feel that i change a lot.......the oni thing that nvr change is my chubby face...(studying '03)

~when i was in f5, jeannie was beside me....teacher wasn't in the class, wakakka........(studying '05)

~early of 2006, me n winnie, at titiwangsa secondary school's awards day....miss my fair skin..sob sob.....still chubby, however, can c my chin more obvious.....(holiday-ing '06)

~me, inside vincent's car....attended his graduation in pj, if not mistaken...(holiday-ing '06)

~hong ting n i....during her birthday party....lots of ppl ask me:"is that ur bf?"....MY GOD, EXCUSE ME, SHE IS A GIRL.....my ten years over fren....knew her since primary.....(holiday-ing + working '06)

~me n carmen's niece.....SO CUTE.....feel like wanna hav my own baby...wakkaka, talking crap again....now she about 2 years old edi....so faz......(holiday-ing + working '06)

~while waiting my parents....self-snap-ing.....hahahha.......i still remember dat day was the day i got my first spec.....seldom wear it somehow....(holiday-ing '06)

~juz start my lower 6 in titiwangsa....small gathering wiv my f5 classmates.......winnie n i....she is now doing civil engineering in utp....miss her a lot....laz time was sitting beside me, always listen me singing....my ever first fan.....wakkaka.....muax!!!(studying '06)

~candy n i.....doing my lower 6 in titiwangsa, but juz for one month...after dat transfer to SJI....dat day was teacher's day....hahah....(studying-L6 '06)


~inside chi ling's car......heading to times square to meet cindy....traffic jam man!!!dat day was my first time watched movie till 2am late night, then yam cha wiv them till 3 sumthing in the morning......(studying-L6 '06)

~finish my lower 6....holiday-ing in kuantan wiv my parents.....(holiday-ing '06)


~during my 10 days pjkn camp.....wah, dis one i damn miss.....cant ever forget the 10 days life at kuala kubu bharu.........learnt a lot....realize a lot.....injured a lot too......twist my left leg, injured my right arm.....eventhough the 10 days were tough to go thru, but i was feeling contented everyday.....(holiday-ing?? '06)

~this is the result of playing 12 kaki.....badly injured.....dat day was my birthday summore.......still got scar till now....nvm, as a memory.......hehe.........(holiday-ing??? '06)

~me, after cuming back from pjkn....holiday-ing at awana kijal, terengganu...becum blackie edi........again i miss my FAIR skin....(holiday-ing '06)

~start my upper 6.....wiv jeannie.......while celebrating winnie's birthday at klcc, forgot wad's the restaurant named....(studying '07)

~me n hui sun.....was having a farewell party for jeannie.....she is going to aus to further her study.....take k ya.....(studying '07)

CURRENTLY????READ MY PREVIOUS POST.....

conclusion>>>>c how 'stress' is torturing me....... n i miss my straight hair n fair skin.....n when oni i can get rid of my baby fat on my face???n nvr cut my frindge myself.....shud let my mom do for me.....nvr try dat again......

极长篇。。。

这是一篇很长的。。。故事？哈，找不到适合词汇。。。记载今天（2/6/07)所发生的点点滴滴。。。今天是四校联欢会，在台上唱了一首歌。。。轮到st.john's sketch时，喊了很久。。。喉咙不舒服了。。。这次的联欢会挺成功的，台下的观众都很enjoy。。。

~表演过后。。。我（你要的爱歌手），felix（你要的爱吉他手）和wai kin（你要的爱贝斯手）。。。后面两个，左边那个是shou yi,右边，不知道。。。不好意思，哈哈！

~我和wai kin。。。amplifier problem。。。真的听不到你的bass。。。都是靠感觉走。。。还好guitar够大声。。。但台下更大声，我的天哪！

~li jia和我。。。^_^。。。thanks for cuming。。。

~我和xin yi。。。有人说她像我妹妹，哈哈！干嘛做那种鬼脸！！！我说我自己。。。

~felix和我。。。^_^。。。超好笑，在台上我真的慌到OMG。。。连senior都在台下对我喊‘不要紧张’。。。哈哈！也谢谢你在开始时跑过来对我说：“不要紧张”，结束后又跑过来对我说：“记得说谢谢”。。。哈哈，下次如果还有酱的场面，我会记得的！！希望下次还有机会跟你一起飙歌啦！嘻嘻！

~我和jia wen senior，很高兴你来。。。aiyer,忘记和yi ching拍，伤心。。。：（

~我和‘弟弟’。。。也是多年邻居，哈哈！别再想了，你主持得很好。。。

~又是一个“晴天”，可是其实活动结束后心情跌到谷底。。。一时不能平衡自己的情绪。。。中间太high了。。。活动结束后看到‘冷冷’的四周，真的有股想跑去厕所哭的冲动。。。其实在搬着桌子就哭了一点点，没人发现罢了。。。我就是这么奇怪。。。爱哭包。。。

~yun han。。。可怜他遗失了他的bag。。。希望你能找回。。。今天也打了一下篮球。。。真的很晒，把我的脸晒得红红的。。。

~去了明船一趟，学茶艺，为了华文学会的活动而学的。。。那里的气氛很好。。。其实很‘火’一个人，在线上让我看到他一定把他臭骂一顿。。。超不负责任的男副主席。。。真的‘火’到冒烟了。。。别以为我怕得罪人就不敢骂人，我真的很不爽我也可以敢敢来。。。还好那里的气氛让我没有酱‘火’，但还是很‘火’就对了！！！！

~别以为泡茶很容易，其实真的很讲究的。。。今天才知道原来茶可以是很清甜的，因为印象中的茶都是涩的。。。泡着‘佛手’，绿茶的一种。。。今天才知道，泡茶最重要的不是手法，而是对时间的掌控，还有水的温度。。。不同的茶需要不同的泡法。。。不错，学了很多，手指头都被烫伤了。。。突然想起在某一部偶像剧里的一段话。。。“咖啡要在对的时间和温度喝，感觉才会对”。。。‘timing’，永远都是我在生活中拿不准的东西，尤其是感情。。。音乐除外。。。从小被音乐熏陶，对音乐的timing我可是很敏感的。。。

~喝着茶。。。真的很甜。。。也奉劝读着的朋友不要再喝‘雪茶’了。。。很伤身的。。。会导致内伤的哦！！

~无聊-ing。。。头发真的很丑。。。。：（

~酒精炉。。。

~终于可以回家了。。。最后一站了，轻快铁里冷冷的。。。外面的天气也冷冷的。。。下午曝晒过了，现在又冷到。。。觉得自己真的会病倒。。。

*好有收获的一天。。。甜酸苦辣都在这一天经历了。。。

甜：终于在我中学最后一年有那么一次自己觉得relatively rock的演出。。。不晓得下次还有没有机会这样玩了。。。i mean live band, 虽然我们少了键盘手和鼓手。。。还是头一次与朋友飙歌耶！一个字‘爽’。。。虽然之前真的很很很很紧张，但站在台上唱完后，感觉好像几秒罢了。。。也很开心因为小学和中学朋友都来了，读着college也来了，billy，谢谢你哦！但我觉得我辜负你们了，我并没有炒high现场的气氛。。。shyh jia，不好意思哦！听到你给我打的分数其实真的没有伤心啦，我也知道我这次的演出没有100分。。。还有，爱盈在我唱完后跑上来给我抱了一个，爱你哦！^_^

酸：哈哈，有啦！但留给自己就好了。。。

苦：早上开不到声，担心。。。又很紧张，adrenaline飙到最高点。。。现在，喉咙痛着，喊太久了。。。还有，之前和之后的情绪太extreme了，一时平衡不过来，伤感了好一会儿。。。

辣：‘火’咯！！！！wkl，你真的要给我骂了！！！！还有刺激咯，突然间rock的chorus插进来，不管了，rock就rock。。。但最后那part竟然没有像penny这样飙，感觉好像泼了台下观众冷水。。。真的真的后悔了！！！因为之前的comment叫我不要喊。好啦，现在后悔了。。。

今天，戏剧，歌唱（felix,不要再耿耿于怀了，下次记得在演出前tune多一次。。。不过，台下的观众还是很enjoy啊！对不对？^_^)，舞蹈。。。都很精彩。。。真的真的很棒！！算很成功了！！！yeah!!!!

好啦，让我耍感性一下子吧。。。结束了，一切都结束了。。。不只是节目，还有很多，应该只有自己知道的事吧，都结束了。。。想太多的人，收拾心情，回到读书岗位，加油！我的mid-term啊！！！！！！

#冬夜里吹来一阵春风

心底的死水起了波动

虽然那温暖片刻无踪

谁能忘却了失去的梦

蔡明亮#

~在明船发现的，很suit我的心情。。。